KaidaFaye Online

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Latest comic: LINK

So my boyfriend said he'd work his programming magic and set up my website for me, as long as I drew out the original design and did the graphics for him to follow and use. So far, all I've got is this:

See all that blank space? I've gotta figure out what should be there for each page, except the "STORE" page, since that's just gonna link out to my ecrater store. If you have any layout tips, lemme know!

As for the main comic, working on pages 10 out of about 16 for the first chapter. The first chapter is always the hardest because that's the one that people judge the comic off of. PRESSURE!!!

KaidaFaye out!

God, I'm Stupid

Sun Aug 9, 2009, 2:41 PM

* Mood: Moving on
* Listening to: Japanese Conversation
* Eating: Corned Beef and Rice
* Drinking: Tang and Water

I was watching anime(what else?) and I had my headphones on, but I never plugged the headphones in. So, halfway through the episode I realized why the sound was kind of muffled and I went to scratch my ear and the headphones were in the way (x_x). I think the lack of physical contact is getting to me.

Doing a quick job today in about 2.5hours--moving furniture again for my divorced cousin for $20--it's not much, but it's something.

Fought with my parents a li'l while ago about moving. My mom went on about how my neighbour/friend moved in with her boyfriend after she graduated. I told her I didn't see the problem with it and started accusing me of moving in with a boyfriend after I graduate. I told her if I have one and it's convenient for school or work, then I would and she started going off on me and saying how I shouldn't expect any money from them for school or rent if I do that--for cripes sake, I haven't done anything yet and i'm getting in trouble. Blew off some steam at Josh's, will blow off more moving furniture 2-3x my size.

-KF

Dammit DX

Fri Jul 24, 2009, 10:02 PM

* Mood: Guilty
* Listening to: "Saint Jimmy"-Green Day

I just realized today I only have 8 pages left in my "drawing pad" =( There's lots of stuff in here I didn't scan in or upload, which means when I actually get a day where I scan in my previous sketchbook, I'll have to scan in this one too...well, not bad--this one only has 50 sheets. I'll have to figure out what to use for a sketchbook now, since my fairy got the one I'm currently using. Meanwhile, I'll erase some stupid things so I have more usable pages.

Filipino moms are so bipolar--Mo, this is why I couldn't go with you to see Grease today =(--It's amazing how I give my mom all the information beforehand and halfway there she starts complaining about what she calmly agreed to earlier (x_x). I'm not allowed to ask her to go anywhere for a while either, especially the Playhouse.

I wish I could go out with friends and boyfriends and not have my parents become overprotective and anal about every little detail, especially after they agree to the plan. Only 1.5 more years, and I don't have to worry anymore =3 Then two months in Mo's place while I find a permanent place to stay. Maybe with my fairy, who knows. I told my brother a while ago that I'm moving out when I turned 18/graduate high school and that my dad acknowledged it, but then he made me feel guilty about it. He said "So you're just gonna leave Mom and Dad by themselves?" I really wanted to say "Well, you could stay with them, you're always ending up back at the house anyway", but I couldn't; that's too mean--and he would be pissed. I hate it when Judd's pissed, especially when it's at me and/or it's about something stupid, like asking him to do something he was supposed to do anyway...Does that make me a bad sister? I always wondered that. I love him to death and I wish he could just live a carefree life, but sometimes he acts more like a selfish spoiled brat than I do...at least I help around the place I live at. I told him to help me wash the dishes and he snapped back saying "I don't need to be told what to do by my little sister!" and shut me out of the room...it's HIS chore DX

Whoops, I'm complaining. Shut up, Jenni.

-KF

I'm Typing with a Sock Puppet, Bitch!!

Thu Apr 9, 2009, 11:04 PM

* Mood: Lonely
* Listening to: "Kimagure Romantic"-Ikimono Gikari...rep
* Eating: I threw up half my lunch today =(

Yup, it's true. I'm typing with my sock puppet Yes-I dug him up, so now he's typing for me with twitching lips =D

ANYWAY, I still can't eat as much...and I realized how lonely I am now. I got so used to doing things every weekend cuz I had a boyfriend. Now that he's out, it's like..."what now?" No definite plans on weekends and no phone calls to be expected. Aileen and I were talking about this today after school; her boyfriend's in a different country and I don't have one, so we were talking about how weekends aren't as fun since we never really go out with friends, even though we'd love to.

Now it's emptier, quieter, and lonelier: to the point where I start talking to Yes again. But sock puppets, especially ones with mismatching(1 big green and 1 puny red) buttons, make everything funnier and better. But once you stop the conversation, you realize how pathetic you sounded =(

Do you get moments when you're overflowing with inspiration, but you're not able to write them down? That happened to me today several times-then when I could finally get them down, I couldn't bring myself to draw them out...I need a new sketchbook.

Ok, that's about it-my dad is yelling at me to get off the computer and Yes is prolly gonna be mad at him for making him type even this much. G'night, chaps

What does food really taste like?

Thu Apr 9, 2009, 12:05 AM

* Mood: Pain
* Listening to: "Kimagure Romantic"-Ikimono Gikari
* Eating: more like regurgitating =(

I haven't eaten a substantial meal for a while now. This started last weekish-I first lost my appetite. Then slowly I started to withdraw from food cuz it started to make me feel sick after I ate. Now, just the thought of food makes me want to throw up and almost anything I put in my mouth I end up spitting out because I can't swallow it-my gag reflex gets in the way. I've been eating mainly apples because they go down easier than anything else. I can't get a good night's sleep either-four hours tops. I stayed home from school yesterday because I had a painful headache and I felt like I was gonna throw up(I threw up a little after trying to eat cereal). So I went to sleep for a couple more hours, tried to eat again but it didn't happen, slept some more. The try-eating-then-sleep thing was repeated all of yesterday, with random emotional break downs in between. Am I transforming into an emo? Do butterflies go through this? Am I turning into a cutter-fly?? *shot* Nah, I'm not a cutter. I just hope none of this has anything to do with my now ex-boyfriend. That'd be pretty stupid if it were-he shouldn't affect my biological needs. The crying maybe, but that's gone(I think), but my food? I love my food. I miss my food. Can I have some food? Oh, wait, nevermind; don't wanna throw up on y'all. =/
So, have any of you gone through this before? D'you know how to fix it? I don't want to shrivel up and die yet. I'll do that when I'm, like, 100yrs old. =P