Take a pen and stick it through your chest a thousand times, and you'll know how much I hurt right now. I was fine with the fact that Kyo rejected me. He "with all due respect" declined to go out with me, because there's so many girl problems right now. I was fine with that. But the fact that he needed my best friend to say it to me...THAT hurt me. I spent half of my lunch hour not eating the rest of my ramen noodles, but crying my eyes out because I STILL miss my great aunt and because I feel so hurt by him not having the courage to say no to my face. So I'm now sitting in my Multimedia II class wanting to cry again cuz I don't think I got it all out. And I'm wearing my friend Kevin's jacket cause Kuro completely forgot that he was going to loan me his jacket. And he's never there for me when I need him most. I'm not over him AT ALL...I still love him so much...and I wish he would get those feelings for me back. He told me the reason he wanted me to kiss him was because he thought if he kissed me he could figure out if he wanted to be with me, you know...to see if he liked me the same way, cause he felt like he did. And I wish I could get him to love me again...