... kinda slow around here, aren't they...? =._.;= Well, I guess since I haven't been doing much fanart, that's to be expected. I've been sapped, ppl =P *shakes head* Even right now... I think I was gonna take a nap, but then I didn't and I forgot that I didn't and I'm wondering why I feel tired XD At least I got Raine's part up on PGR X3
On the bright side, I'd typed up my general plotline for my senior project so I can work on the storyboards =3 Once those are done, or while I go through them, I could put together a script so I can sync up where the action goes with parts in the song. Then it's a matter of actually animating it X3
My uncle and his helper (who I think is also family) are making a lot of hammering noises downstairs right now =>_>;= They're retiling the shower XD;; When I went down and saw all those tiles in the tub, I was like "yikes..." XD;;
Well, I think I shall get a little rest and then get to those storyboards. Ja mata ne, minna-san!
About this guy I've liked pretty mucch since I've gotten to college... In general, I've always felt I have the tendancy to fall for guys I can't have... However... I feel like there might've been signs that maybe there might be a spark this time.
Though I've been kinda afraid to go much further... Especially when he says "Yep, I think I'll be stayin' single for a while..." I mean, it could be interpreted in two different ways, y'know? Like the first is "Yeeeeaaah... I'm really not interested..." and the second could be "Hey, I'm leaving myself available, so make a move already!" Plus, there are other indications that he may like me back, I dunno...
Some people might say "Well, stop being a chicken already and make a move!" And my response to that would be... "UP YOURS!" ... XD;; Okay, maybe not so much that (if you call me a chicken, I'll rip your ass off...). I know that doing nothing will yield nothing, but as I've been rejected more than I'd care for before I'd even developed as a person (heck, I still need to develop a lot XD), it's left me kinda raw... I've been a sheltered girl pretty much all my life. I've been pushing myself to come out of my shell in some ways and I've made some friends because I've been less shy... However, in matters of love and relationships and dating, I'm like a baby deer on ice... I really am pretty clueless in picking up on signs and it would be nice if I knew how to... I can only really be myself and hope that's enough. But because I'm shy on the outside and aggresive on the inside... it might not be enough XD;; I divulge too much about myself when I should probably create some mystery... I keep quiet when I should probably speak the truth... And I'm stubborn as hell... There are some things people would tell me that would make me just shut things out... Especially with him XD; He lectures me a lot XD ... Although it's annoying, in a way, it's one of those things I love about him... *sigh* We're kinda opposites, but pfft... I think it's in my nature to like a conflict... I do find it kinda boring if there's not enough of a chase. If the person is shy and passive... well, that'll work for me sometimes, but not all the time. Sometimes I would prefer a guy speak his mind and be assertive... but I don't like a guy to be pushy all the time, otherwise I'd be tempted to just kick him in the head... =>_>;= As you can see, I'm quite repressed, so I'm triggered a bit more easily than usual XD; *someone in the bg says in a sing-song tone: bi-pooool-laaar~* =>_>;= *throws a rock at them*
*exhales* I guess I kinda need to rant... I just feel rather frustrated because I'd been feeling like I haven't got a chance with this guy or rather that things wouldn't work out because of the way things are now... So I'd been trying to accept dates from other guys, but at the same time... I cannot feel the spark that I want because I'm still thinking about him. I figured if I found someone else, that eventually things would fade away... But it's not fair to anyone to go off half-heartedly... I haven't really wanted to ruin my friendship with him and that's the main reason why I wouldn't seriously move forward. But Unless things work out or I'm completely rejected CLEARLY so I can undrstand he's not interested at all... I want to hear it to my face so I know... I can't really move on otherwise. I don't necessarily want to cry, but I'm crying anyway because I'm holding everything in and missing this guy OTZ Ha... watch, next thing I know, he'll have a girlfriend cuz he met the girl of his dreams during break >XP *sigh* I have no idea what I'm even saying anymore... I told myself I'd makae this a short post... =>_>;= And now look at it... =-_-;= Ah well...
I would be happy if he felt even a fraction of the same way, but I have to also be prepared to cry things out if/when I find out he really never will. I want to believe that I would eventually find my soul mate, whether it'd be him or not. Pffffft.... orz It's just the wondering and the lonliness thhat gets to me. Mostly, though, I'm lonely for him... OKAY NOW I'M STARTING TO SOUND DEPRESSING! DX< *slaps face and shakes head* BAh! I'm so pathetic right now! DX<<
I'mma just end this post here... If anybody wants to shake me violently so I can snap outta this, please feel free (although if I'm in a bad mood, don't be surprised if I bite back...) Anywho, I'm outtie... Ja na! *dashes off*
Stole from Simmi X3
Put your playlist on shuffle.
