~about me~

nickname: Hikaru, Mel

my favourite colors: blue, black, red, pink and white.

what I like in general: music, drawing, anime/manga, traveling , cute stuff, video games, read, culture and of course my friends and family.

What I dislike:projects (especially school projects), team work (when it comes to school), school in general -_-lll, people who bash/flame/complain for nothing.

my favourite genre of music: pop, rock,techno and dance.

some of my favourite video games: Super Smash Bros. Brawl, the legend of zelda, sonic the hedgehog and other RPG games.

My wish list:

In my English class, our teacher show us the movie “the bucket list” and make us write our own bucket list ( a list of all the things that you wish to do before you die). I had many stuff on my list ^^’ , so i will put my list on my blog, like this i will not lose or forget about it. When i done one of them, i will put a “x” next to it.

-traveling around the world(especially Japan): Have been to Portugal and US (it's a beguining ^-^''')
-I want to see the Olympic Games
-learn other languages: I know French, English, Portuguese and a little of Spanish and Chinese (the basic). It's great for now XP
-draw a manga (more like a fan-comic but anyway XP: I will start soon.
-have a hug from my favourites music bands
-live a happy life
-I want to make plushy x3
-I want to get married and have children, one day♥
-I want to rule the world !!!! XD (might not happen but I can still dream)
-Be good at writting
-Cosplay =D
-and other stuffs that I will put later:P

Hetalia♥
Right now Hetalia is my number one obsession XP, so there is some info about my fav. stuff:

My fav. characters (not really in order): China!!! England, America,Russia, Canada, France(lol all the allies XD),Italy.

My fav. Pairings (not in order): USUK, Rochu, Germaita, Liet/Poland, Dennor, Sufin, HKtaiwan.

more about me:

I am a shy and quiet person, but i am very kind and open minded and I really like to make new friends:P.I am also the kind of person who keeps many stuff for herself (and thats not always good XD) , so i hope that having a blog will help me being able to be more “open” in life. So in this blog i will talk about random things that happen in my life :P. I am mostly going to put some sketch of my fanarts, comics or the ideas of fanfics in my blog.

Also , i’m not really good in writing in English (i make a lots of mistakes ) and i really want to improve my writing , so I hope that having this blog will also help me:P.

Also, I have a deviantart X3 All my sketch will be upload in better version (digital lineart and/ or color etc.) there ^-^.

http://chibi-hikaru.deviantart.com/

^^thanks everyone^^

bad week

Yep, I'm having a really bad week -_-llll

It was supposed to be good since it was just a week of 4 days, but apparently the odds are against me =_=lll

School complains (Yep this needs a special section)

So yeah, I had my Economic exam today and OMG I think I'm going to fail it -_-lll

it was so complicated, some of the questions I didn't even remembered the answers and I don't know, we didn't have enough time to study because our teacher suck. He was rushing over the last chapter and he just teach us the last chapter of 30 pages in 10 minutes. Really?! O.o It's just awfull D=. Apparently we only have 2 other classes to learnt about the 4 last chapter, dude! We are never going to make it on time DX.

And it's the same thing about Maths we are going to have an exam in exacly one week and we just saw 10% of what will be in the exam. Hourray!!

Argh, I long to finish with stupid school!!!!!!!

I'm starting work at 7 am saturday, i'll have to wake up before I wake up to go to school it's insane O.o.

I miss so much the past. I feel so much nostalgic D= It's been a really long time since I felt this way . Normally it's about may or october, but it's about a really long time I didn't feel like that. *sigh* I must be old? XD

Sad

I feel so sad, I don’t know if it is because I’m moody or because of the weather but I feel super depress.

I have to take summer class because I need it, but when I paid for it today I felt so bad… It kinda of discourage me =(.

I feel stupid and guilty to take this class, I’m so afraid I disappointed my parents, I feel so bad. They didn’t say anything but they were wondering why I had to take another class and now I really feel like I don’t want take summer class anymore.

I feel so sad for not being able to explain better to my parents and not being more honest with them and telling them more about myself. I would love so much if I was this kind of person, perhaps if I was like this and was more honest I wouldn’t be afraid to hurt or disappoint them.
And they would probably understand me better and I would lie less to them…

More than I think about it more the more I’m a shame of myself…I wasn’t like this before...now I don’t know what to think anymore...I feel stupid :,(

I wish I could talk to some one about all this and forget about all the bad things...
I wish I could escape this reality...

I don't know but since the begining of the year bad things happen to me;
-I fail my class, so I have to take it again...
-I was in a team project with a friend, but she cancel her class so I had to find other teamates.
-Since my grand-father's death, my grand-mother is living with us, it's nothing bad even if some things in my life as change, but now we are in the middle of a familly fight and I'm really tired of this damn problem.
-My mother is losing patience because of all this too, and I feel so bad for her.
-I had major problems with a team project, that I had to quit the team (I was lucky the teacher is kind)
-I'm probably failing math...hope it turns out better...
-I have a job, it's great yeah but now I can't focus as much on school anymore and I'm really not the best at work -_-lll
-My brother as problems in school too....

yep, with all this I think I'm probably cursed or something =,(
I hope to have something that will make this better...