I feel so sad, I don’t know if it is because I’m moody or because of the weather but I feel super depress.
I have to take summer class because I need it, but when I paid for it today I felt so bad… It kinda of discourage me =(.
I feel stupid and guilty to take this class, I’m so afraid I disappointed my parents, I feel so bad. They didn’t say anything but they were wondering why I had to take another class and now I really feel like I don’t want take summer class anymore.
I feel so sad for not being able to explain better to my parents and not being more honest with them and telling them more about myself. I would love so much if I was this kind of person, perhaps if I was like this and was more honest I wouldn’t be afraid to hurt or disappoint them.
And they would probably understand me better and I would lie less to them…
More than I think about it more the more I’m a shame of myself…I wasn’t like this before...now I don’t know what to think anymore...I feel stupid :,(
I wish I could talk to some one about all this and forget about all the bad things...
I wish I could escape this reality...
I don't know but since the begining of the year bad things happen to me;
-I fail my class, so I have to take it again...
-I was in a team project with a friend, but she cancel her class so I had to find other teamates.
-Since my grand-father's death, my grand-mother is living with us, it's nothing bad even if some things in my life as change, but now we are in the middle of a familly fight and I'm really tired of this damn problem.
-My mother is losing patience because of all this too, and I feel so bad for her.
-I had major problems with a team project, that I had to quit the team (I was lucky the teacher is kind)
-I'm probably failing math...hope it turns out better...
-I have a job, it's great yeah but now I can't focus as much on school anymore and I'm really not the best at work -_-lll
-My brother as problems in school too....
yep, with all this I think I'm probably cursed or something =,(
I hope to have something that will make this better...
