Hey hey everyone! Here’s another update on my life! 8-D
Once again a huge update, I don’t know how to say this but… I’ve gotten my first kiss. D:
Yeah, these virgin lips have finally found another. And I would advise to take cover but seeing that this happened last Friday I know nothing bad happened afterwards. In fact what happened after the kiss was the best part of the day!
That day we hung out at the King of Prussia mall after I left school. Going to the lego store and making some bad ass cars. He tried making a tank like car while I throw my creative edge into the pits of hell making a total abomination of a car XD. All I did was piled legos on top of one another and added wheels to them, but that’s not the best part, I tiled the tower of legos so it was at an angle THEN added wheels. It was epic for sure. I made another car too that was more like a car then a wall of legos. So someone left their chick-fil-a cow toy there and I made a spot where he sit and ride in my car of future death. GOD I love the lego store. So we raced them on this ramp so we can see how epic the explosion of legos will be. My tiled tower of death didn’t fall apart as awesome as we thought which kinda sucked because I wanted to see something awesome. His wheels just popped off the bottom when it hit the end of the track. It was funny as hell. I raced my other car with the cow in it and the cow flew out of it and onto the floor. It was truly badass.
After we took over the lego store for about an hour we headed to the big borders with the love seats I would die to have in my cramped room. He read fairy tale when I read some beading and craft books and magazines. I never realized that there were so many great ideas floating around out there like that. I hope I can get an original idea that can be my trade mark product one day, but till then I shall have fun trying to find it.
Anyway after we left from the mall to downtown it started to rain and gay shit so we went into the borders there to escape the rain till it calmed down. As soon as it looked safe and we headed down towards Penns landing which has an awesome huge river which you can gawk at trash and birds. It starts raining hard again and thunder storming so we hid under a store roof thing. You know when there’s a corner and the store doors are imbedding in the corner and you can walk across in front of them to the go across instead of going around the sidewalk corner? Well if I blew some brain cells I’m sorry, some things I can’t explain for the life of me >__>.
Anyway we were under there and he the freaking gull to ask if I still wanted to hang out as well suggest that maybe cut the date short. I was like “holdup young brother, no rain is going to stop this right here!”>:C… I want my days worth of my cuddly boyfriend since I will go through withdraw of fun through the weekend anyway…” He agreed and we kept the date on. The rain let up too which was awesome because my hair doesn’t like water or moisture in general. So we’re skipping along the sidewalk when my fox senses where tingling. I felt like that we should go to the art museum steps like we wanted to do before, but since it was a bit late we decided to do it some other time. I was a bit iffy but I almost always listen to my instincts so I told him that I wanted to go the art museum steps instead.
So we turned our asses around and went the other way. So we get there and its night time now and there’s a concert going on right on the steps! I don’t know who was playing but we decided to just chill out on the huge statue that has some steps and fountains on the bottom you can sit on. MAN, were those the most awkward hours of my life. We both were clearly thinking about it…about KISSING. I mean I kissed him on the cheek last time I said good bye and he said he wanted to kiss me before on G-chat. So yeah…. The music was going and they were playing some good stuff. There were huge lights around the area so the park wouldn’t be so dark so we saw each other in some really good lighting.
We were sort of talking about it and how his first one went. I was soooo shy that I didn’t look at him much. I wanted to kiss him myself but my boldness would only come but so far with my more rational mind in control as well. Man, it was just soooooo weird, like the atmosphere was perfect, the night was beautiful, we were hearing some awesome music which some was romantic! I was cold and he had his extra hoodie so I had that and we were huddled together talking and stuff. But alas I didn’t kiss him and the concert was over and all the people were leaving the steps. I told him maybe we get up to the steps and see the awesome view and we went up to the curb to cross the street. He said that it looked like that they wasn’t going to let people up there since they have to pack everything up and stuff. So we hang at the statue some more and I said that I would kiss him once all the people left that came from the concert. But by that time it was time to leave. So we head down the steps on to the park path.
I have no clue what happened, I don’t know what entity suddenly slipped into my body, for all I knew I was in another parallel universe where I just did what my brain told me but I snapped. I snapped and said “Just kiss me already! I want to get this over with!” For those few moments it seemed like time stopped, I honestly didn’t know what the hell fell before me to say that out loud as I did. But I did and I meant it in every bone in my body. He just looked at me, smiled, and said “okay?”… I was surprised he didn’t start shaking me around to get whatever bugs that were in my head out. XD
So then I’m like “there over there!” Pointing in the darkest parks of the park where no one can see us. I didn’t want ANYONE to see us. I’m just so shy and private that I’m willing to kiss in a part of a park where a body could be buried in. So we walked down the park path were it was dark since there weren’t any real lights around and parked it on a rotted bench… Romantic. But I wasn’t in the mood to delay this any longer; I was ready to have my first kiss! So then we sat there, I wasn’t looking at him much… I expressed how this was like getting a needle or whatever nonsense I was relating this too. So then he inched up to me and finally he said you know close your eyes, so I did. I felt his face get closer to mine. I got a wee bit tense and was ready impact. Then Wham-O the bird has landed and his lips were on mine for a few seconds. I was surprised that it lasted as long as it did which were just about 4-5 seconds but I thought it was going to be those quick ones.
And like that it was over and I was rendered useless because I was speechless. I finally done it, I got my first kiss and it was from something that I cared about and he wasn’t bad looking either! So we sat there still and chat a bit. How was it? Was it as nice as you thought it was going to be he said? I couldn’t do anything but said yes, because it was. I wouldn’t give it up for anything in this world. Oh, and he also said I had soft lips hehe… He leaned in for another one but I moved my head out the way. My shyness kicked in again and I just wasn’t ready, just… So soon, I don’t know! XD… His head went down and we both laughed while I hugged his head.
