Hello
well yes amazing hello
i dont really know why but my life it seems so different
i'm not sure what i mean by different
it just is
everything just doesnt look the same
as though i miss everything the way it was
but i love the way it is
i'm really not sure which way it actually is
but somehow at some point soon it'll be perfect
so weird but i have a slight plan
but i dont
i feel so confused
but totally okay with it
my confusion i mean
it's different like i'm looking through this glass just waiting for my dream to become true
for my dream to break the glass and become reality
i really dont know why but my dream
it doesnt seem as far away as it had seemed before like
even though this life keeps getting tougher it just makes it more worththe effort
that sounds weird to make something tough worth the time
like i know that somehow out of all this bad that happen
a whole bunch of good will just shoot out of somewhere
out of the darkest tunnel or the saddest tear
the most beautiful things will grow
i'll just need to find the light to make them shine
i feel silly talking like a lunatic
but to be honest its the most sane i feel
like i'm happy with myself at the moment
even though i think i'm dying because i have this
allergic reaction to something that no ones figured out yet
but the reaction just keeps spreading as the days continue
okay like insanely i have all these bumps on my neck spreading to my face
and shoulders
and then in certain spots on my tummy
and then on my legs and arms
seriously i might die if we dont figure out what it is
but of course no ones freaking out but me
maybe deep in my subconsciense i'm thinking that this disgusting scaley layer of skin that is being created by these bumps will just shed
and i'll be left with something beautifull
but that only happens in dreams
i know i'm not lucky enough to even have that occur to me seriously
but whatever
and well
today i was a little lost in my morning but somehow after i stopped freaking out
everything just shot right around and magically everything became better
i'm happy really
and
soul, well he has a body thats stolen him but
that doesnt make the ability to be friends unavailable
and i dont really know how i'm to approach him
its not like i have no idea who he is
i know so much
but i dont really know anything on how he feels about me so
i suppose only fate could place us together as friends or lovers or nothing
its all up to fate
so i can seriously only hope
