Sun May 3, 2009, 9:45 PM
* Mood: Emotional
* Listening to: "Jumper"-Third Eye Blind
* Reading: AP US Government & Politics Exam Review Book
* Eating: Lumpia and Rice, but it's just sitting there...
Filled up my weekend so I wouldn't think about things I should forget about anyway. Yet, I found myself thinking about him anyway at times, then I shake my head and feel good that I decided to move on instead of linger.
Friday: got my hair cut and then bleached at V:'s house. Slept over, along with my brother and his gf
Saturday: had many yummy things; finished colouring my hair; my brother's gf got sick and left early; V and I made Japanese things for a picnic; threw ice into the pond; we all went out for ice cream; spent 2hrs watching a pointless Korean movie(at which point my "son" contacted me and said my ex called him-I told him I was having fun and hung up); V's bf dropped my brother, V, and I off at our house around midnight; V went home around 3ish
Sunday/Today: Mo came over to help me "study". She left about an hour ago.
AP exams tomorrow. A bunch of people's lives suck right now. There's a like/love triangle going on between my friends; my parents are complaining about money; my grades are dying; my brother's girlfriend is depressing him; misery and etc...
I'm gonne be emo s'more, so you can stop reading now...
I want to punch, kick, scream...break things. I broke my phone a bit-there's a rubber band holding it together(I'm ghetto, bitch!). Of course, I can't really do that. So I draw, but y'see-that doesn't really work either; I draw things I want to see, had seen, and will never see again. I asked Cal what I should do with them(rip them up, give them to the guy so he can do what he pleases with them since he's in them, or keep them and look at them later when I'm over it). He told me to keep them and look at them when I'm over it. I agree, it's the most mature thing, anyway.
I've lost my appetite, too. It's not that I can't eat-more like I don't want to eat. I'm still eating a bit though. And my natural energy(any other energy is from caffeine). I haven't been exercising recently either. I should do that again soon.
I know I'm just letting this stuff happen-letting things get me down. But everyone's weak at some point. I'm probably weaker now, even though I'm stronger-if that makes sense.
My dam broke, and water will weak havoc on the townspeaple below. Poor things...they saw leaks appear and didn't know what to do about it or how to patch it up. Where's the damn repair guy??
Someone tell me happy and exciting news, I need a break =3
-KF