So a few moments later while he was saying something fire works start going off! What amazement! Just like that it seemed like the universe was celebrating my small rhapsody of love. I got so excited because we wanted to see fireworks all summer and here at this time and place here they were! So being the big kid I am I run out into the parking lot to get a better view and yelling at him about the fireworks. He was surprised too and we held each other and watched the fireworks together. I even gave him a kiss! I was like “come here you!” ha-ha. I swear I never case to amaze myself… Anyway the fire works were just gorgeous and they were right be hide the art museum so we had an awesome view, besides the trees being in the way a bit on the bottom.
After that we went home like champions! I have to say that’s one of my best nights I ever had, may be the best ever. I came home and told my sister and mother and they were all “Awwwwwww” he-he.
So yeah, that’s the story of my first kiss beginning to end. We hung out after that too and I’m like more and more. He’s so caring and such. Wouldn’t want to give him up for anything. :3
I have to update in a more timely matter so the smaller details won’t get fuzzy and stuff. Plus I want to let people know that I’m alive even when I don’t post or comment. I’m glad everyone is taking the time to read this! I’ll post again soon.
Till then peace, love, and ramen!
Howdy howdy everyone!
How’s everyone feeling? I hope everyone is okay…
Well, the last few weeks were definitely eventful. I really don’t know where to begin…
Well, I have a boyfriend. D:
Well, I suggest running back into your homes, closing your blinds, and possibly grabbing hold to any holy book that you believe in because I’m pretty sure the world is going to end soon. And to continue to clear the air, yes, he is my first boyfriend.
The funniest part of it all is that we both thought that the other just wanted to be friends. Nothing was said but it was what we thought. Since I met this guy (lets just call him Tom XD) I knew he liked me cause I’m just cool like that. We had class one quarter and hang out after school and play the Wii and some times before school and just talk or whatever.
Of course even thought I knew he liked me I wasn’t all that interested but as time went on he kinda grew on me. This sorta pissed me off because I didn’t want another crush and the ordeals with that shit. But I did and the fucking last day he was suppose to come to school I was going to tell/ask him about the subject and more importantly get his damn e-mail but he didn’t show up. And I was like “fuck that’s why I nip these kinds of feelings in the bud” >:C…
Anyway, some time later I knew his friend (the one I hung out with those few times and this was before we even start hanging out) probably had it so that’s when I ask him for it. So that’s when we start talking on the internet and hopefully maybe I could tell him but I’m not that bold sooo yeahhhh, I kept my mouth shut. But that’s when shit start getting real confusing because we would flirt and flirt and flirt but nothing seemed to amount to anything or he would mention other girl some times too. Which really throw my head on a damn roller coaster ride because of everything in school so I figured that he pretty much knew but was not interested anymore.
Then at the same time I was hanging out with his best friend (lets call him victor) and I knew he liked me too but I wasn’t interested in him like that, but goddamn its so much fun hanging out with him with our nonsense nothing fights. Then one miraculous Saturday night when I was staying up playing the Sims 3, Tom IM me saying that how awkward this phone conversation was with this girl. He was super frustrated that no matter how many hints he laid out for her she didn’t seem to get it or whatever. And boy, how ironic is that life for him to randomly confide in me in such a situation I know ALL TOO WELL 8D…
So I was there for him being a good FRIEND and all, even tried to see if see if she just dense or just wasn’t into him like that by holding an investigation via internet and all that CSI shit. After concluded that she might not be into him he finally said if he wasn’t trying to talk to this girl he would have asked me out but HE was in the friend zone. For those few minutes I could of swear that the world stopped turning. After the entire BS my instincts was right as always and the cat was finally out the fucking bag.
So then I was a bit hesitant but I took that SOB and rode it till the wheels fell off. Telling him that I was interested before he left school. AND OF COURSE he would get it THEN. He said he was interested since he first was talking to me. Finally everything was coming together perfectly and making sense. He was totally kicking himself in the ass because I liked him all this time and he didn’t catch on. I was kicking myself in the ass because I didn’t say anything sooner despite my instincts in the first place.
But at the same token I could definitely feel that Victory had feelings (since we were hanging out more and more) for me and I didn’t want it to seem like I was going be hide his back to date his best friend. Tom felt the same way too, and we didn’t want to destroy this circle of friends by any means.
So we decided that we were going to tell him about it and he did that day or two later. Victor was the totally cool about me and tom dating it even though he really liked me and I can’t thank him enough for that. He could have been a complete douche bag and said no or cut one of us out of his lives because he felt hurt. But he didn’t and I’m so thankful.
It feels like I’m finally getting what I really want in life. Awesome friends, a boyfriend *HackwheezesomethingIwantedforlikeayearwheezehack* and still very late by my peers standards (or anyone else’s) but I always disliked my peers “standards” of anything so um yeah ha-ha.
We hung out a few times in the last 3 weeks and I’m really enjoying this, I never felt this way about anyone… and its like… exciting LAWL… I got to type up our little adventures really soon. Especially our late date, it was fucking epic (at least to me) and all we did we cuddled most of the end of it…
So yeah, a REAL update and not just the same thing except happy or sad about it XD… I also got my drawing groove back and drawing stuff that I like. I have to keep it up and draw whenever I can… And post for a change and the usual sorry for lazy ass no updating club non-sense… I’m finally commenting again so we’ll see what happens. The club is still running and stuff so ummm yeahhhh…
I hope everything is going well for everyone else and I’ll see you guys in about a week or so!
Have a good day!
