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I love many things and i'm pretty chatty... i'll speak about my life and the boredom that keeps me writing =]! enjoy my page thankyou 
Alright so I guess it's pretty close to a year since I've last posted anything!
I miss coming on here. So where in the world do I even begin?
1. I got a job. Yeup I work now, pretty crazy huh?
2. I met a guy there.
3. I started my senior year of school
-It's been ridiculous
-I've gotten so much closer to a lot of my friends
-I've done so much
-I directed and acted in a show this year along with being the producer of the musical
-I got accepted into the college I've been dreaming of.
-I'm going to prom
-I'm going with a close friend
4. This close friend happens to be the guy I really like.
I don't know at what point or if that even matters but I really do like him.
He drives me insane, I actually blush when I'm near him, he makes me really happy.
* He doesn't like me.
Wonderful right?
There is just something in me not allowing me to care. Or just something that isn't letting me be phased by this misfortune. I've always been his friend as of forever and there is no point in not being his friend now. Ugh -___- what is wrong with my mind? it just isn't functioning.
All these things in my mind are obnoxious and unnecessary. I'm really tired I'll rant more later tomorrow.
Sorry for taking forever.
-Izioy =]
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1. Which color is better red, black, green, blue, or yellow?
red
2. What's your first initial?
M
3. What month is your birthday?
May
4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
White
5. Name one of your friends.
Furry Chibi
6. Pick a number 1-100?
7
7. Would you like to fly or drive more?
Fly
8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
Lake
9. Think of a wish, but don't write it.
....mmmmmmm...hmmmm....kay
If you chose:
Red: You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black: You are conservative and aggressive.
Green: Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue: You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love and give good advice to those who are down.
Yellow - You are a very happy person.
_ ______________ ______________ ___
If you're initial is:
A-K: You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R: You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.
_ ______________ ______________ ___
If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last forever.
July-Sept: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.Oct-Dec: Your love life will be great, and eventually you will find your soul mate.
_ ______________ ______________ ___
If you chose:
Black: Your life will take you on a different direction, it will seem hard at times but it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it._ ______________ ______________ ___
This person is your best friend.
.well I'd most definetly hope so.
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If it is 1-50 you are a very lovable person and you have a great life
More than 50 screw the world.
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If you chose:
Flying - You like adventure.
Driving - You are a laid back person.
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If you chose:
Lake - You are loyal to your friends, your lover, and yourself. You are very reserved but emotional.
Ocean - You are spontaneous and like to please people sometimes.
_ ______________ ______________ ___
This wish will come true only if you repost this with the title:
Emotion Test Don't Cheat
okay so it has been quite a while!
we haven't really spoken in months so I must fill you in on all that has happened. or....maybe thats tooooo much
I'll simply fill you in on my summer.
Alright. *deep breath*
the summer started and I hung out with my new friend D who I haven't gotten close to until this year. My mom has been home all the time. I definetly started to feel a little over crowded having her here all the time. Don't we all when our parent's like spending so much time with you. It was truly something totally difficult to get passed. I did though because in the end it's my mom and my step dad so why would I push them far away when they need me?
My love life. I'm not really sure what in the world is going on. It's not me anymore...I feel slightly changed. It feels completely awkward. I usually have someone in mind, someone in heart, someone in my path. I dont have it at the moment. I dont think I like anyone! *gasp* Yeah those words just came out of my mouth. That's the awkward part. I think that the reason I'm constantly jumping from crush to crush is because I dont want to have this awkward empty feeling of not liking anyone. That makes me sound terrible..yeah izioy is the girl that likes to say she likes all these guys when in truth she only needs them to fill a void....THAT'S SO CREEPY!
Like lets take the situation of the fact there was a boy who liked me, I liked him back ..as a friend..a very dear friend, but I never fully came to a conclusion of liking him as more, so then I just decided I believe I do. It wasn't certain or anything but I was really hoping that I did. Then he tells me that he just likes someone else more (his current girlfriend). But I felt terribly crushed yet truthfully I just completely knew that my feelings for him were never truly more than friendship.
>.<
So now, looking on everything I've realized how pathetic it has been for me to crush and be crushed. this all in truth = I've never truly been heartbroken.
*GASP*
I dont know how it is I've decided that this is everything but it clearly is the complete truth.
I love being a romantic. Telling people to fall in love. Wishing I'd fall in love. Always retreating from a fight to let the other girl win, if anything I'll give her the short cut. I am in love with the IDEA of LOVE. It's specialness, the fact others can attain it. All I want is that LOVE not the person in front of me not anything. Just love.
*sigh*
That is the patheticness. To top things as well I'm vain.
Merely about myself. I'm happy with the person I am just not with the body I have. I hate people who complain about their body but dont do anything about it. I'm complaining so I'm on a diet.
FOR REAL.
This diet is insane. I have a pure craving for everything in the house but I cant have it. I have to wait. I have to be exact with everything. I love it. Yes this insane crazy diet that forces me to schedule my eating and how much. That diet I love it!! 10 lbs three days = AWSOME.
GRR RANTING TIME:
I hate putting limits on myself
I hate having people doubt me or worry.
