MIA and Kelsey's Birthday Card
Okay wow, before I start I want to say how sorry I've been MIA in the last few months. I mean I know you guys don't mind or anything, I just feel bad not being around like I was. The most I did was wishing happy birthday's to everyone that had one lately. Which reminds me, I didn't miss your birthday Kelsey I was just mega busy like hell and didn't have the time to wish you a happy birthday or anything. I feel bad about but I still have an e-card for you! :)
Life Updates
Okay down to business, since my last update life has gotten a lot better for me personally! Lots of new and wonderful changes! The most important one is finally realizing that I was making my whole life an excuse by staying at home hoping things would get better. I decided to stop making bull crap excuses for myself and finally start making a grand master plan to change my life. Not just in living situation but truly making myself happy. I pretty much took every advantage I had currently and start making the most out of them in all areas in my life.
I started to make the most out of my angel reading business with great results. Including starting to make weekly video readings. They are a huge hit and I've met wonderful people in the short time I made them. I really enjoy doing them because I'm my natural silly self with my love of the spiritual, mystical and magical!
--- A week later ---
Thanksgiving and Stressed Friendship
Happy super late Thanksgiving guys! I had a good one for the most part. I actually spent the night over my friend Jeremy's house with another good friend Rasid. We all had such a blast. We all came to the sleep over on Wednesday talked and went to the movies. We saw Red Dawn that turned out to be a really good movie despite it's war theme. After that we went to Uno's an awesome restaurant to eat at. I had their shrimp and lobster scampi that was really good. We all gotten so full so fast since we had popcorn at the theater, so we all had food to take home. When we got home we basically talked for about an hour and went to sleep. That's how full we was! We've been pigging out together a lot lately but it's always fun!
The next morning we all woke up, talked, ate our left over food, played video games for a few hours then I cooked some breakfast for lunch. I made pancakes, turkey bacon (yum), and scrabbled eggs. They loved everything and we had a pretty big feast. Of course we talked some more watched a little t.v and Jeremy took us home.
I wished the sleep over lasted longer but Jeremy went to Brandon's Thanksgiving. Things between me and Brandon have been weird lately. I didn't mention this but Brandon got a girlfriend at the end of summer and the whole thing turned bad because of misunderstandings. We straighten things out but ever since we haven't been hanging out lately. No where near as much as we use too. That, and his girlfriend is mega insecure so whenever I said something to him via chat or ANYTHING I have to hear her mouth through Brandon or someone else. She swear we're flirting and just dumb shit basically. I've gotten so frustrated that I ripped Brandon's head off over it last weekend. We had a nice talk about it afterwards but since then I only heard from him once. So when he didn't invite me to thanksgiving I felt bad, then I felt bad for feeling bad because I would of declined anyway because his idiot girlfriend was there. I just figured he would of extended an invite anyway. :/
So when I got home I felt a bit down and out, especially coming home to my sister and mom already tipsy and having to hear their mouths. The most they cooked that day was the mac and cheese and chitlins (pig intestines). My mom decided to cook the turkey for X-mas this morning. I'm not a fan of the traditional thanksgiving meal anymore. Turkey is not that great and I swear I eat the same stuff already. I want something new lol. I had a little bit of the mac and cheese and I'm not eating pork so the chitlins are out, they are kind of a hit or miss anyway because of my tastes.
Moving On
Life has been going up generally but some areas in my life has been hitting a somewhat sour note. But what can you do, I already chose to move on from this weird me, tard girlfriend and Brandon shit. Brandon is my friend, it'll always be that way even if I feel slightly bitter towards him because of all this. But I'm doing my best to detach myself from this situation and let this dying dog die. Whatever happens to them as a whole is not my problem. I'm going to enjoy my life from the outside of it instead of being half in and half out of their mess.
Sorry this post was partly a downer, despite letting this go, hearing about it during the sleep over erupted my emotions about it again. But I'm still in the process of moving on so it's not that surprising and I won't beat myself up about it. Thanks for reading guys! Helpfully you'll see more art and journal posts from me!
Take care!
Just started to finish my mew berry picture. Funny how I get random inspirations for things.
Just in case anyone is wondering, I've been doing fairly well. I've been doing more and working on myself to be a lot more confidant in everything I do. I feel and see the difference! I feel now that I'm more than able to do all the things I need and want to do. It's quite nice because that feeling doesn't stay for long when I do have it. I'm making it my business to stop self-sabotaging myself and get right with what I need emotionally. But yeah, I'm feeling great and tomorrow I'm going to South Street with Yvette (the new friend I mentioned for months now) for her birthday which is actually on a Sunday lol. I'm really looking forward to it and so is she! :D
Take care everyone!
Hey everyone! Just showing off yet another WIP that I did.
