~about me~

nickname: Hikaru, Mel

my favourite colors: blue, black, red, pink and white.

what I like in general: music, drawing, anime/manga, traveling , cute stuff, video games, read, culture and of course my friends and family.

What I dislike:projects (especially school projects), team work (when it comes to school), school in general -_-lll, people who bash/flame/complain for nothing.

my favourite genre of music: pop, rock,techno and dance.

some of my favourite video games: Super Smash Bros. Brawl, the legend of zelda, sonic the hedgehog and other RPG games.

My wish list:

In my English class, our teacher show us the movie “the bucket list” and make us write our own bucket list ( a list of all the things that you wish to do before you die). I had many stuff on my list ^^’ , so i will put my list on my blog, like this i will not lose or forget about it. When i done one of them, i will put a “x” next to it.

-traveling around the world(especially Japan): Have been to Portugal and US (it's a beguining ^-^''')
-I want to see the Olympic Games
-learn other languages: I know French, English, Portuguese and a little of Spanish and Chinese (the basic). It's great for now XP
-draw a manga (more like a fan-comic but anyway XP: I will start soon.
-have a hug from my favourites music bands
-live a happy life
-I want to make plushy x3
-I want to get married and have children, one day♥
-I want to rule the world !!!! XD (might not happen but I can still dream)
-Be good at writting
-Cosplay =D
-and other stuffs that I will put later:P

Hetalia♥
Right now Hetalia is my number one obsession XP, so there is some info about my fav. stuff:

My fav. characters (not really in order): China!!! England, America,Russia, Canada, France(lol all the allies XD),Italy.

My fav. Pairings (not in order): USUK, Rochu, Germaita, Liet/Poland, Dennor, Sufin, HKtaiwan.

more about me:

I am a shy and quiet person, but i am very kind and open minded and I really like to make new friends:P.I am also the kind of person who keeps many stuff for herself (and thats not always good XD) , so i hope that having a blog will help me being able to be more “open” in life. So in this blog i will talk about random things that happen in my life :P. I am mostly going to put some sketch of my fanarts, comics or the ideas of fanfics in my blog.

Also , i’m not really good in writing in English (i make a lots of mistakes ) and i really want to improve my writing , so I hope that having this blog will also help me:P.

Also, I have a deviantart X3 All my sketch will be upload in better version (digital lineart and/ or color etc.) there ^-^.

http://chibi-hikaru.deviantart.com/

^^thanks everyone^^

Sad

I feel so sad, I don’t know if it is because I’m moody or because of the weather but I feel super depress.

I have to take summer class because I need it, but when I paid for it today I felt so bad… It kinda of discourage me =(.

I feel stupid and guilty to take this class, I’m so afraid I disappointed my parents, I feel so bad. They didn’t say anything but they were wondering why I had to take another class and now I really feel like I don’t want take summer class anymore.

I feel so sad for not being able to explain better to my parents and not being more honest with them and telling them more about myself. I would love so much if I was this kind of person, perhaps if I was like this and was more honest I wouldn’t be afraid to hurt or disappoint them.
And they would probably understand me better and I would lie less to them…

More than I think about it more the more I’m a shame of myself…I wasn’t like this before...now I don’t know what to think anymore...I feel stupid :,(

I wish I could talk to some one about all this and forget about all the bad things...
I wish I could escape this reality...

I don't know but since the begining of the year bad things happen to me;
-I fail my class, so I have to take it again...
-I was in a team project with a friend, but she cancel her class so I had to find other teamates.
-Since my grand-father's death, my grand-mother is living with us, it's nothing bad even if some things in my life as change, but now we are in the middle of a familly fight and I'm really tired of this damn problem.
-My mother is losing patience because of all this too, and I feel so bad for her.
-I had major problems with a team project, that I had to quit the team (I was lucky the teacher is kind)
-I'm probably failing math...hope it turns out better...
-I have a job, it's great yeah but now I can't focus as much on school anymore and I'm really not the best at work -_-lll
-My brother as problems in school too....

yep, with all this I think I'm probably cursed or something =,(
I hope to have something that will make this better...

Future plans and projects

Hey, benn a long time once again.

I was thinking about closing my blog, since i'm not sure of what to do with it, I mean I have now a LJ so I upload someow random stuff of my life there and I have DA to put my drawings. But then I thought that maybe it could be useful somehow.

Yeah I thought of using it as a place to put the drafts of my personal projects, such as my drawings that I still couldn't color and my scanned comics, stuff like that. I will probably do that I think.

Recently, I have so many stuff to do in life but I don't feel like doing it-_-lll so instead I draw or other stuff and I'm so totaly not motivated on my own life work. I don't understand much of the subject in school and my classes suck;In economic our new teacher doesn't even know the subject, in maths i'm failing and i'm trying to work to pass but I don't understand anything T_T. I try to ask the teacher but his explanations are so complicated and my friends don't force themself to do the homeworks so they can't help me -_-llll I just really hate my classes this session. It's like my worste session DX.

My other life sucks too, I don't feel like goign to work -_-lll I miss the days when I could sleep in the morning and be free D= and my mother is currently annoying me, she thinks I'm on diet and she wants me to take vitamins, and I don't like it DX.

Anyway, I hope that everything will be fine soon....