~Beadsville~

Bullet post

BAM - Been dizzy on and off for a week. Makes working tricky. According to a quick blood test there's nothing wrong with me, according to the patronizing doctor who waved off my problems.

(Hey Azure, if I come to NY will you give me a physical?)

BAM - I recall "The Mosquito Coast" as being a lot darker. Watching it in two parts might've jarred it for me? Or I was really young the first time I saw it so it had a greater impact on me then. "Be a man!" Ford's performance really rocked. Scarily so.

BAM - Bought a new phone today. Old one wouldn't stop vibrating after answering a call. I praise myself for keeping it a whole year after it got damaged, though. New one is a .... *checks* .... Nokia 5310 Xpress Music.

BAM - Mom took me shopping after the blood work and acquiring of phone-ness. Crazy-wonderful woman bought me clothes. We both squeezed ourselves into the changing stall, haha. I felt too wasted to try anything on in the store so I sat on a folding chair in the stall while mom held them up in front of me to make the final decision on what got bought and not. She realized what I've suffered from knowing for years. It's hard to shop for me. I require specific colors and cuts, which are rare to come by. But we managed alright today.

BAM - Not feeling well caused me to fail in being more active with commenting ;____; I hope the combined situation of feeling sick, and fretting over how things'll work out, blows over soon. Or something else will blow.

BAM - .......... Oh yeah. I suggested to dad that he build a swing set somewhere in the garden. A couple of days ago the parents presented me with a one-seat hammock thingy. It'll do.

BAM - I go sleep now. Kisses.

I hereby dub thee Title

YAlla: Speaking of rocks, we have one in our backyard that has a freakish resemblance to a head stone O.o'
Or maybe it's just in my warped mind...

TC: That I do! And my parents need money too. It doesn't sit right with me to not be able to contribute more :-/

Azure: I deny being a nice person! ... Wait. I don't. But yeah, they pretty much did a 180 and pulled finances for me and probably a lot of other people for no good reason. It's amazing how hard it is to get information out of those people -.-

Slick: Haha, that'd be awesome. Come on over and crack some skulls! I need me a stealth ninja to make things work around here.

Schultzers: They will! .... Hopefully :3

Becky: Oooooo, looks like I'm getting my own squad to take care of business the right way *cackles*

Daggeroo: Good things will come ... they're just taking their time getting around, is all!

Shaow: Bring the badass 'tude and I'll bring the targets *sneak sneak*

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Meant to post it on the 19th but my brain obviously glossed over that intention.
Shot one eye at a time since I looked cross eyed otherwise xD

Hopefully tomorrow I'm going to get more information from the Project Leader on where things stand with moneys. I'll also have a talk with the person responsible for scheduling summer temps at work. They asked me before I could get to it, which is a positive reflection on my performance I reckon, though it'll entail fiddling around with my part-time sick leave grant. Slightly worried about the possible complications that might bring about but right now I'm just going with the flow.

Other than that I NEED TO GET TO THE GYM. To build up stamina/strength for working more hours. And lose dead weight. I'm not überly attractive normally but being chunky bugs me ;_; And I miss that totally relaxed feeling after a good work out :)

Give me my money back

Give me my money back, Give me my money back, Give me my money back you [beeep] - part of a Ben Folds Five song my sister Angela played me a looooong time ago.

So...... apparently I'm supposed to work and not get any money for doing so. Starting this week. One of the two ladies from the Project that work with me got the baffling news today and alerted me about it. She said I don't have to work until this is figured out (I'm meeting with the other lady next Wednesday) but asked what I wanted to do.

My great powers of DENIAL immediately kicked in, I adopted a cheerful attitude about it all and stated that I'd do the days regardless. "Everything's hunkydory, everything'll work out, I'm not the least bit affected by the mess that's surely about to ensue, lalalalala, rainbows and unicorns!"

But let's face it, it bothers me how this came out of the blue. More than I have the energy to explain right now.

It's ironic that, aside from the Project women who fight for me (they are my warriors) and do pretty much all the work, the people who were supposed to help me with my foundation are so utterly useless and incompetent in doing their part that it's threatening to tip my delicate balance. AGAIN. Do they want to render my efforts pointless and keep me in this cycle of one step forward two blows backwards?

I know it might seem too early to feel defeated but I've had it.
*goes to sleep and tries to Phoenix Down a heavily battered fighting spirit*

Sloppy sleep

Aaaaaaaa, I need to make a post or it'll take another week before I come close to... oh noes .... motivation waning..... Must post so I'll get a good reason for editing it with more and better content. Not to mention commentary comments.

