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tumblr and Some Goals

Yeah, I've had one for a while, but I've been steadily been using it more, mainly to post comics and art that...I already post here. But if you have one of those, drop by, maybe subscribe and I'll do the same to you =)

So, I've decided to do one drawing a day until Christmas. So far, it's working out. I think after a week or two it'll become automatic. I used to be able to draw every day without thinking but it's getting harder and harder to focus and/or be creative. So, to speed up my drawing time and to overall get better I've been just using my friends' pictures as references to convert into manga form. So far it's been working, and I had a little bit of creativity in my newest upload of Calvin and his cat/kitten, Henrik. And sometimes I'm too lazy to draw out G33K!! Offline, so I've just been noting them in my sketchbook to draw later...I'll get around to it eventually, lol.

I'm still waiting on the new Wacom tablet that my dad promised me before this semester started. Gui was able to get Manga Studio on my computer, so I really really want to use it so I can start making G33K!! Until then, I'll brush up on my drawing skills.

Well, those are the updates. Bye bye!

End of a Social Experiment

Thu Nov 5, 2009, 9:42 PM

* Mood: Content
* Listening to: "Jump on the Fizzy"--Aaron Carter

So back in the summertime one of my best girl friends and I decided to compete against each other for the title of Homecoming Princess this year--a jock against a geek, ya know? I considered it kind of like "well, let's see if a geek can really win against a jock in a high school popularity test"; geek takes all and etc. Well, I won. About 75% of me is like "Okay, now what" and the other 25% is like "holy shit, I'm popular".

ANYWAY--My dad stepped on my laptop, so I can only use HALF OF MY SCREEN =( It's a pain to check mail. My brother was passing by and started cracking up because he found it sad and amusing that I'm using the top half of my screen. I can't minimize my windows because I can't see the bottom of the darned things *dammit Mac*...

Loving my AP Art class still--I'm having some friends come over Saturday to help me take some reference photos; my theme is "nostalgia" so I need some nostalgic moments =3

I'mma go--just updating on my life...like a girl. This was the girliest week of my life XD

-KF

Just Another Slap in the Face

Sun Nov 1, 2009, 2:44 PM

* Mood: Vengeful

"Grow up." I hate that phrase. I find it ironic that when i finally get to make a decision that can really affect my life, I can't choose between limitless options. I just can't. It's like throwing a toddler that just learned how to walk into a marathon. It's pathetic--I'M pathetic. I lack motivation to do anything, and I know I can do it. I'm just too fucking lazy. I'm letting an inferiority complex get the best of me, I actually start expecting other people to help, when in the end it all comes down to what I think, and what I think alone, and what I do about it. And what I think just doesn't seem to click with what I know is the right thing to do. I'm a stupid little teenager that knows what to do and chooses not to do it. And why? Just because I'm lazy. It doesn't interest me at all. And I don't want to think that I'm one of those "regular" kids, when I might truly be one. A mediocre stereotypical 16 year old girl. Gross.

I don't go for education. I go for the experience. Probably the only motivation for even graduating and going to college is so that I can experience it all. Yeah, I appreciate what I learned along the way--but it doesn't interest me. Nothing interests me. My grades suffer because I'm a selfish brat and when I do try my best it doesn't even show. Probably the only way I can get better at something is to compete--but what good will it do if that person doesn't know that we're competing?

The only respect I receive is when I draw something, and even then it lasts a maximum of maybe 10 minutes. Drawing. That's all I can do. No matter how much I improve, it's not something my parents will be proud of. My friends would just look at it, have a few comments, then forget about it in the next 5 minutes. It's just something to amuse myself with.

I need to turn my life around. I'll show you. Being lazy may be something I can fix. Just watch. Fuck you, Calvin. Never compare me and that kid.

Do I have enough tape?

Tue Sep 29, 2009, 9:44 PM

* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: A tutorial on the chain rule (AP Calc)

I have to tape the pages of my sketchbook because I found out in class today that they're perforated(so I had to tape over the lines so that they wouldn't fall out of my book in the future). I have a month to do the Summer project(18 pages in my sketchbook on a theme; mine is my unique 90s childhood). It's fun so far--I'm excited to start the project. I have 4 pages due on an artist related to my theme due Monday and a reference photograph of me relating to my theme due Thursday.

My dad learned how to make okonimiyaki--I'm excited. I took one to Jesus school so that I could eat, since I went from practice, to home for 15minutes, then to Jesus school. I asked the lady if I could eat; she said no, so about 5minutes later I just walked out with my stuff and ate outside...NOBODY GETS BETWEEN ME AND MY FOOD D=<

Happy anniversary-ish Mo and Cal!!! <3 Now if only I had a love live =3

Anyway, back to studying so I can start my AP 2D STUDIO ART homework XD *I'm getting too excited*

I need sleep.

-KF

I Always Nap After the First Day of School

Wed Aug 19, 2009, 1:52 AM

* Mood: Tired
* Listening to: "Ironic"-covered by Four Year Strong

It's true, I do--ever since 6th grade actually. Today's lasted 5 hours though--which is why I'm still awake. I'm waiting for the washer to finish so I can stick my jeans in the dryer...I'm not done with my back-to-school shopping, so I still have to wash my jeans about every other day, the usable jeans. I can't get away with ripped up(and I mean RIPPED--like I stuck them in a blender with sharp objects) jeans 'til winter vacation. Can't wait until the next holiday =D

Spent 4.5hours in the guidance office with other people waiting to get my schedule to get fixed...now my schedule's just impossible...AP Psych conflicted with Spanish 4, so they put me in Spanish 5; I dunno how I can survive, since I barely paid attention in Spanish 2(it skips from 2 to 4 because our school is just FANTASTIC). Met some pretty awesome people though, all from saying that I wanted pancakes. My friend Black Jap(his name is actually CJ but I nicknamed him since he's Blackanese) owed me pancakes from Free Pancake Day at IHOP and I didn't have breakfast, so I decided to have some fun and pester him about it. Then I said it a bit too loud and some guy(his names Logan and he's fucking amazing <3) was like "Hey, I want pancakes" and we became this li'l group of 5 wanting pancakes...then I went on to sing the old Winnie the Pooh song("Gotta get up, gotta get going..."--that theme was in my head since right when I woke up for school x_x) and Logan joined in on the chorus. Then he listened to his iPod and sang along to all those old songs from the 90s--and now I'm into Four Year Strong(too bad he has a gf of 6months in Maine). None of us got to eat lunch either. I ended up eating mine in class when I got back =/ I didn't even finish DX.

Anywho, the washer's done--so I'm gonna stick my clothes in the dryer and head to bed. *smack kiss* GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY!

-KF