Please do not be shy.

do not read. no seriously.

aghh

I'll write out my feelings here as a way to vent. And because there are wonderful ppl online here who would tolerate my baby-tude.

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so this is like my first time in like a month that I actually ate after 6PM. And I feel TERRIBLE. I usually eat from 1-5 PM everydaya and I ignore the hunger pains everyday. The morning isn't that bad. It's after the fam comes in that I want to join them to eat dinner.

But NAO. I ruined it cuz I had to shove chicken up my face and more cookehs and other procesed, junk.

I feel terrible.
To be honest. I would attempt puking. yes. except I'm a coward. Just like I was suuuch a coward to use that knife years back.

I feel so terrrrrible. I am one of the worst people to go ask about high self esteem becuz I have such a LOW one.

agh.

I used to be an exercise maniac, working out all the calories or extra calories I ate in the gym for like an hour, burning up 10000 calories. But now I resort to this...

and I'm an attention seeker. Yet I cringe at the attention given.

It really sucks and I feel pathetic. I wish I can turn back time so I wouldnt shove none of that stuff up my mouth. I want to puke. My body hates me. My head screams at me everydayy.

I wish I was sooo skinny people thought I was a lollipop or a toothpick.

please hate me all you want. cuz I'm sucha fat crybabeee

wahwah.

Life

hm...
I'm excited.
Michael's Art Store had a 50% discount thing going on and my dad bought me Prismacolor colored pencils. I just hope I do them justice there are people out there who are uber pros with these magic sticks xD
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anyway, back to life.
I should be pretty busy with school...since I'm falling behind in my English class T^T oh and lets not forget I have two tests tomorrow that I SHOULD be studying for. I'm so going to panic tomorrow and cram..agh.. why is procrastination in the genes of so many people? including me? x.x

agh...
well. I don't usually discuss personal life here as you can see >//<
but I just want to say something...

You. if you see this, know that I miss you
You probably moved on, but there are those times I think of you and wonder if you think of me too ><
Maybe you're right, maybe we can see each other one day
but until then, know that you're not out of my head yet.
o//o