◦When you get your song title, add "in my pants" after the song.
◦YOU MUST WRITE IT NO MATTER HOW FUNNY IT SOUNDS.
◦Do this 20 times.
◦Tag at least 5 friends who might enjoy doing the game.
1. Ignited in my pants! ( XD )
2. Instant Music in my pants ( XDD )
3. Safe Place in my Pants (LMAO! XDD)
4. Fish Silent Cruise in my pants ( XD;; )
5. Re:Member in my pants ( Oh gosh... orz )
6. Light Infection in my pants ( =oAo;= Please gawd, noes *sobs* )
7. The First Signature in my pants ( ... )
8. Beyond That Hill in my pants ( XDDDD;; )
9. Ichirin no Hana (meaning "A Single Flower") in my pants ( that's TOTALLY not suggestive of anything XD; lol )
10. Song in my pants ( pfft )
11. A Secret of the Moon in my pants ( I swear, I'm not doing this myself XDDD )
12. Kimi no Birthday (meaning "Your Birthday") in my pants ( ... that's totally not a gift option, ppl XD;; )
13. Salamander in my pants ( OHMAHGAWD! =OAO;= GET IT OUT!! GET IT OUT!!! *sobs* )
14. Where the Sky is High in my pants ( XD )
15. Teenage Dream in my pants ( LMAO yeah it is... lol XDDD *is bludgeoned* )
16. Days in my pants ( ...... =>.>;= )
17. The Meeting Place is the Fountain Plaza in my pants ( Ahahahaha.... orz lmao... Oh gosh... XD )
18. Baby It's You in my pants ( honestly, are these just popping up randomly or is my media player trying to get a kick... in my pants? XDD lol *is bludgeoned* )
19. Wannabies in my pants ( pffffft XD )
20. Zao Ruins in my pants ( ... nothing's really ruined... y'know what, just ignore that one XDD )
I tag... Shayde-kun, Iru-Sen, Kro-chan, Kacchan, and Waku-Waku X3 Mwahahahaha~! XD Enjoy~<3
Hey guys XD I've been so fried... Not baked, don't get the two confused XD;; But Christmas was pretty cool =3
I got more than I expected X3 I got what I had really wanted, which was a dulcimer =3 It's tuned to DAD and ready to go X3 I also got a PSP! =D And three games for it X3 Castlevania: The Dracula X Chronicles, Dissidia Final Fantasy, and (the one I reeeeally wanted) Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep =DD I didn't get any memory for it XD;; so I ordered some and I can't save any games until it comes X3; It doesn't make any sense to get memory from the stores cuz they're so darn expensive! D=< I was gonna get it from game stop, but it was close to $60 bucks for an 8 GB memory stick! D=<< I got 16GB worth of memory for almost a 3rd of that online XD
Anywho, I also got some new sweat suits (comfy~) and underthings X3 and a homemade scarf from my mom as well as one of the jewelry sets grandma left behind. Grandma made A LOT of jewelry while she was alive and she was pretty talented =3
Umm... lessee... Oh yeah, I got Mario Kart Wii =3 and it came with a Wii Wheel X3 I can't drive straight to save my life, but it's still fun X3
My older brother got me this awesome-looking game called "Mana Khemia: Alchemists of Al-Revis." X3 I can't wait to play~! He also got me DDR Supernova 2 =3 But the third game he got was a duplicate of what my other bros got me XD; (Dissidia) so he took that one back =;u;= I have no idea what he'd exchange it for, but I'm just glad to get anything =3 Oh yaah... I also got some Andes candies~ X3 Because I was going all bonkers over the Palmer's Mint Favors (which I have to say, I like better), I got the Andes~ which are also teh tasteh~<3 But if I can figure out where to get the Palmer's MFs (lol) X3 then I would go get 3 boxes X3 They're just THAT good! X3
So...! I'mma finish straightening my room so everything can be happeh and organized then practice on Dulsha (my dulcimer's name X3), maybe tinker around with Geo (my PSP X3), and pop that Mana Khemia into Peztu (PS2 XDD) and go to town! X333 *dances in a circle* Ja na~! =D *waves*
Yep, I'm tired. Merry Christmas y'all (for another 30 minutes XD) I'll talk about my Christmas tomorrow... Ja mata... Zzzzz XDDD
