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Do I have enough tape?

Tue Sep 29, 2009, 9:44 PM

* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: A tutorial on the chain rule (AP Calc)

I have to tape the pages of my sketchbook because I found out in class today that they're perforated(so I had to tape over the lines so that they wouldn't fall out of my book in the future). I have a month to do the Summer project(18 pages in my sketchbook on a theme; mine is my unique 90s childhood). It's fun so far--I'm excited to start the project. I have 4 pages due on an artist related to my theme due Monday and a reference photograph of me relating to my theme due Thursday.

My dad learned how to make okonimiyaki--I'm excited. I took one to Jesus school so that I could eat, since I went from practice, to home for 15minutes, then to Jesus school. I asked the lady if I could eat; she said no, so about 5minutes later I just walked out with my stuff and ate outside...NOBODY GETS BETWEEN ME AND MY FOOD D=<

Happy anniversary-ish Mo and Cal!!! <3 Now if only I had a love live =3

Anyway, back to studying so I can start my AP 2D STUDIO ART homework XD *I'm getting too excited*

I need sleep.

-KF

I Always Nap After the First Day of School

Wed Aug 19, 2009, 1:52 AM

* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: "Ironic"-covered by Four Year Strong

It's true, I do--ever since 6th grade actually. Today's lasted 5 hours though--which is why I'm still awake. I'm waiting for the washer to finish so I can stick my jeans in the dryer...I'm not done with my back-to-school shopping, so I still have to wash my jeans about every other day, the usable jeans. I can't get away with ripped up(and I mean RIPPED--like I stuck them in a blender with sharp objects) jeans 'til winter vacation. Can't wait until the next holiday =D

Spent 4.5hours in the guidance office with other people waiting to get my schedule to get fixed...now my schedule's just impossible...AP Psych conflicted with Spanish 4, so they put me in Spanish 5; I dunno how I can survive, since I barely paid attention in Spanish 2(it skips from 2 to 4 because our school is just FANTASTIC). Met some pretty awesome people though, all from saying that I wanted pancakes. My friend Black Jap(his name is actually CJ but I nicknamed him since he's Blackanese) owed me pancakes from Free Pancake Day at IHOP and I didn't have breakfast, so I decided to have some fun and pester him about it. Then I said it a bit too loud and some guy(his names Logan and he's fucking amazing <3) was like "Hey, I want pancakes" and we became this li'l group of 5 wanting pancakes...then I went on to sing the old Winnie the Pooh song("Gotta get up, gotta get going..."--that theme was in my head since right when I woke up for school x_x) and Logan joined in on the chorus. Then he listened to his iPod and sang along to all those old songs from the 90s--and now I'm into Four Year Strong(too bad he has a gf of 6months in Maine). None of us got to eat lunch either. I ended up eating mine in class when I got back =/ I didn't even finish DX.

Anywho, the washer's done--so I'm gonna stick my clothes in the dryer and head to bed. *smack kiss* GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY!

-KF

I Gots Mah Hairz Did

Sun May 3, 2009, 9:45 PM

* Mood: Emotional
* Listening to: "Jumper"-Third Eye Blind
* Reading: AP US Government & Politics Exam Review Book
* Eating: Lumpia and Rice, but it's just sitting there...

Filled up my weekend so I wouldn't think about things I should forget about anyway. Yet, I found myself thinking about him anyway at times, then I shake my head and feel good that I decided to move on instead of linger.

Friday: got my hair cut and then bleached at V:'s house. Slept over, along with my brother and his gf
Saturday: had many yummy things; finished colouring my hair; my brother's gf got sick and left early; V and I made Japanese things for a picnic; threw ice into the pond; we all went out for ice cream; spent 2hrs watching a pointless Korean movie(at which point my "son" contacted me and said my ex called him-I told him I was having fun and hung up); V's bf dropped my brother, V, and I off at our house around midnight; V went home around 3ish
Sunday/Today: Mo came over to help me "study". She left about an hour ago.

AP exams tomorrow. A bunch of people's lives suck right now. There's a like/love triangle going on between my friends; my parents are complaining about money; my grades are dying; my brother's girlfriend is depressing him; misery and etc...

