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heyyy
so todays FRIDAY
FINALLY ....
NOTTTTTT
okay so i might as well be jumping off the walls happy because i want to sleep or stay up late and not have to worry about getting up extra early to do homework
BUT
the
NOTTTTTT part of my happiness is
well that its a total unhappiness
like i mentioned before that my step-siblings are here
welll i love them like mad
and well i have been spending a lot of time with them but sadly i dont even have tomorrow with them
and i wont see them for another month and two weeks
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
well they'll leave and my life will return to being an obliterating NOTHING that i was before only with the sadness of my Grandmother being in the state that shes in right at this moment so upsetting
but now the one time i have this brilliant light of happiness totally surrounding me for the past week, the light will disappear and once more
i will be thrown into the darkness of nothing
its my step brother and sister and i love them because they're the most annoyingly adorably adoring people ever and i love being their sister
so this upsets me like a mother losing her children
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
whatever !
i've had no magical experiences for a while and it seems like this years going to suck
so i finally figured out that there are only so little amount of people in the world that truly are good people, the people that will be themselves at all instinses not caring what type of group they're surrounded by
and MOST of the people i know and the people i'm surrounded by are totally bad
okay so whatever it sounds corny if you say "that guys bad because he drinks at parties" but still it counts because people in this world that know they're not supposed to do something and they do it anyway are bad people and people that drink at parties while they're underage are just posers that dont really know what life really is and they just see everything as in they have to do this to fit in but truth is you dont because people like the people that stand out and are themselves because its the person they can look at and see that they're just fine giving them the example of being a person on your own
everyone wants to be someone !
the people that try fitting in and think they're someone they're actually noone
because they're IN the GROUP not as an individual but as a cell in an organ
BE SOMEONE ---> someone = my FRIEND
furry chibi especially is =]
hating to see people stabbing my mom in the back at work pisses me off too
i mean seriously i feel like i've been pulling myself away from people
but the thing is i'm totally not!
i'm just stopping
stopping from the foolish falseness of everyone i dont want to be dragged into a false world that wont take me anywhere but down
well yea thats how i feel thankyou for litsening =]
ok so this person i'm alwaysssss talking about lol
i'm absolutely happy that this will happen
but i'm absolutely upset i wont be able to do anything till august
but its going really well
except i dont want to be the rebound for him at this moment ehhh
yea
ok so i'm not sure
i happen to be soon seeing this guy
then i happen to still be on an old flame
i still want to be with this new flame
but this new flame hasnt necessarely been lit
and well i just felt like informing
only bc i've been writing a post like evryday
so just keeping up
oohhh like 2 three posts ago the pic with the girl looking down
i scetched it
it looks absolutely amazing 9.tailed i'm gona give it to you
sometime
thankyou =] love you all
so yea i've been putting up a post like everyday so far i think i might've missed a couple of days but yea
kinda the same thing as yesterday
this boy who i wont see until august
is well i dont think perfect but i dont think i'm like everything he wants
i know hes mainly what i want and he doesnt have any of the qualities i dislike
its extremley hard for me not to think of him like every second
he litsens to me for evrything i think its insane i must say
but when ever i think of us together
i always see how evryone else is reacting
it isnt that great
but i really cant help but feel that way about him
its crazy thinking about this person
this person just drives me insane
i love them
i miss them
and honestly i cant even express my true feelings
its like absolutely impossible
there are sooo many different obstacles in my way
everything
people
connections
feelings
complicated reasons
its soooo straining sometimes
every second i feel like i could spend it with them nd not die or want to remove myself
i'm just absolutely insane at this point
i wont even see them till august
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