T -T
my internet decided to stop working as i was writing this post........and i lost everything i wrote....this always happens just when i don't need it...it's quite irksome...also, i will not being writing as much as i had because i already did and i don't feel like repeating myself T 3T
quick overview of my life since my last posts...i went through a terrible time, some might not agree as much as they don't understand but those that do will hopefully empathize with me. my first dog, phoebe, slipped into a very bad place and was essentially dying. it was very hard for us, we didn't know what to do as she wouldn't eat and we had to watch her almost 24/7 to let her out and check out her and try to feed her...we decided we needed to have her put down, something we all knew was coming but continued to hope for the best, and we finally set a date after two bowel movements of possible bloodiness...she was put to sleep on June 2. the three days leading up to this, the last being the day she passed, i had been on night patrol with her but had ended up being awake all 3 days with 6 hours of sleep, one two hour and one 4 hour, my meds were completely messed up and i was exhausted and upset and stressed and anxious with everything that this was very hard for me. at the time we had no idea what had been wrong with her, which made everything much worse because we didn't want to be prematurely having her put down when we could have done something to help her and so we requested a necropsy done by our vet. it turned out that she most likely had been suffering from Lymphoma, which is a type of cancer for those who don't know. eventhough it will always hurt and nothing will change what happened i think it helped to know that she was very sick and there was very little we could have done for her, she simply got sick and it had suddenly grasped her life and dragged her down and there wasn't anything that could have been done for her. we all miss her greatly, and she will always be our phoebe. we had her cremated and now she has a place of honor on our mantle.
we always had the intention of getting another dog, if not for us than for our other dog to have a playmate. we ended up getting her near the end june actually, and we made sure to get a dog nothing like our phoebe but a puppy that could play with our other dog, aragorn, and maybe help get his chubbiness down XP cuase he is a chub-a-lub-bub. we adopted a dog, just like we had aragorn, and strangely enough this dog was fostered by the same person who had fostered aragorn. anyways, she is a mix but is most predominantly basenji and german shepherd, we call her a "sherpenji" hehehe XD and we named her Luna, because she is a hyper, loony, lunatic *nodnod*
that is where we are now.
all sadness aside, the main reason i wanted to post originally was because in the last few days there has been a big influx of views to this world and now it is over 10k views! WOO! huzzah for me and you all, this is a strangely nice moment and i thank all those that have come to see this bizarre and pointless place :)
drawings are coming soon, nothing big or special as those are still not done, but things at least! *mini wave in celebration of me*
not much else is going on in my world...though i am trying to live now. it's so incredibly hard, i don't know how people do it. this is going to be a difficult and long journey. a part i'm dreading is telling my mom(and subsequently my dad, therapist, and pharmapsycologist) about my scars. but i need new clothes, especially before the 24th, because it's summer and it's hot and i just can't keep wearing jackets and long sleeves and long leggings (i have no pants that fit me right now because i am full of fat T-T) i knew i was going to need to and i have always known that and i have been trying for months now but there just is never a good time...bad things keep happening..T-T *deskslam*
WELL..that's all for now....must be off...and stuff...yeah
p.s. i have a headache............it's making me feel sick...- n-
