The World @ Large

Created By Ashen Elric

MixTape

I want to write something smart,
> intelligent, and funny
About the mixtape I made for you
> and the clever lines and catchy hooks that you fell in love with
That made you fall for me

Listen to the mixtapes
> Until the voices bleed-out
>> and the lyrics and every note
Becomes second nature

This is the part where I say something about
> the winter mixtape I made for you
That got named 'Our Christmas'
And it was really just about how lonely I had become

Listen to the mixtapes
> Until the voices bleed-out
>> and the lyrics and every note
Becomes second nature

You fell in love with their words then fell for me
I want to thank the New York scene for my beautiful mistake
You fell in love with their words then fell for me
I want to thank the New York/Long Island music scene

(the mixtape I had in mind)
Side A
The Cure - Strange Attraction
The Smiths - Asleep
Patsy Cline - Crazy
Live - Lightning Crashed
Jewel - Amen
Side B
Brand New - Flying at Tree Level or Moshi, Moshi (acoustic)
Something Corporate - Heroine
Bright Eyes - Down a Rabbit Hole
Death Cab for Cutie - Passenger Seat
Armor for Sleep - Basement Ghost Singing
Taking Back Sunday - The Blue Channel

Saline

I hate my human body
It twitches, it turns,
> It contorts from pleasue and pain.

It lies awake at night crying,
Shuddering, it aches, it pains
It lies there until it passes out
> from a lack of what it once had.

I wish it would just vomit my spirit and soul
So I could find a more suitable host.

It has tha power to be beautiful
But instead it decides to be vile and nasty.
And wage war on it's self
> Marking and marring every inch of it own flesh
And then it's ashamed,
> tries to cover it up

But it's in vain
> Cause it knows they're still there
It tears at it in the depths of night
when it's lying awake, crying
> from a lack of what it once had

I hate my wrtched human body
It twitches, it turns ,
It contorts form pleasure and pain.

Punching Walls & Valentines

Bright eyes
> cutting through the dark,
>>your bright eyes.
I called and got the machine
> just to hear your voice.

And on the darkest night,
> I can still see the path
>> I would take to your window,
Many a late night / early morning

I would crawl through the window
> and into the bed.
Next to your body I would sleep and dream
Until morning's bleak light.
And then I was gone
Before your parents noticed,
> or maybe they did
>> and thought I was good for you

Now I crawl out my window, and break my legs
> Just trying to stand (on my own), then run to the nearest bottle

My words, and lines, and heartstrings
> get all twisted.
I cry for no reason
I promise:
"There's no one after you!"

Next to your memories I sleep
> and dream
And wait for mourining's / morning's bleak light

Once Upon a Mattress

I'll plead through-out my dreams tonight:
> to bid you a (semi)fond farwell
> For I know you'll never change

Always the same
Always a flake

And as I walk tonight
The sky above me looks like patchwork;
As if I reached up and tugged at it, it would become unseemed
And so I did

When I reached up I parted the clouds
and ripped a hole in the sky
> so that the stars could spill out
Littering this vast wasteland

That we lie across
like falling stars falling
> toward the dirt laiden earth below our bodies
And as we plumet
I'll hold you close in my arms
> until your flesh melts into mine

Then I wake up

You may find this message comforting upon waking from the nightmares guest starring me

If I could I would tear off my skin and give the shell to you as a gift, so you can hold on to me even when I'm not there. If I could I would watch over you all through the night saving you from bad dreams, then fall asleep next to you by morning. I would brush the hair away from your face and finally realize just how lucky I was moreover, I would close my eyes a try to sleep before the tears came. And the next morning, when we wake up, I'd tell you everything you'd want to hear, but make sure every word of it was true. I'll kiss your eyes, I'll kiss your cheek, kiss your lips. I'll wrap my arms around you and never let go. And when night comes again we'll go sit out on the hill and watch the stars as they (like life) pass us by (we were infinite) and to them we look like far off glimmers, and you, my dear, shine the brightest of all. I hope I can carve out my own little niche and always stay inside your precious heart. You're already in mine, without you I'm like a fish who made its way onto dry land: gasping, suffocating, clinging onto life. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love you and these words and lines I write down can't ever begin to describe how I feel.

Some nights I honestly contemplate not sleeping for fear of not dreaming of you. Some nights I fear waking up 'cause I finally get to spend time with you, picnic at a park with vibrant colors & an even brighter smile. Soon the sun will rip me from you, drag me away kicking & screaming as it sifts through the blinds on my window. Soft light, new day bleeding through the window as I fight just to stay asleep 'cause there's a place inside my mattress that harvests a dream of you.

Of all the beautiful things I could say; nothing will come out, so I'll just sit next to you and bite my nails, keep my eyes closed tight and wait for this moment to pass. Or sit closer and break this awkward silence with a simple kiss "just follow me to my bed so we can dream together" I'll finally choke out.