Loves: Art, Rabbits, Love, Gamin', Music, Wacoms
Dislikes: Fanbrats, Flamers, People who don't know when to shut up, When I worry
I believe in the ways of Buddhism. Seeking truth in one's self and that we suffer from our desires, desire only ends when Nirvana is reached.
Personal Quotes:
"Scars of the past only show where you have been, not where your gonna go."
"It's when you can keep a good clear mind even in the bad times it shows inner-strength."
Just making a quick post. I am currently working on some new artworks on Photoshop off and on. My dad, is away for the day, so I'm just here looking out for Mom. How is everyone doing today? I hope you all have a great day.
So how have you all been theotaku chat was fun. It helped me get over some of my sadness. Yesterday, I found out the girl, I really cared for and we cared about each other for months got some other guy to be her BF. I feel, she betrayed us. and she said she did it because I wasn't always there and online, etc. But frankly, the fact I found out through his Stickam profile makes me sick. She didn't say she felt anything was wrong. She assumed I didn't care after me spend months and months together like that. I can never Love her or even give my heart to her again. I did a super great picture of us. Now I can't bear to finish it, it brings the pain up in my heart. She said "I'm sorry" over and over and we can be friends. That didn't really help. I can I not be hurt when someone doesn't even take into account the guy who loved her. Even if there relationship dies out, I can never try to be with her. What she did, I can never love her the way I did. I'm movin' on to a girl, who will treat me right. The thing that pains me was my two friends were right on the situation. They told me she was an attention grabber, needs to grow up, Needy. I didn't want to believe this. But what they said was true in many ways. She acted childish in not thinking how I would feel when she did what she did. She said because I wasn't always on Aim, she had no one there for her all the time (Clingy. She used that I didn't kiss her every time I logged off as another excuse. I told her at the time I was goin through a phobia too, must have slipped her mind.
But to make matters worse my Mama is in hospital since Sunday, for a bit too. I pray for her to come home soon. She is a bit sick again, but I think she'll be back in a few days. I hope. My Mom, should be fine.
Some stuff was cleaned from her lungs luckily.
Theotaku chat was fun tho, the happiness in that helped me heal but even in bed last night I couldn't shake the feeling. If it wasn't for my L detective skills, she'd of probably led me on and never tell me about Luis. God, she threw about 2/3 a year of relationship over a few weeks. What a waste. And now, I don't think I can ever want her back if this relationship sinks she's in now. How I found out I wouldn't wish on my own enemy. Her only excuse was assumption. Great throw away almost a years worth of love and you destroy over assumption. I wasn't the one with Trust issues. She was. and even if she wanted to break up, why'd she fling herself at Luis. She says excuses but I think she planned this all along. and she don't want me to tell friends cuz it may make her look bad in their eyes. No Matter how yu slice it. It looks bad she didn't tell me jack, and I felt stabbed over and over and hit by a car's tread. My heartaches. and I dunno, If i can even be her friend after this. Seeing her makes me hurt I may unsubscribe her on YT. I don't think I can watch her videos or be kind with her after this. The guy who did it apologized but it felt cut and paste. I hope she's happy she had her one chance with a nice guy. Hope, she loves her jerk artificial BF. She said when I said it she should've asked me to be BF, but felt I wasn't ready. WTF! She is thinkin shit like behind my back, why would yu tell me you LOVE ME, and not want to be with me. That makes no sense at ALL.
Its Almost Canada Day here. Whee. Ours is 3 days early compared to the Americans Independence day But the Queen of Britain loves us more so there. lol. So best wishes on this Canada Day!
Hello, all. Hope your having a good weekend and summer. These days have been hot. The other day I worked the roto tiller and it was tiring and I got bit up by insects in the arms. Still more days of Rhubarb cutting to go. So hot, now and summer like. Hope you have a had a good weekend.
An Animated gif if you want an idea what I look like. lol. I don't really wear glasses though. Good vision.
http://i88.photobucket.com/albums/k184/Tenshihoshino/Prof.gif
I'm a bit angry now. One of my friends on Youtube, felt he had to make a Naruto kill vid. I hate ppl, making character kill vids its annoying and uncool. I'm feeling like how would he like it if I made one, not much probably. The others say its a joke, and such. I really don't care, the ppl I met on Youtube not all them are being for themselves. If I don't agree, or someone else they call them butt hurt. What a gross, reference. How immature. I met a few good ones, but others there make me mad now on aim. This one I thought I could trust her, but she makes jokes of sexual nature behind ppls back I care not repeat. They make me sick, thinking on them. I feel like I just had to get that out this has been bothering me. I think I trusted in some of them too fast.
So anyhow my sunday is been slow. My friend online is telling me the end of the world, is near and Jesus is gonna come. I'm not so sure, I'm religious and all. I just don't think its the end, yet. She liked Al's Naruto kill vid saying its a joke (I rolled by eyes), yet she liked Naruto and Team 7 on DA as cats. Kinda strange.
Then I talked with my bro, he agrees with me. Why spread hate, and say making such vis is ok?
Sorry just had to vent a lil. Other then that just drinking some tea and listening to vids off and on. Bye then