Plz do be holding off on comments until tomorrow, okies? :3
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Commentary comments ^_^

Shaow: If I hadn't spoiled myself of the entire story by reading episode summaries it probably would've been a show to watch, despite its sadness ^^; And yes, you're a horribly wonderful person *snuggles*

Morphall: Or I could just pounce on you, for instance, and coo over/pet you :D

Slick: "Kanon" manages to break my heart despite knowing full well what's coming. Talk about great re-watchability! .... Ya know, I'm kinda tempted to see what "Onegai Teacher" is about now Px

TC: Squeeeee! "Haibane Renmei" was the first show I purchased, going only on the excited reactions from friends, without having seen anything of it and knowing a little about the story, hehehe. Boy was it worth it! Everything about it makes me flap my arms around in a failed attempt to express why I like the show :D

Dageroo: Hmmm, "Aria" you say? *makes a note* I'm sure you've talked about that one at your place so I'll hop over there and see what's been squeed said about it ;p

Azure: Arrr, we no have video game rentals around these here parts. But the general gist of it all wasn't lost on me so I'll leave it at that :P Thanks anyway!

Shabam: Good girl, stay well away from that one, mmmhmmmm *clings and pets protectively*

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Actual post >.>

*cracks back* Ok, let's get this thing going.... more properly xD Wow, it took me all but 10 seconds to get distracted. The soundtrack to "Grease" is on my desk, upside down, and reading their names made me think about how the leads both have John in their names. John-John. Such a lame tangent. I'm ashamed ;___; Diverting ... NOW!

Aside from the horrible opening paragraph (or make that two *cringe*) I've been struck with a semi-serious case of blankness this week. Not really depressed but definitely not chipper. More like "I stay in bed and do nothing, k?". It got a little bit better towards the weekend so it shouldn't be too long before it's gone alltogether.

Seeing as it's been so long since I had my last "mood dip" it kinda confused me at first, especially when there was no event or occurrence that could've triggered my state of mind. And then I was almost disappointed by the lack of a bigger reason xD;;

Another reason for my incapability is something Yahoo Games refer to as Solitaire Mahjong. Back in the day I had it on my computer (called Tai Pei) but after many switches it got lost and the void that was left is now being seriously filled over the brim, hehe. Though it makes me crave playing Literati even more!

Speaking of which, I really should pen down my ideas of Literati Square instead of hoping they don't get lost inside the dizzying place that is my brain (and I'm always open for suggestions if you guys have any as well). It would be so much fun if we could arrange actual tournaments instead of my version *dreams*

Unless motivation fails me you can expect a new Challenge in the Square tomorrow. Until then, take care and I love you all in my own special way ^_^

Forgetting a title will erase your post

So after the wonderful experience of H2O ~Footprints in the Sand~ I made the even more wonderful mistake of watching Now and Then, Here and There.

- "Whoa, wait! Are you being sarcastic? I thought you seriously disliked the first one?" you might exclaim. True.
It wasn't ultimate love at first sight but it had way too many good points to totally hate it. And watching that other anime made me appreciate it 10.000 times more.

Unless you're into abysmal mental violation that leaves you obliteratingly distraught and devoid of any will to stay alive after forcing yourself through all of the episodes in a vain hope that there'll be a faint shimmer of an uplifting note, do not watch "Now and Then, Here and There"!!!!!!!!!

(The only reason anyone would watch it is if they're feeling suicidal and need that extra push to violently off themselves. And it's one whopper of a push.)

Despite coming dangerously close to a psychological meltdown after marathoning two seriously dangerous shows, guess what I did? Yep. Tackled another one! :D Only this time I was fairly sure it would be pretty harmless and it turned out to be just that. But you may still thwack me on the head and call me silly/brainless. Reprimands will be accepted by the door, either on entry or exit *bows*

Unfortunately .hack//Sign "continues in the game", which I have no intention of playing, so now I'm wanting to know just what goes down after the show ends. Anyone care to spoil me?

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Ok, after being negligent in everyone's comment boxes because of the self-harming actions mentioned above, I will make sure to leave more love from now on! Amazingly enough there's still some of that emotion left in me :D;

Just one more thing. After the terrifying experience of double-combo H2O and N&TH&T, are there any other shows I need to ignore aside from Onegai Teacher? Plz save me from going through this again .... for a couple of weeks :3