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It's when the harshness of reality begins to quiet and your heart sings.
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Death, you swift bastard... *major edit*

*Okay come to find out that the neighbor isn't dead at all thank goodness. We all she her go into her house happily a few minutes ago. I guess it was only a close call or something*

A lot has happened in the last 24 hours for real.

Last night the same neighbor that was causing my mother/family dread went to the hospital. I think she’s dead. Due to that the ambulance people had her in a white bag with a sheet over her body. I saw her feet and I think and her head. My mom she her face and was really upset. Even when she was in the ambulance truck it was about 10 minutes later till they drove off, no lights, alarms or anything. So yeah, I think she died or actually committed suicide. My mom heard her talking on the phone that morning about how bad things were in her life and such. So we all just assumed.

Its sad because our neighbor and my mom were good friends before she started accusing my mom of things that never happened. Once the neighbor convinced herself that my mom had an affair with her husband things got so ugly. One of the reasons why I was in such a rut about 2 weeks ago because that drama really went to a head. Then the really ironic part was that the son was threatening us saying that “if anyone is going to die it won’t be any of us” (the neighbor’s family). So yeah watch what you say/do because you’ll never know what’s around the corner. Even though I think the son is a complete jerk off wannabe gangster, I hope he will be okay since did just lose his mom after all. I also hope that nothing come out of it in terms of drama towards us either since we never did anything wrong.

I feel kinda indifferent but generally sad at the same time since she was a good friend to my mom and my family for a short while. Then when all the drama happened my feelings towards her went south. The last time I saw her she looked really bad/sick. Probably not as much as looks but you can tell the stress she was under due to the drama as well. Its just sad…

Also a few hours later my great grandmother died in the nursing home. I little more emotions there, but a mix bag of feelings. I was never really attached to her and in the last few years that my family lived in our old neighborhood with my other family members there was drama then. Mostly after my grandma died and how jerky my family got. So there is a negative rep towards my GGM, I also experienced it myself so yeah. Though that very last time I saw her (few years ago) she was really loving (she had bad alzheimer's) so I guess my GGM forgot the beef between her and my mother. That was nice. :) She also was burning the food she was cooking when we went there. So everything ISN’T bad I definitely had my good times with her before and after my family went crazy. : She was 96 too, Christ that’s old. She went through events that I read in history books. I couldn’t imagine having 96 years worth of memories, especially since I’m 21. She lived about 5 of my life times. Just wow.

So now the next thing is the funeral, meeting and seeing my family and new ones. And come of find out a lot of my family lives in the south (I live up north in Philadelphia, PA). I love how your parents tell you important information like that once someone dies. I mean WHAT BETTER time can there be to know MORE about the family tree/history? >:| even with that said I’m not looking forward to seeing my old family or meeting new ones, not to mention AT A FUNERAL. It’s just such an awkward thing these days because of old grudges and such. Then the whole meeting new people thing, just everything UGH. Just leave me be under my pink rock and computer. *disgruntle*

In much more light hearted news I went out today and got some different brands of glues. I want to make sure that the head pins stay in the charms as well stick better on the ring bases. So I’m testing out the best glue to use for that. When I went to borders they had an idiots guide to selling crafts so I snatched that up. Then when I went to the bargain section and found a how to bling random items book for 2 bucks. Both books are awesome and I’m so glad I decided to go to the book store first. *3*

ALSO MY FREAKING GIFT BAGS CAME IN YESTERDAY. God I’m so happy that they didn’t get lost in the mail T__T… I gave it another week for the bags to come since the seller said on her esty site it take 20 days for the packages to reach their destination. So yeah, things are coming together in my “business” venture haha.

Sorry this post was so long, it wasn’t a normal one as you can see. I hope both my GGM and the neighbor at least passed away peacefully. I’m trying to post this one picture but TheO is acting really stupid. We’ll see what happens today, chow for now!

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