Welcome to my endless enigma of pointless verbal ironies and useless information revolving around the existence of me, Itsu. Yes, I welcome you to Infinity. If you're scared, you needn't worry, I won't bite unless provoked otherwise...usually. Now enjoy your slow downward spiral toward the very core of my innermost being, well the psychotic section anyway.
Have fun.
if you'd like, my darlings, check me out at one of my other existences:
[Happy endings don't exist because the world keeps turning--
but you don't have to have an ending--
to be happy.]
[~We are all a little weird and
Life’s a little weird,
And when we find someone whose
Weirdness is compatible with ours,
We join up with them and fall in
Mutual weirdness and call it Love~
~Dr. Seuss~]
my internet decided to stop working as i was writing this post........and i lost everything i wrote....this always happens just when i don't need it...it's quite irksome...also, i will not being writing as much as i had because i already did and i don't feel like repeating myself T 3T
quick overview of my life since my last posts...i went through a terrible time, some might not agree as much as they don't understand but those that do will hopefully empathize with me. my first dog, phoebe, slipped into a very bad place and was essentially dying. it was very hard for us, we didn't know what to do as she wouldn't eat and we had to watch her almost 24/7 to let her out and check out her and try to feed her...we decided we needed to have her put down, something we all knew was coming but continued to hope for the best, and we finally set a date after two bowel movements of possible bloodiness...she was put to sleep on June 2. the three days leading up to this, the last being the day she passed, i had been on night patrol with her but had ended up being awake all 3 days with 6 hours of sleep, one two hour and one 4 hour, my meds were completely messed up and i was exhausted and upset and stressed and anxious with everything that this was very hard for me. at the time we had no idea what had been wrong with her, which made everything much worse because we didn't want to be prematurely having her put down when we could have done something to help her and so we requested a necropsy done by our vet. it turned out that she most likely had been suffering from Lymphoma, which is a type of cancer for those who don't know. eventhough it will always hurt and nothing will change what happened i think it helped to know that she was very sick and there was very little we could have done for her, she simply got sick and it had suddenly grasped her life and dragged her down and there wasn't anything that could have been done for her. we all miss her greatly, and she will always be our phoebe. we had her cremated and now she has a place of honor on our mantle.
we always had the intention of getting another dog, if not for us than for our other dog to have a playmate. we ended up getting her near the end june actually, and we made sure to get a dog nothing like our phoebe but a puppy that could play with our other dog, aragorn, and maybe help get his chubbiness down XP cuase he is a chub-a-lub-bub. we adopted a dog, just like we had aragorn, and strangely enough this dog was fostered by the same person who had fostered aragorn. anyways, she is a mix but is most predominantly basenji and german shepherd, we call her a "sherpenji" hehehe XD and we named her Luna, because she is a hyper, loony, lunatic *nodnod*
that is where we are now.
all sadness aside, the main reason i wanted to post originally was because in the last few days there has been a big influx of views to this world and now it is over 10k views! WOO! huzzah for me and you all, this is a strangely nice moment and i thank all those that have come to see this bizarre and pointless place :)
drawings are coming soon, nothing big or special as those are still not done, but things at least! *mini wave in celebration of me*
not much else is going on in my world...though i am trying to live now. it's so incredibly hard, i don't know how people do it. this is going to be a difficult and long journey. a part i'm dreading is telling my mom(and subsequently my dad, therapist, and pharmapsycologist) about my scars. but i need new clothes, especially before the 24th, because it's summer and it's hot and i just can't keep wearing jackets and long sleeves and long leggings (i have no pants that fit me right now because i am full of fat T-T) i knew i was going to need to and i have always known that and i have been trying for months now but there just is never a good time...bad things keep happening..T-T *deskslam*
WELL..that's all for now....must be off...and stuff...yeah
p.s. i have a headache............it's making me feel sick...- n-
30 Day Song Challenge--Day 30: Your Favorite Song At This Time Last Year
again, as i have now said many times, i don't have singular favorites *shakeshead* instead i tried to think of a song i listened to often as far back as i was possibly a year...but likely not quite XP so yeah, here is one i do enjoy often regardless ^-^
and this is that very last of the 30 Day Song Challenge, hope you few have enjoyed it :D
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on another note, i will be putting up the next two deviations of my last four that have already been put up on deviantART...these two will be censored a bit though, cause nudity...but censored or not they are still meh little things XP
than sometime the next few days i will try and have up those two awesome ones which are my last for now unti i get done with another bundle and have them scanned, and gotten up on dA ^ 3^
30 Day Song Challenge--Day 29: A Song From Your Childhood
when i was younger, my mother played the Fallen cd often while we were in the car and this was one of my favorites from it...i also used this to learn to be bolder with my singing ^-^
30 Day Song Challenge--Day 28: A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty
i don't know of any songs that make me feel guilty, and even if i did i wouldn't put it up anywheres XP so instead have this song, one of my liked ones ^-^
so i have started trying to catch up my art, as i have been behind here compared to on deviantART XP naughty me...
anyways, i have gotten three up so far..although two of my newer bunch since i stopped posting here i have not put up as they have nudity that is relevant to the art in one and to much nudity for me to censor in the other *nodnod* but neither are that big of a deal ^-^
so still working on it...the next three, two of which are ones i am very fond and proud of ^ 3^ shall be coming soon..there is one other i may post...making it two one day and then my two lovely ones the next......yeah i may just do that, i put up everything here anyways no reason to bother even if it's no amazingness ehehe *gigglies*
oh, here is something i finished after much slaving a little bit ago for my mother for mother's day o 3o though it's nothing special or great, i am quite pleased all the same *nod*
a crochet plushie doll of my mother's favorite person/actor Rob Pattinson....the jacket and hair are the best parts ^ 3^