It isn't a thing of being too proud...more like something where you have a goal set and you go to it.
I'm not an extremist I'm not going to be someone who starves themselves or does unhealthy things to reach a point.
I simply want to do every good thing I can to get there. Only God can tell me if I'm healthy or not and no other person can place themselves to judge me. I know this and I hate it when people try to stop you from doing something for yourself. It affects no one else but yet they try stoping you. I'm sorry but only I can decide things for myself and what's the point of throwing negative thoughts at a person trying to persue a dream?
When I mentioned losing an extreme amount of weight everyone threw the idea of me doing something unhealthy to get there. NO no no no no no no no no no no.
That's all I have to say. NO. I make my own decision. I'm a person with good logic. I wouldn't starve myself. I wouldn't over work myself. I wouldn't do anything bad or unhealthy to reach my goal. But yet the response to that was "it's the only way you'll get there". NO. NO. NO. NO.
Do not be foolish. I do what I want I'll get there a different way. There is never a "it's the only way" that's a lie. There are always other ways. ALWAYS.
Just like Sailor Moon saved Hatori, went in after Sailor Saturn and made it back. Always there is another way. Nothing is ever set in stone. Nothing can stop you unless you believe it can.
Those were my most recent feelings.
OH >>> MY >>> GAHHH>>> wow
soooo it's been nearly 7 to 8 months since i've been able to use the otaku ... 
yeahhh i've been pretty upset over this for a really long while
there is soooooo much of my life i have not shared spoken about or anything !
and there are people that have been reading!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY
this makes me even more happy to know that my post are being read even when i'm not on
so lets see the reason for this sad absense of mine >>>>
anyway then after this terrible disaster and horrible experience i was only allowed on facebook and besides that i didnt have much of any time to actually go on the computer i was too busy !!!!!!!
with what you ask?
well here's the answer :
yes that was the beginning of the year then i went on to being the assistant director to the winter play and boy that toke up a whole lot a time that i didnt really expect it to take up but yeahhhh
so my lifes been filled with lots of drama and happiness + sadness as well as a good heartbreak and the realization that even though i've felt so passionately about many people in the past and have believed i was in love i've really never felt that way at all
its been complete infatuation ... what a complete waste of my life
INFATUATION ---> who the hell wants to deal with the imposter of love??? no one its even false pain
the truth is i have noooo idea when or where in the world i'll actually be able to find love
I completely believe in my heart and will follow every beat it gives me but my heart has not been able to completely take a grasp around the feeling of love
that one feeling i myself most desire but how can i truly desire something i dont have and then what if when i finally reach it i'm not really sure it'll live up to my expectation and then it'll be more of a disaster then imaginable that'll just leave me with a bittersweet happiness <--- eww bittersweet things are they worth while ??? ehhh blahhh
sooo i'll post more now that i've been able to get on to the otaku and i'll tell you of my new obsession .... JONGHYUN KIM <3
well for the third time i'm rewriting this post,okay this post is named after my best friend in the entire world, she told me to shorten this post because i informed her about how it was, 7 paragraphs long,and you know what else she tells me that even if its about her she has the attention span of a fly so i should not make it that long, ughh whatever then
FURRY CHIBI
my bestfriend since fourth grade
one of the most amazing people in my life
the most childish too but in a good way
in the way where she spends her time enjoying being young
enjoying the ability to just be around and have fun
most would think its a silly thing to be as carefree as she is but its not a bad thing at all
its a really good thing because we should be enjoying every moment of our youth and our life simply because we'll never get any part of it back no moment gets recycled simply gets sealed away as a memory so she might as well have good ones
my friend furrychibi is seriously a great person who knows me so well whether she knows how to say it or not
i know i cant go without talking to her for longer then a week or i'll go insane
i mean we made a bet before last year during the month of december i thought that she couldnt go for longer then 3 days without talking to me but it was i who couldnt go for so long without talking to her
i mean she talked to me the last week before break only because i begged shadow prince to beg her to talk to me because i already lost the bet simply because i couldnt handle not talking to her
THIS MORNING
this morning furry chibi had made me realize how much of a good friend she really is to me because without knowing it she always does the best thing for me
i mean she was supposed to give me these peanut m&m's this morning and i was going to be sooooo happy because its my favorite chocolate in the entire world
but since i have a long blood line of diabetes and i have a 90% chance of getting it sadly i havent been checked out in a while and one of the symptoms of diabetes is extreme thirst and well this morning i was waiting for those m&ms
furry chibi comes down that hallway from the cafeteria because she just got her breakfast
she sits down next to me and says "i decided i was not going to be one of the reasons you get diabetes so i'm not going to give you the m&ms instead i brought you cake, i got it from the chinese store"
okay ?HUH? you wont give me m&ms but you'll give me cake??? seriously ?? well
the fact that it came from the chinese store makes it obviously healthy
so i toke it and i was fine with it
and i was still thirsty but furry chibi didnt even know
and she offered me her juice box !
seriously how could i possibly ask for a better friend
furry chibi is the only friend thats been there for me at all moments that i've needed someone at all ALWAYS
whether she knew it or not i could never have a friend as good as her
Forever and Ever Furry Chibi will be the friend that could never be replaced
