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Heyo

Alright so I guess it's pretty close to a year since I've last posted anything!

I miss coming on here. So where in the world do I even begin?

1. I got a job. Yeup I work now, pretty crazy huh?

2. I met a guy there.

• I thought I was in love with him
• I couldn't bare being without him
• nope not true
• he's my best friend

3. I started my senior year of school

-It's been ridiculous
-I've gotten so much closer to a lot of my friends
-I've done so much
-I directed and acted in a show this year along with being the producer of the musical
-I got accepted into the college I've been dreaming of.
-I'm going to prom
-I'm going with a close friend

4. This close friend happens to be the guy I really like.

I don't know at what point or if that even matters but I really do like him.

He drives me insane, I actually blush when I'm near him, he makes me really happy.

* He doesn't like me.

Wonderful right?

There is just something in me not allowing me to care. Or just something that isn't letting me be phased by this misfortune. I've always been his friend as of forever and there is no point in not being his friend now. Ugh -___- what is wrong with my mind? it just isn't functioning.

All these things in my mind are obnoxious and unnecessary. I'm really tired I'll rant more later tomorrow.

Sorry for taking forever.

-Izioy =]

WOAH

OH >>> MY >>> GAHHH>>> wow

soooo it's been nearly 7 to 8 months since i've been able to use the otaku ...
yeahhh i've been pretty upset over this for a really long while

there is soooooo much of my life i have not shared spoken about or anything !
and there are people that have been reading!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY

this makes me even more happy to know that my post are being read even when i'm not on

so lets see the reason for this sad absense of mine >>>>

• I fell in love with Jiro Wang <3, I watched as many of his drama's as i could until sadly my computer died! Crashed! EXPLODED! [hehehe sorry it didnt actually explode]
• well then there was this evil virus that roamed all over my documents and decided to never let me on again!!!!!
• my computer was then shipped to a far away place to be rescued by these computer wizards who removed as much of the virus as was possible leaving it with no more files and starting over from scratch!
• a NEW BEGINNING!---> that blocked the otaku from my personal need to post

anyway then after this terrible disaster and horrible experience i was only allowed on facebook and besides that i didnt have much of any time to actually go on the computer i was too busy !!!!!!!

with what you ask?
well here's the answer :

• swimming !
• marching band !
• the fall play (stage door - i played the character of Olga Brandt)
• women's choir
• honors english
• pasta parties (hehehe those were quite fun)
• movies (sorry haven't been posting about allllll the movies i've been seeing theres like a whole new load)
• last but not least FAMILY

yes that was the beginning of the year then i went on to being the assistant director to the winter play and boy that toke up a whole lot a time that i didnt really expect it to take up but yeahhhh

so my lifes been filled with lots of drama and happiness + sadness as well as a good heartbreak and the realization that even though i've felt so passionately about many people in the past and have believed i was in love i've really never felt that way at all
its been complete infatuation ... what a complete waste of my life
INFATUATION ---> who the hell wants to deal with the imposter of love??? no one its even false pain

the truth is i have noooo idea when or where in the world i'll actually be able to find love

I completely believe in my heart and will follow every beat it gives me but my heart has not been able to completely take a grasp around the feeling of love
that one feeling i myself most desire but how can i truly desire something i dont have and then what if when i finally reach it i'm not really sure it'll live up to my expectation and then it'll be more of a disaster then imaginable that'll just leave me with a bittersweet happiness <--- eww bittersweet things are they worth while ??? ehhh blahhh

sooo i'll post more now that i've been able to get on to the otaku and i'll tell you of my new obsession .... JONGHYUN KIM <3