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Lost, and on Hiatus

Two days ago, I lost my mother. Cancer was too much. Chemo wasn't enough. I understand I haven't done much as far as drawing or photography lately, but I HAD planned to start up again...and now I'm planning to just...take a break from trying to be creative with a pen/pencil or camera. I don't even have much inspiration to write my fanfictions right now. I will be in a period of mourning. Please be understanding. Thank you in advance.

Brief Update: My heart hurts.

I'm here with my mom. She's dying. It's slow, and I'm upset, but I'm trying to stay strong. This is true heartbreak.

Another Hiatus

Yeah, I know. Nobody reads these anymore. No one really cares about what's happening in my life these days, but I'm going to post it anyway because maybe it'll help me feel better.

So, yes, I have an amazing relationship, I love my boyfriend's kids and am exceedingly happy to be a part of their lives...but some darker things have been happening. Last year, around the end of August, my mom had a radical hysterectomy to remove a cancerous mass in her cervix. However, this is now the third time the cancer itself has come back. She already did radiation therapy, and is now in chemotherapy, but it isn't looking great. She's gone from being a healthy 135 lbs, to now being 100 lbs. She is starting to look very near to skin and bone. Today is the first time I've seen photos of her since she had first started radiation and chemo, and when I saw how she looked, my heart broke.

My mom is my #1 best friend, and knowing that there's a chance I might lose her terrifies me. I love my mom very much.

Because of this situation, I'm going to be taking yet another hiatus from art. I don't have the inspiration to draw, let alone think straight. Things are too much right now. Again, I'm sure no one actually gives a rats ass about any of this, no one really looks at my art anymore either, but...it helps to get it out a little bit instead of holding it in until I explode.

Sorry.