Hey and hello! Welcome back. I got a lot of important and awesome things to talk about! This journal post was way overdue but I’m going to list some of the things that happened to me as of late.
I went to the family doctor about getting a referral to a neurologist for weird sensations and chest pains. WELL, he concluded that it probably won’t help and I should talk to a physiologist because of my stresses at work and anxiety. WTF… And to think I was going to get real help… I’m out of work so I’m not stressed like I was and I’m sick of everyone thinking I got some kind of anxiety problem. I don’t have that on a daily bases only when I’m freaked out about my health and not knowing what’s going on. Anyway they said that I was going to be called back to get a heart test but I never heard form them, they also took my blood that same day. It wasn’t that bad but I was sweating bullets the whole time haha!
I got FF13 three weeks ago and I love it! It’s a little slow in the beginning but as the story progress it gets really deep!
I saw my friend (the one that had a crush on me but I didn’t feel the same) about a week ago. I was so happy, so happy in fact that my face hurt by the time he left because I was smiling so damn much! We talked, played video games, and found out that he got fired because he was late a lot. BUT it wasn’t his fault it, was the bus system. The bus would be late or wouldn’t show up at all and that what caused him to be late. I told him how stressful my work was and how I quit and get this. That same day my BF called me and told me that he just got the axe at his job ( the same job I was in)! Oh, and my sister got the axe about three weeks ago (her job screwed her over a lot anyway) I can’t help but feel that even though we all got fired or quit, there is something much better coming our way.
I got my state ID last week! It was a pain in the ass because I had to wait 2 hours just to take the picture and stuff. I wanted to be at the Penndot (what the place is called) when it opened because it’s always crowded but I stayed up the night before. I woke up an hour later then I wanted to but I still manage to get my lazy but up and go. I went there before to try to get the ID but I needed more mail to show my address. SO AWESOME. >:C
The point of getting the ID was so I can get a bank account to link to my paypal. Once I get that done with other little things I should be ready to sell my trinkets! On a crafter’s update, I made more cakes! A coffee and another strawberry one. I really like the strawberry one; I think its one of my favorites so far. I also made donuts with molds and completely hand made ones. I tested out using different ways to give them that toasted look. It all came out well. I just wish it was sunny so I can take really good pictures of them.
I found my muse again in my art. I know I have been trying hard to practice and get better but I found that I’m not as into my drawings as I use to be. Or wanting to color them because I just don’t feel like it. I just didn’t have that kind of connection to make me what to color it. But I found out (again) that when I channel my feelings in my work and draw out myself and how I feel I get that “connection” again and the drive to color it. It’s like I can see all the possibilities in it that I didn’t see before and it makes me to draw more and more. I also learned that I shouldn’t push myself to draw an overly different or difficult post when I do my real drawing sessions at night. It can really take a lot out of me and I should just practice those kinds of things in my smaller note book in the morning.
I’ve been getting into traditional coloring again! I’ve finally tested out my copics on a recent picture I drew (haven’t posted yet) and it’s not half bad. It’s a real learning curve with copics though, since I never use to color with them. I can see myself using them though, I love it. I think I’ll try more flat colors on the next picture. I’ve started coloring my cup cake lady picture with colored pencils. It’s a pain how long it takes but I love the finished product of my coloring. Its been a while since I colored traditionally so getting back into it like I am now makes me feel really good. On that note, I have tons of work doodles and pictures I need to submit!
I think I’ll do another journal later in the week since I have tons of stuff to talk about.
Till then!
