Please call me izioy =] i enjoy talking about anything and everything so post comments and i'll do my best to return the favor =].
I love many things and i'm pretty chatty... i'll speak about my life and the boredom that keeps me writing =]! enjoy my page thankyou

WOAH

OH >>> MY >>> GAHHH>>> wow

soooo it's been nearly 7 to 8 months since i've been able to use the otaku ...
yeahhh i've been pretty upset over this for a really long while

there is soooooo much of my life i have not shared spoken about or anything !
and there are people that have been reading!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY

this makes me even more happy to know that my post are being read even when i'm not on

so lets see the reason for this sad absense of mine >>>>

• I fell in love with Jiro Wang <3, I watched as many of his drama's as i could until sadly my computer died! Crashed! EXPLODED! [hehehe sorry it didnt actually explode]
• well then there was this evil virus that roamed all over my documents and decided to never let me on again!!!!!
• my computer was then shipped to a far away place to be rescued by these computer wizards who removed as much of the virus as was possible leaving it with no more files and starting over from scratch!
• a NEW BEGINNING!---> that blocked the otaku from my personal need to post

anyway then after this terrible disaster and horrible experience i was only allowed on facebook and besides that i didnt have much of any time to actually go on the computer i was too busy !!!!!!!

with what you ask?
well here's the answer :

• swimming !
• marching band !
• the fall play (stage door - i played the character of Olga Brandt)
• women's choir
• honors english
• pasta parties (hehehe those were quite fun)
• movies (sorry haven't been posting about allllll the movies i've been seeing theres like a whole new load)
• last but not least FAMILY

yes that was the beginning of the year then i went on to being the assistant director to the winter play and boy that toke up a whole lot a time that i didnt really expect it to take up but yeahhhh

so my lifes been filled with lots of drama and happiness + sadness as well as a good heartbreak and the realization that even though i've felt so passionately about many people in the past and have believed i was in love i've really never felt that way at all
its been complete infatuation ... what a complete waste of my life
INFATUATION ---> who the hell wants to deal with the imposter of love??? no one its even false pain

the truth is i have noooo idea when or where in the world i'll actually be able to find love

I completely believe in my heart and will follow every beat it gives me but my heart has not been able to completely take a grasp around the feeling of love
that one feeling i myself most desire but how can i truly desire something i dont have and then what if when i finally reach it i'm not really sure it'll live up to my expectation and then it'll be more of a disaster then imaginable that'll just leave me with a bittersweet happiness <--- eww bittersweet things are they worth while ??? ehhh blahhh

sooo i'll post more now that i've been able to get on to the otaku and i'll tell you of my new obsession .... JONGHYUN KIM <3

hi =]

Hello

well yes amazing hello
i dont really know why but my life it seems so different

i'm not sure what i mean by different
it just is
everything just doesnt look the same
as though i miss everything the way it was
but i love the way it is
i'm really not sure which way it actually is
but somehow at some point soon it'll be perfect

so weird but i have a slight plan
but i dont
i feel so confused
but totally okay with it
my confusion i mean
it's different like i'm looking through this glass just waiting for my dream to become true
for my dream to break the glass and become reality

i really dont know why but my dream
it doesnt seem as far away as it had seemed before like
even though this life keeps getting tougher it just makes it more worththe effort
that sounds weird to make something tough worth the time
like i know that somehow out of all this bad that happen
a whole bunch of good will just shoot out of somewhere
out of the darkest tunnel or the saddest tear
the most beautiful things will grow

i'll just need to find the light to make them shine
i feel silly talking like a lunatic
but to be honest its the most sane i feel
like i'm happy with myself at the moment
even though i think i'm dying because i have this
allergic reaction to something that no ones figured out yet
but the reaction just keeps spreading as the days continue
okay like insanely i have all these bumps on my neck spreading to my face
and shoulders

and then in certain spots on my tummy
and then on my legs and arms
seriously i might die if we dont figure out what it is
but of course no ones freaking out but me
maybe deep in my subconsciense i'm thinking that this disgusting scaley layer of skin that is being created by these bumps will just shed
and i'll be left with something beautifull
but that only happens in dreams
i know i'm not lucky enough to even have that occur to me seriously
but whatever
and well

today i was a little lost in my morning but somehow after i stopped freaking out
everything just shot right around and magically everything became better
i'm happy really
and
soul, well he has a body thats stolen him but
that doesnt make the ability to be friends unavailable
and i dont really know how i'm to approach him
its not like i have no idea who he is
i know so much
but i dont really know anything on how he feels about me so
i suppose only fate could place us together as friends or lovers or nothing
its all up to fate
so i can seriously only hope

hum

yes hello another not really interesting school day all i could say is that my spanish teacher left my class off the hook and she didnt teach and gave us a free period. unfortunately i couldnt even sleep ='[ so sad and i was tired too it was 1st period
other then that i really spent my day waiting for my day to just end i couldnt even look forward to my english class because my teacher was absent
ughh and left a reading and answering assignment which was basically impossible to finish before the bell because i have dirtbags that cant shut up for their own lives which is just so annoying holly crap
then after school i went to GSA which is one of my favorite clubs because the teacher that runs the club is one of my favorite teachers ever
shes so totally insightful
afterwards i left early because my dad wanted to go to the movies and we watched PUSH which i posted about so check it out www.theotaku.com/worlds/movie793
anyway
other then that i'm so happy we're going again to the movies to see
he's just not that into you
OMG i've been waiting to see this movie since christmas time i'm so happy its finally in the movies =]

AWHHHHHHHHH
Valentines day is finally comming up
='[ how sad once more i'm left with no one on this loving day
ughh how i dred the day of love where everyone has someone and i'm just left empty-handed
with only my daddy to give me a card and some chocolates hmmmmm no wonder i'm such a chocloholic live with no true love but the songs of your writing it leaves you only one other love to take up your time while you type, write or draw , in other words all that it leaves you with is your chocolate! every kind =]
well i hope everybody out there has their lovely partner to share that love day with!