"Why did you call Kibou "Our" cat?" Rin asked me, not taking his gaze from Kibou.
I felt my cheeks heat up again.
"Um, well we are taking care of him together, so I called Kibou our cat."
He sighed.
"Why are you so...different...?" He accidently asked me.
"What? How am I different?"
"People around here fear me and avoid me, but you're the only one that doesn't. You smile warmly and have a normal conversation with me. You're the first who has been over house and definitely the first to clean it up for me."
I started laughing at Rin.
"I don't find you scary, Rin-san. Deep down everybody's hurting and you're just misunderstood. Like me, you probably have lived a hard and tragic life and the only way you could channel all of your emotions at once is by doing what you do now."
"You just me and you already came up with that?"
"I tend to be very um perceptive. Plus, it's completely normal. Why should I blame you for how you feel? That's just stupid. You deserve a little company now and then."
"Any other reasons?" He asked me.
I stared at the floor and bit my lips in hesitation.
"Yes....." I answered him.
"What is it?" He asked me.
"Maybe it was because I wanted to get to know you better...." I said quietly.
"You're interested in knowing more about me?" He asked, kind of shocked.
I simply nodded my head, still staring at the ground.
"That's a first...” He humbled.
"Nobody has been interested in anything about me. Only the bad things."
"I'm glad I'm the first." I smiled up at him.
"Why?" He asked curiously.
"Because when you remember this moment, I'll be in your memory. My image will pop into your thoughts and that would make me real happy."
"You won't be, once you find out about my past."
I stared at him confused as I cocked my head to the side.
"What do you mean?" I asked him.
He stood up and walked over to his window. He stared at the moon through the window.
"You were right. I lived a tragic life. My dad left my mother and I a year after I was born, which made my mom stressed and illed. Ten years later, when I was eleven, my mom turned to drugs, more specifically crack and meth. She messed up her and mine. She spent all of money buying those drugs that we wouldn't have enough to buy food and pay the bills. I got involved with an illegal drug dealing in middle school to help pay off all the debt my mom owed. I was soon betrayed by my gang and ended having to go to juvenile detention, since I wasn't old enough for jail. All throughout my time in the detention, I trained myself to extract my revenge for my gang who handed me in to the police. I was kicked out of the center and searched for my former gang mates. I extracted my revenge by murdering them all. After that, I went on with my life. I found out my mother had died, while I was away, so she left me everything in her will. I now live alone, living off my mom's insurance."
I stared at him as he finished explaining his life story. I admit I was shock, but......
"You must think I'm a monster now, huh?"
"Just because you killed someone out of revenge? No, I would never think of you as a monster Rin. Never......."
I then found myself pushed down on the carpet roughly with my hands pinned above my head. I opened my eyes to see that Rin was on top of me, with his legs in between mine. My heart raced, but I kept a straight face and stared deep into his eyes.
"How about now? We're all alone in my quiet apartment. I can easily have my way with you and nobody would know."
I stayed silent, until I decided to answer him.
"It doesn't matter to me. You can take my body. It's not like you'd be the first."
Rin's grip on both of my wrist loosened slightly.
"What are you talking about?" He asked.
"To put it simply, I was raped and molested by my own father a long time ago."
"He was a drunkard who took his anger out on me. He would abuse me and in the end, rape me, so if you want my body, take it. It's not like it's pure or innocent. It has been tainted and now it's impure."
Rin stared into my eyes deeply again, his grasp loosened more.
But my mother did find out about. She divorced him and married a new man who treated me better...."
"And..?" Rin asked me.
"They both died the day before I moved here in an automobile accident."
Rin had let go of my wrists. He adverted his eyes away from my gaze and stared at the side on the floor.
"So, you're just like me? You've been betrayed by those you trusted and you lost the only family you had?"
I simply nodded my head without speaking.
"Gomen...." He mumbled, staring down at my stomach now.
He deliberately tried to avoid my eyes. I smiled at him warmly, while grabbing his cheeks with both of my hands. I forced him to stare into my eyes.
"It's no problem, Rin-chan." I assured him, smiling.
His eyes looked at me, but then down to side, until it came back up and looked at me again. A feeling started to overwhelm me. I had an urge that I was tempted to do, even though deep down I knew I shouldn't. My arms embraced themselves around his neck. I caught him by surprise when I pulled his face down; his lips meeting mine lightly. My cheeks heated up as I widened both of my eyes, realizing what I did. I quickly pushed him off me and sat up. I held my lips, embarrassed at myself. Awkward silence filled the air shortly after. I pushed him off me quickly. Rin sat next to me, facing the opposite way I was, as in his back was towards his window and his front was facing me. I kept staring at his carpet, trying to avoid his gaze. I cleared my throat as I stood up.
"I...it's getting late. I...I think I should be getting home." I suggested.
Rin didn't answer, instead stayed silent.
I walked over to the sleeping Kibou and gently pet his head. He stirred slightly and yawned.
"Oyasumi, Ki-chan! I'll be back tomorrow to visit you."
He purred against my touch.
I smiled warmly and kissed the top of his head. I grabbed my bag from Rin's couch and headed straight for his front door.
"O...Oyasumi Rin." I told him, before closing his door behind me.
I leaned against Rin's closed front door.
"Shit..." I cursed under my breath.
"You're such a baka! How could you kiss him like that? You just met the for heaven's sake!" I slapped myself in the forehead.