I'm gonne be emo s'more, so you can stop reading now...

I want to punch, kick, scream...break things. I broke my phone a bit-there's a rubber band holding it together(I'm ghetto, bitch!). Of course, I can't really do that. So I draw, but y'see-that doesn't really work either; I draw things I want to see, had seen, and will never see again. I asked Cal what I should do with them(rip them up, give them to the guy so he can do what he pleases with them since he's in them, or keep them and look at them later when I'm over it). He told me to keep them and look at them when I'm over it. I agree, it's the most mature thing, anyway.

I've lost my appetite, too. It's not that I can't eat-more like I don't want to eat. I'm still eating a bit though. And my natural energy(any other energy is from caffeine). I haven't been exercising recently either. I should do that again soon.

I know I'm just letting this stuff happen-letting things get me down. But everyone's weak at some point. I'm probably weaker now, even though I'm stronger-if that makes sense.

My dam broke, and water will weak havoc on the townspeaple below. Poor things...they saw leaks appear and didn't know what to do about it or how to patch it up. Where's the damn repair guy??

Someone tell me happy and exciting news, I need a break =3

-KF

I Miss Uploading Useless Crap

Fri Apr 10, 2009, 2:09 PM

* Mood: Angsty
* Listening to: "Kimagure Romantic" is still playing XD
* Eating: I ate today...kind of!! YAY!!

My sketchbook's all full, and I drew two hilarious things yesterday on the way to pick my brother up, but I can't show any of you!! DX I miss the scanner. I miss a not-obsolete laptop. I miss updating with pictures instead of rants.
ANYWAY I need to save up for a laptop. A nice, small, portable, KaidaFaye-friendly one. I fell in love with one 12" tablet lappy, but there were complaints that it wasn't pressure sensitive with some programmes, and that's what I was after in a tablet pc, so I might just be better off getting a regular small lappy and save for a bamboo tablet([link]) Hm...should I get Bamboo or Bamboo Fun? If I decide on a tablet, I mean. If anyone can find a good pressure-sensitive laptop for me, lemme know-my family likes to travel a lot since we have a motorhome(we go to North Carolina and recently we went to Virginia during XMas to visit family), so the idea of being able to draw on my computer like it's a super thick high-tech piece of paper going down the road is fabulous for me. I can draw in bed, at a truck stop, practically anywhere-yeah, so help'd be nice =3 Especially since I don't have much of a sketchbook fund.
As far as eating goes, I'm doing a lot better-I was able to eat about half of my lunch/breakfast of fried rice and eggs(ew) before feeling sick(but I didn't throw up!) My usual appetite is still absent, though.
...That's about it for updates on my ever-so-glamorous life. See ya!
-KF

What does food really taste like?

Thu Apr 9, 2009, 12:05 AM

* Mood: Pain
* Listening to: "Kimagure Romantic"-Ikimono Gikari
* Eating: more like regurgitating =(

I haven't eaten a substantial meal for a while now. This started last weekish-I first lost my appetite. Then slowly I started to withdraw from food cuz it started to make me feel sick after I ate. Now, just the thought of food makes me want to throw up and almost anything I put in my mouth I end up spitting out because I can't swallow it-my gag reflex gets in the way. I've been eating mainly apples because they go down easier than anything else. I can't get a good night's sleep either-four hours tops. I stayed home from school yesterday because I had a painful headache and I felt like I was gonna throw up(I threw up a little after trying to eat cereal). So I went to sleep for a couple more hours, tried to eat again but it didn't happen, slept some more. The try-eating-then-sleep thing was repeated all of yesterday, with random emotional break downs in between. Am I transforming into an emo? Do butterflies go through this? Am I turning into a cutter-fly?? *shot* Nah, I'm not a cutter. I just hope none of this has anything to do with my now ex-boyfriend. That'd be pretty stupid if it were-he shouldn't affect my biological needs. The crying maybe, but that's gone(I think), but my food? I love my food. I miss my food. Can I have some food? Oh, wait, nevermind; don't wanna throw up on y'all. =/
So, have any of you gone through this before? D'you know how to fix it? I don't want to shrivel up and die yet. I'll do that when I'm, like, 100yrs old. =P