There must be another part to this dream that I can't let go of
But somehow it keeps getting interrupted.....
"Even with this vague helping hand,
In a split second the cocoon's threads are torn apart and turn to ash"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Poems that lurk in the darkness of my mind will find their peace on this digital paper.....
~Aizome~
view murder scenes
under the streaming lights
thunder clashing with a roar of laughter
out of nowhere
[stripped of context]
it's absurd and funny
maybe it is
maybe is not
a joke for society to plead
for unity when we each fall apart
we fall alone
we cry together
[massive sighs fill the air and we've closed our eyes]
i turn away, in real disgust
to the book i began reading
you dare to take that away from me
and call me names, and kill my voice?
dim lights play in my hair and yours
as we sway into a mute music
enclosing skies announce storms above, beyond, around
[i do not care]
shards of stars glimmer between the clouds
[and my sorrow ends when you smile]
Float weightless
over the dreams you had laced
as wings of silver stable diving
down the abyss
crash without me noticing.....
i panic for hearing no sound
of the chords of your heart
beating mute in my embrace
you close your eyes
sweetly surrender
to the perfumy sleep.....
Untangible melodies on the tip of my fingers
your eyes open in the dim lights of the setting sun
so serene you chant to the stars to come
like to a child risen to heaven
[a memory awakes and the name you cannot forget
reaches for you.....the sunset gets us back
to the memories we wish to keep]
Rewind,
withdraw
come back, die out
Ray of pure light swirling
You are the ballet of the absurd,
love and hate blending together
~i am afraid~
sway gentle, fall brutal
blink once, blink twice.....
~slow~
breathe through each cell of yourself
what i forgot to say in every spring morning
that drew me somewhere else
and forgot
you
Reach
grasp
-stronger-
i am alive for you, am i not, my dear?
am nothing worthy for you yet you do
see me wishing you well
on your way out
will i see you come back?
will your eyes meet mine?
i pray you are safe~
[words lost touch with the world and fly
wither and die
like all the flowers in ending fall]
Pouring down like a silver rain
reflections open up my eyes
to face you
you who are me and me who is me.....
there are no other protagonists
in the theatre of the absurd
or at least
in this short play.....
so they said i cannot be
a flight, a feeling, or a smile
do not pervert my heart with hate
that same hate that i left aside
soliloquium.....
yes,
i talk alone
for an unexistent audience
raising my hands and voice
and wish to scream my name out.....
[i forgot it]
~the lights die on me and the curtains drop~
final act's a mere joke
Undefined feelings arise from the midst
of a burning void.....
laced wings burn slow and painful
you pray and you're not heard~
You told me, promised me
you'd remember who i am
but your empty gaze proves me right
it was my fault~
Seen myself in you once.....
twice....three times.....infinitely
behind you and under you
your shadow from ten angles
silent embracing~
Got confused due to your smile
and am afraid
it was a joke
my world
my life
my love for you
my all and nothing
my place in your heart
what was i?
write a letter, whisper, engrave
carve it on my skin
just let me know
so i won't die
unknowing what entity i loved.....
[i understand your wish of freedom and dreams, beliefs and goals
are you here, my love?
~echoes break the mirrors and my soul withers with the dimming light~]
