Please call me izioy =] i enjoy talking about anything and everything so post comments and i'll do my best to return the favor =].
I love many things and i'm pretty chatty... i'll speak about my life and the boredom that keeps me writing =]! enjoy my page thankyou 
OH >>> MY >>> GAHHH>>> wow
soooo it's been nearly 7 to 8 months since i've been able to use the otaku ... 
yeahhh i've been pretty upset over this for a really long while
there is soooooo much of my life i have not shared spoken about or anything !
and there are people that have been reading!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY
this makes me even more happy to know that my post are being read even when i'm not on
so lets see the reason for this sad absense of mine >>>>
anyway then after this terrible disaster and horrible experience i was only allowed on facebook and besides that i didnt have much of any time to actually go on the computer i was too busy !!!!!!!
with what you ask?
well here's the answer :
yes that was the beginning of the year then i went on to being the assistant director to the winter play and boy that toke up a whole lot a time that i didnt really expect it to take up but yeahhhh
so my lifes been filled with lots of drama and happiness + sadness as well as a good heartbreak and the realization that even though i've felt so passionately about many people in the past and have believed i was in love i've really never felt that way at all
its been complete infatuation ... what a complete waste of my life
INFATUATION ---> who the hell wants to deal with the imposter of love??? no one its even false pain
the truth is i have noooo idea when or where in the world i'll actually be able to find love
I completely believe in my heart and will follow every beat it gives me but my heart has not been able to completely take a grasp around the feeling of love
that one feeling i myself most desire but how can i truly desire something i dont have and then what if when i finally reach it i'm not really sure it'll live up to my expectation and then it'll be more of a disaster then imaginable that'll just leave me with a bittersweet happiness <--- eww bittersweet things are they worth while ??? ehhh blahhh
sooo i'll post more now that i've been able to get on to the otaku and i'll tell you of my new obsession .... JONGHYUN KIM <3
so i totally love this totally awsome person
who had refused to inform people of the magical thing called her birthday so with all my love i dedicate today's post for HER
and the fact that on the private happy birthday card/message i sent her it wouldnt allow me to add this totally adorable picture i wanted to send her
yea i totally want to inform the world that today is the day i dedicate my obsession with the anime and manga FRUITS BASKET is for her (even though it has nothing to do with her i'll make it totally all about her in every way possible
so yes to VIRTUAL RUM i dedicate this obsessive love =]
okay so i have dedicated the past three days i say to totally watching all the fruits basket episodes because i've always known the stories always knew the beginning but never owned the first volumes or have read them or seen the first episodes or any so i watched all of the series
which i have to say i really do enjoy the manga over it because
the series is unfinished the manga still goes
introduces you to all the zodiac members and well its sooooooo amazingly great
and i have to say that i do love the series and the way everything was played out but only because it was all new to me since i never really knew how it even started out to be honest i'm glad i watched it seriously its amazing and if virtual rum hasnt already i sujest that she does b/c its an amazing anime totally !
i love FRUITS BASKET & VIRTUAL RUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
okay so this friday hasn't been so bad to be perfectly honest
but its been weird
could've totally been better
i got to school late
i forgot i had a weekly assignment due
i had this total bebini(b-i-o-t-c-h) take something i wanted to do away from me, i wanted to read the questions during science for our homework so i wouldnt actually have to answer them so i asked and my teacher likes me so he said that was fine but the total bebini was like "i wana do the questions its not fair she goes all the time and i've never ever read before" okay whatever he knew i only went once before and then hes like "well she's reading" and then shes like "nahh she dont care , she'll let me read" UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i said nothing of the sort WHAT THE HELL i wanted to bash her face in so hard, but no i'm too stupid and nice to do anything of the sort and i just said "whatever it doesnt bother me at all" UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh, yes yes yes yes it soooooo bothered me like there was no tomorrow !!! I left that class feeling like crap because i hate that girl b/c shes so abnoxious and NOT smart and a total cheat !
ohkay continuing on my day i been on my total game for my u.s. history class so that was fine, i enjoyed that class
um... the next class was not that eventfull ... the class after that i had a sub which was one of my favorite art teachers, and she wants me in a lot of her classes but my schedule is not really allowing that at the moment w/e and i had a conversation with her about my future and what i wanted to do so it was interesting but a little strange because when i told her my plan i kinda made it seem like my dream was the last thing on my list and she told me to make that my first thing, but truth be told my dreams are the entire plan!
MY PLAN
so she told me i'd have to narrow it down because then i wont be able to reach my dreams , but everything about this is my dreams its not like i wont be drawing or writing because i'm in school or because i have a job
journalism is writing
i like learning about law
i have weekends i could draw and paint
i have books that let me unwind
everything about my future is my dream so theres no point in saying its the last thing on my list , i'd be living the life i've always wanted if my plan goes well, i mean i know my life wont be exactly as planed because you cant tell the future but they're just guidelines
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i saw watchmen ! check criticism blog to find out what i thought, i'm not sure if i'll write it out right now so maybe later on !
heyyy
so todays FRIDAY
FINALLY ....
NOTTTTTT
okay so i might as well be jumping off the walls happy because i want to sleep or stay up late and not have to worry about getting up extra early to do homework
BUT
the
NOTTTTTT part of my happiness is
well that its a total unhappiness
like i mentioned before that my step-siblings are here
welll i love them like mad
and well i have been spending a lot of time with them but sadly i dont even have tomorrow with them
and i wont see them for another month and two weeks
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
well they'll leave and my life will return to being an obliterating NOTHING that i was before only with the sadness of my Grandmother being in the state that shes in right at this moment so upsetting
but now the one time i have this brilliant light of happiness totally surrounding me for the past week, the light will disappear and once more
i will be thrown into the darkness of nothing
its my step brother and sister and i love them because they're the most annoyingly adorably adoring people ever and i love being their sister
so this upsets me like a mother losing her children
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
whatever !
i've had no magical experiences for a while and it seems like this years going to suck
so i finally figured out that there are only so little amount of people in the world that truly are good people, the people that will be themselves at all instinses not caring what type of group they're surrounded by
and MOST of the people i know and the people i'm surrounded by are totally bad
okay so whatever it sounds corny if you say "that guys bad because he drinks at parties" but still it counts because people in this world that know they're not supposed to do something and they do it anyway are bad people and people that drink at parties while they're underage are just posers that dont really know what life really is and they just see everything as in they have to do this to fit in but truth is you dont because people like the people that stand out and are themselves because its the person they can look at and see that they're just fine giving them the example of being a person on your own
everyone wants to be someone !
the people that try fitting in and think they're someone they're actually noone
because they're IN the GROUP not as an individual but as a cell in an organ
BE SOMEONE ---> someone = my FRIEND
furry chibi especially is =]
hating to see people stabbing my mom in the back at work pisses me off too
i mean seriously i feel like i've been pulling myself away from people
but the thing is i'm totally not!
i'm just stopping
stopping from the foolish falseness of everyone i dont want to be dragged into a false world that wont take me anywhere but down
well yea thats how i feel thankyou for litsening =]
well omg
i feel like i cant go to sleep
i'm wayyyyyyyy to anxious to fall asleep
omg i'm going to washington within a few hours
i dont know what i'm doing i'm dying inside lol
but yea
i think this pic is reallyyyyyy cute
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