Hey everyone!
I don't know where to start. I guess I'll start by saying how bad I feel for posting such a negative post two weeks ago. I mean it wasn't the worst I ever posted but I like to post about the good things. Then again, I was feeling so dizzy and just full of crap that I just had to let out my feelings, so I guess that is okay.
Any who, this post will be more positive in nature (read not as angry sounding). Even though this week was crappy overall I'm feeling the best I did in over a week or 2.
King-Sama drew a picture for me!
Like seriously, when I saw this my head pretty much exploded in a million pieces. I knew he was drawing a picture for me for the pay it forward challenge but I kinda forgot about it. So when I saw the dedication in my PMs and saw the picture, I was totally shocked. So like spam this man with love and appreciation because he totally deserves it. I had a rough couple of days too so this totally made my night! I can't begin to explain the profound love I have for all of my friends and just the love I get back right now! I'm truly blessed!
Stupid Health flare ups
First it was my back but that quickly disappeared, NOW it's my eczema wants to flare up like crazy. Not to mention for the last week I've been getting small itchy bumps all over my body. It started on my left arm and continued from there. Like this nonsense is insane. The last time I had anything like this happened was when I had an allergic reaction to the antibiotics(?) I had taken years ago. Now, literally out of nowhere I'm getting them all over again. I have NO idea where it's stemming from. My mom told me it was from the heat (heat bumps) but looking it up that's 100% wrong. I can only assume that it's from what I may be eating, but that is only an assumption. I don't really know. It could be from the eczema so when I saw Neosporin Essentials Trial Pack that is strictly for eczema I decided to try it. Bumps aside, I needed to find an healthier alternative to help manage my eczema. My ointment that I had for years is slowly running out and quite frankly, I want a more natural approach. Not some cream that has steroids and god knows what else in it that can possibly cause CANCER.
I've been using it for 2 days, used the shower gel, body cream and spot treatment today and holy s**t it works wonders! The super scaly patches that was on my chest totally cleared up! I never seen anything like this. As far as the bumps, the itchiness goes down a lot for hours and if it does start back up I just use the body cream. So far I give this 5/5 stars. If you have trouble with eczema and want a better alternative PLEASE at least try the trial pack. It's truly awesome.
As far as the bumps, if I keep seeing them flaring up I have to go to a doctor as much as I would hate to go. The only thing about that is I may have to wait MONTHS just to have an appointment. And after last year's fiasco, I'm like f**k that noise. Some how I made it with a 10 dollar jar of Tiger Balm, that and a lot of time to heal naturally. But yeah, hopefully these bumps will cease and decease with the Neosporin Essentials.
Going vegan?
Yup, I'm totally leaning in that direction. It's funny because I was thinking about going vegan last week and then that next day I see this book on sale! I read the first few pages and was convinced! I got the book from Amazon itself for about a dollar and some change. With shipping included I only paid less then 7 bucks where the new hardback book is normally 20 dollars! I love scoring deals like this!
I read up to about page 17(?) and man I love it. It explains so much and have me looking at meat even more differently! I'm just glad to know that I'm already on the right track slowly eliminating meats in my diet except seafood as a whole. I was leaning towards being a vegetarian but with this book I think going vegan might be the ultimately better choice. That and it might be a lot easier then I thought! Even though I'm in no position to make drastically huge changes, taking this one step at a time will be more then enough for me since I am living with 3 other meat eaters.
My mental this week
This week has to be one of the hardest weeks I had to deal with this summer so far. My head was so damn fuzzy this week it was hard to do anything! I would have borderline headaches, get nauseous when I was on the computer and I just felt like crappy crap crap. I can't even begin to explain how freaking screwed up I was. Right now though, I feel a lot better after I went outside to spend sometime in nature. Even though some of that fuzziness is still there, I feel 80%-90% better then I did this morning. I was so lethargic, slow and just low in energy even my mom asked me what's wrong. But some how being outside made a total difference, even when I felt like s**t despite being in the sunlight and fresh air. So maybe this is a cry to go outside more. I'll try to do that when I can when it's nice in the morning. If it can stop this fuzzy brain, airy fairy nonsense, I'm willing to spend more time walking around the neighborhood.
Lack of art
Last thing. My art. Once again, my willingness to do art has died in the face of all these issues. Not just that but I seriously have been totally off center when it comes to my inner artist. I'm so out of touch it's simply crazy how I let myself get this way. I can't complain too much since I have been dealing with a lot when I was being active, but I just want to get back drawing/being creative again. I want to create character's, stories, graphics and just so much. I'll get there though...
*sign* This summer isn't shaping up like the way I imagined it thus far. BUT I still have less then two months worth of summer left (once school starts summer is over to me but whatever lol). So I still have time to work on my goals!
Anyway, thank you all for reading and supporting me! I adore you all so much! Take care!
