What Do You Do?...

What do you do when
the one you hated most,
starts to talk to you again?

What should you do when
he explains himself to you,
makes everything clear and plain?

What would you do when
he gets close to you once more,
your heart starts to beat faster than a train?

Why is it that I used to hate him,
but now, he's in my head again?

Why is that I now wait for him?
Why is he there, more and more, in my brain?

Why can't I just let him go?

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This is about my first ex boyfriend at this school. The ones before this one were all about my second ex boyfriend. But this one's about the first. He recently started talking to me again, started asking me why I hated him so. Asked my why I continue to be cool with my second ex when my second ex was the one who hurt me more than he did. He started bringing many things back to light, made me realize that I hate him for doing nearly nothing to me, and I hang with the guy who hurt me to the point where I can't stand it (second).

And this is my recent reaction to him...

Can't Get Over You...why??

I can't seem to get over you,
No matter what you've done,
No matter what you do,
I just can't get over you.

I still see that look,
That look in your eyes,
That look gets me hooked,
I can't help but see that look.

People tell me to stop,
"Stop caring!"
"Stop thinking he's hot!"
They tell me, but I just can't stop.

Why can't I hate you?
Why can't I ignore you?
Why is it that you're still here?
Why is your face the only one I see?
Why can't I just be?
Why is it that it's your eyes I fear?

They capture me,
make me see,
those times in your room,
when it was just...
Us.