I started this last night when I was inspired to draw my "heart break mode" fursona style. While I was doing it, I thought it would of been a great idea to make the concept into a match three game. Haha, I could see the screen shots and everything, it was pretty awesome. I want to pursue that as a personal project once I'm in a good enough head space.
Overall, life has been good, mostly due to my deepening of self and figuring out what I truly want out of my life. I still need to post about that because it's pretty awesome and I feel a total change in myself because of it!
Other then that, I've been putting more effort into my angel card reading business with great results! I've even made a raffle for my most popular reading today with a great turn out thus far, so I'm pretty happy. One more thing before I go, I've gotten into a new craft called "vision boards". It's when you cut out and arrange pictures and words relating to the desire or goal you want to achieve. As a means to attracting it faster to you. I love it because I can "see" my goals instead of having them in my head where doubt lurks often. That and it's a whole new way for me to be creative which is one of my biggest goals in life. So finally getting started on them was a huge step forward for me. I made them on my computer so I used them as rotating wallpapers. I've been a lot happier since I started so that's a great sign!
Before I go I want to give a super shout out to aragorn1014 because it is her birthday today! So send her lots of love and happy b-day messages!
Take care!
Hey everyone! It's been a whole month since a personal post was made. Lots of change has been the theme of my life this year and I feel that I'm transitioning between old and new.
Summer overall has been, challenging. BUT there have been many experiences that made it special and wonderful too. Like meeting Yvette, having Rashid, another new friend of mine move back to the city and learning more about myself. No doubt however I still feel like I've been beaten up by life through the tough parts which lead me to fall into a deep depression about 2-3 weekends ago.
It was the worst I've felt in months but I've recovered quickly and in that time frame I decided to cut down my internet time drastically. The facebook, forums, sites and a lot of the places I frequent at where not helping me and made me feel worst. I decided to keep a few heart felt places and past times and to take a break from the rest. It's just that I've been feeling too open and I've been spreading myself way too thin. A lot of my goals and dreams I feel are not valid in my life anymore. I want something different even if I don't know what they are. And for the first time in a long time I have no idea where I'm going in life. I have my spiritual career which I love and will always evolve and keep going, but it's not my dream like The Candy Sanctuary was. TCS was something I really wanted and I just feel like striving for it as a life long dream no longer fits in my life. I explained all this before so I won't go too far in it again haha.
It's kinda hard to explain in words since a lot of it is emotional rather then "facts" but everything I knew about myself and life is drastically changing in ways I didn't think possible. A new path is opening up to me and I have no idea what it is, or what it contains. The only things I know I really want to do and I have to really lean on is that I "want to make people happy" and some type of humanitarian effort. Something I never really had as a dream (or thought would be my dream) since all of my goals is me achieving some type of material status (having a big business and etc), even if it involved making people feel good in general. All this have thrown me in a tail spin where I feel good one minute and inferior the next. It's hard to keep up with everything when I'm going through so much inside, like a clash of ideals. I know that things will work out but the road there is very bumpy, emotionally especially.
Besides that topic itself, I've been on my hiatus for a few weeks now and it helped a lot. I've been hanging out with friends, playing video games and doing things outside the computer a lot more lately. It helps me think outside the box and beyond just my business and what I use to want. Now I'm more able to do the things that I want to do than the things I feel like I should do. In odd ways, even if I don't feel it in the moment, things are working out. I'm creating a new kinds of readings with colors and angels that I know will be great for the people that want them. I've continued writing a blog post on a topic that I feel passionate about, I stopped at 10 pages even though I had so much to say haha! I'm also focusing more on myself and my talents than on the outside. Focusing on my talents to bring the change I feel and want in this world will surely help me find my way.
So in turn it's all working out but I'm emotionally unstable still. I also forgot to mention my new theme. In light of all this change, I wanted to make a total theme makeover to fit how I felt inside, including the world name, Undiscovered Worlds. I wanted a fall yet homely theme and the background really makes it all come together so I'm happy with it! I hope you all are doing well yourselves! I'm sure to post new works soon since I'm loving making e-cards!
Take care everyone!
Hey everyone!
I just got stared laying down some of the base colors for my latest picture, Mew Berry! I wanted to go for more bolder colors and I like what I have so far. I'm also going for a simpler cell shaded look with some added details. I haven't colored anything in a while so this will be a treat to do!
I also want to mention my latest card that I made, Lonely. It's my favorite card yet so go check it out if you haven't already!
Also, I never had a chance to post about some of my other recent cards!
For Angel's birthday!
One of my person favorites!
The last thing I want to mention is the feature I was in! Zombieusagi was sweet enough to recommend me to ItachiSasuke that made the feature in one of her worlds. I can't get over how sweet everyone here is and one of the main reasons I will never leave this place. I love the tight knit family package here and plus it's my art home. :) So thank you a ton!
Thanks for looking everyone! I should make a personal update soon haha! Take care!
