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tumblr and Some Goals

Yeah, I've had one for a while, but I've been steadily been using it more, mainly to post comics and art that...I already post here. But if you have one of those, drop by, maybe subscribe and I'll do the same to you =)

So, I've decided to do one drawing a day until Christmas. So far, it's working out. I think after a week or two it'll become automatic. I used to be able to draw every day without thinking but it's getting harder and harder to focus and/or be creative. So, to speed up my drawing time and to overall get better I've been just using my friends' pictures as references to convert into manga form. So far it's been working, and I had a little bit of creativity in my newest upload of Calvin and his cat/kitten, Henrik. And sometimes I'm too lazy to draw out G33K!! Offline, so I've just been noting them in my sketchbook to draw later...I'll get around to it eventually, lol.

I'm still waiting on the new Wacom tablet that my dad promised me before this semester started. Gui was able to get Manga Studio on my computer, so I really really want to use it so I can start making G33K!! Until then, I'll brush up on my drawing skills.

Well, those are the updates. Bye bye!

"You...don't wanna go for a RIDE, do you?"

Geezes, I love Aladdin.

Anyways, the more I draw, the more I find myself drifting from manga to a mix of manga and Disney. I kinda like it. And it's great, because that's kind of my theme for my portfolio this year. I'd upload some stuff but a)the pieces are too big and b)I can't set up the new scanner for the pieces that DO fit.

I sometimes feel like I'm getting worse at drawing, which is probably why I always want to show it off to people, to reassure myself that I'm actually getting better, based off their facial expressions when they see it.

I think my style is something I'm very close to defining now: something simple but detailed. A couple of people have said that when they look at my art, it looks like it's really simple but then when they look at it longer/closer they realize the small details I put into it(for example, drawing absolutely EVERY strand of curly hair 'til the whole head's filled).

I think what I like drawing most is the face...well, yeah, EVERYONE likes drawing the face, it's the first thing you learn. But it's the facial expression I like putting effort into, and the rest of the body has to flow along with that face. It reminds me of water.

I don't really have a point to writing this, I just felt like expressing myself some

-KF

Mood: Compassion
Listening to: "A Whole New World"-Aladdin Soundtrack
Eating: Veggie chips
Drinking: Apple juice <3

Just Another Slap in the Face

Sun Nov 1, 2009, 2:44 PM

* Mood: Vengeful

"Grow up." I hate that phrase. I find it ironic that when i finally get to make a decision that can really affect my life, I can't choose between limitless options. I just can't. It's like throwing a toddler that just learned how to walk into a marathon. It's pathetic--I'M pathetic. I lack motivation to do anything, and I know I can do it. I'm just too fucking lazy. I'm letting an inferiority complex get the best of me, I actually start expecting other people to help, when in the end it all comes down to what I think, and what I think alone, and what I do about it. And what I think just doesn't seem to click with what I know is the right thing to do. I'm a stupid little teenager that knows what to do and chooses not to do it. And why? Just because I'm lazy. It doesn't interest me at all. And I don't want to think that I'm one of those "regular" kids, when I might truly be one. A mediocre stereotypical 16 year old girl. Gross.

I don't go for education. I go for the experience. Probably the only motivation for even graduating and going to college is so that I can experience it all. Yeah, I appreciate what I learned along the way--but it doesn't interest me. Nothing interests me. My grades suffer because I'm a selfish brat and when I do try my best it doesn't even show. Probably the only way I can get better at something is to compete--but what good will it do if that person doesn't know that we're competing?

The only respect I receive is when I draw something, and even then it lasts a maximum of maybe 10 minutes. Drawing. That's all I can do. No matter how much I improve, it's not something my parents will be proud of. My friends would just look at it, have a few comments, then forget about it in the next 5 minutes. It's just something to amuse myself with.

I need to turn my life around. I'll show you. Being lazy may be something I can fix. Just watch. Fuck you, Calvin. Never compare me and that kid.