Hello everyone,
This weekend was indeed a very hard time for me. A lot has happened that really opened me to a whole light on what I really should be doing for myself and for my future I really want to create. I have made the decision to have moving out my number one priority. Rather then try to wait for everything to suddenly go right in this house I’m just going to take my life into my own hands. I really believe things will go a lot smoother when I finally have my own place to live. I know a lot will happen when I finally can come from under year’s worth of worry, stress, and just uncertainty. I don’t know how I’ll get there but I know its right there waiting for me. I really do need to be by myself and experience the peace of mind I really need. Not to mention I can actually do my clay crafts business full time which I can’t do here at home. That’s the reason why you haven’t seen any from me at all. It’s just too stressful trying to start a business when I don’t even have enough room to store my own clothes, books, and other things. We had plans to clean out the basement and we made the first move but I don’t have faith in it. I even had plans to clean out my own room so I can fit another table so I can have a fighting chance at it. I don’t have faith in that either because everything is always at a stand still. I wait and try to be patient but that went out the window during the weekend. I’m done now with everything, this house, waiting, my family (90% my mom and dad) bs, and just “this life in this house” I’m just done, and I can’t live in this house anymore.
So now I feel like I want to withdraw from a lot of things but at the same time I want to go full force on the ideas I already have. People have wonderful art and e-cards dedicated to me and I can’t even muster up the energy to comment because of what happened. I didn’t forget at all and I’ll comment on them once I get a chance. =__=0 I just need some time.
I’ll update again once I have a clearer mind, thanks for reading. :)
