Hey everyone!
The Aftermath
It's been almost two weeks since my last (and rather depressing) post about my guinea pig Caramel. Since then I turned into a hyperemotional mess, most of which was a heightened feeling of compassion. It lasted for quite a while and was so bad and that it was crippling. I probably cried more times then I can remember because of it. It's a feeling that's generally hard to break into. Not that I'm not compassionate but I'm quite cynical about the world which cover's that emotion up (dare I say a defense mechanism from complete vulnerability). Once that layer is scattered however, it's like a high voltage live wire. It's the most intensely felt emotion I can feel honestly. Then imagine that heightened about 10x with the mix of grieving. Emotional rollercoaster can't even describe mess I was going though. At the same time, I learned a lot more about myself and my life so it's not all bad. It was just really intense (and depressing).
My Resting stop
After about 2 days since that post, I escaped to Brandon's for about a week. His mom and sister was on vacation so he had the house to himself. I took full advantage of it too, it was so relaxing and I was able to get myself together at the end. It really help me see things more clearly than seeing the same area where I felt the most pain in years. I was able to plan what I was going to do and get myself back to where I was so I can be productive.
New Friend!
During my stay at Brandon's we had anime night where Brandon's friends that I haven't seen in about 2 years came by, Yvette and Alex. It was really fun, me and Yvette got along great and decided to swap emails again and hang out a few days after. We traded emails since and found that we have A LOT in common, it's almost scary haha! When we met up the similarities kept coming and we talked for hours on end. The day went so fast but it was so much fun! We learned a lot about each other and it was great hanging out with another female peer that I felt comfortable with for once! The last one was Fatima and that failed horribly at the end, and that was 4 years ago GOSH.
Honestly, I was secretly wanting to hang out with another female all year really. But a lot of them outside the internet tend to be "catty" and I don't deal with that. That and I'm so much into my little world and what I'm doing that I didn't bother to try to find one. Luckily it came to me and it's working out so well! We have the same interests and she knows Japanese and she give me mini lessons randomly XD! That and we plan to hang out at the local ice cream festival this weekend.
The Last Of The Good News
I also launched a new reading for my angel reading business and gotten 3 readings (two for the new one) in one week, including two today! So things are surely looking up and I'm ready to take my life to the next level.
One more thing I want to mention is that I'm finally buckling down and learning Korean which is going quite nicely! I'm rather fond of the language (thanks k-pop) and learning it is easier for me then I expected. So I'm quite excited about that!
Okay another thing, I'm sorry that I haven't commented back on everyone's replies. I honestly just got back into the swing of things last weekend so EVERYTHING was left unchecked when I came back. I want to show everyone that is kind enough to show their support how much I appreciate their words! I hate having comments that I never replied back from people. That and I have so many arts and things to post as well.
One More Paragraph Of Wisdom
It's going to be a fantastic summer despite a hard learned lesson. (cheesy moment alert) I know caramel's spirit still lives on and god knows she never would want me to be less then who I truly am. Living out all of what I intended to do instead of letting circumstances crush me is the ultimate tribute to her. I know she is happy so I have to follow suite too. It's not the body she left behind I need to focus on, but the place we all go afterwards. Knowing that makes me feel better as I move on from this. (end cheesy moment)
Okay that's it, I'll post my most recent cards, WIPs and new art soon! Love you all!
Take care!
