~Beadsville~

Sister update

Everyone went to visit Angela yesterday and it was good to see her. You could tell she was trying hard to keep her facade up still (as she's always done) but at least she didn't exhaust herself by being cheerful for us. I couldn't help but check her arms for damage, since it wasn't clear how "peaceful" her admittance had gone. No cuts. Apparently she'd been to the doctors for a check-up when it surfaced how poorly her health (spiritually/psychologically) was and we were all amazed at how quickly they gave her help. The care provided for people who seek a way out of their troubles can oftentimes scar them more or not help at all, so you never can tell.

One of the people working where she's admitted talked to us for a bit and, while he did a good job of setting the tone of how serious this was (as if we didn't know) straight away, he came off a bit ... aggressive, somehow. And it bothers me how he didn't look at mom once. Especially because of the history between her and Angela. Mom's always been pushed beyond an arm's length by Angela (not that anyone else in the family could connect with her any better) and have had much hurt thrown at her. The rest of us usually gets away with a laceration from her bitter tongue but with mom it goes deeper.

In the end our visit "calmed" me a bit. I know this is her fight and that I'll only be able to stand at the sidelines with banners cheering her on or lend a shoulder if she needs one. It'll do.

Thanks everyone for supporting me as I support my family :3

Breadcrumbs

No "real" updates on my sister yet. She's seeing a doctor today and we'll take it day by day. Everyone's anxious to go see her but also understands the need for her to settle into this situation first, or however I should put it, heh.

I didn't feel like going into work today, what with the news and the horrible nightmares that plagued me during the night, but then I thought of SomeGuys' wisdom-packed words/advice, coupled with the support from everyone here, so I went in anyways. It was a nice distraction, for sure. This despite working in the Bread section for the most part :p

It must've been the cold that made me dislike working there the first time because it felt fine this time around. The co-workers really do an amazing job in taking care of their interns, too. I'm filled with curiosity as to how they think I'm doing so far but it feels kinda early to prod them about that ^^;

Speaking of prodding. Before chaos ensued yesterday I was wiki-whooshing (squeezing every last bit out of what I can tinker with *tomatosplosion*) and listened to AP's Episode 108, which aired December 6, 2007. That's the last episode Chigo made an appearance in so he's been gone for quite some time. Aside from wondering how ticked off Ichigo and Batou is every time the question "Where's Chigo?!" pops up, I'm wondering how the little bugger is doing.

*pauses* I can hear birds singing ^^! *continues*

It'd be neat to get an update from the guy himself, ya know, through the forum or via a message through Skype. Not in the "intimate details of Chigo's life - the macro version!" kind of way but more of a "I live!/I died! Gwarghlegh!" and if he's planning on showing up again, like, evar.

This is nothing against the lovely men heralding the show like true champs but Chigo's just endearing in an addictive kind of way. Just like Ichigo and Batou. Bastards.

Ah well. Their show is called Anime Pulse and in the vein of Anime:

Ages ago I acquired "Fruits Basket" (sadly with Swedish subtitles instead of English *mushrooms*) and watch a disc at a time. So far I've gone through ... 2 xD It's a start, though! And what a lovely start. If the anime is this good at such an early stage then I can't even fathom how awesome the manga must be since people rave about it so much. Or are they just raving in general? Oro? In any case I'm enjoying it, especially episode 8 *heartwrench* One of these days I'll also watch the episodes from newer shows that are waiting on me >.>;;;

*gives everyone 2 hugs - returning the thefted one and adds a bonus cuddle*

Hold me and tell me it'll be ok

My older sister Angela just called and said she was in the hospital and that her "soul is broken" but she's hoping the doctors will help her get better.

Mom came in just as I, dazed from shock, finished up the conversation so she didn't get a chance to talk to Angela. The number was busy when we called back so we've been trying to get a hold of the youngest sister Juliette (who's living with Angela and her boyfriend) to see if we can get more information on what's going on. I also called the eldest sister Eleine to let her know, in case Angela hadn't called her.

I'm really scared for her. Hopefully she got help before she could do anything harmful to herself. I want to get on a train to go see her and hug her.

The Great, the Bad and the Rest

Great News: I get a tax return! Almost 5.000 Swedish Kronor!! Dad didn't think I'd get more than a couple hundred, at the most (seeing as my income is ... minimal), so it was doubly wonderful :D

Not so wonderful News: Started coughing today. A little at first but now it's worse. My nose is slightly stuffy and fairly runny. I really want to go in for work tomorrow but it might not be a good idea. We'll see how I'm holding up in the morning. *has lemonade next to her bed for nightly emergencies*

Random fact: I'm addicted to Solitaire. Good (?) thing it's on my phone so I can play while waiting for/going on buses.

Other tidbit: Enjoying "Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle" so much made me think about looking into "xxxHolic", especially since the ads from the second season kept catching my eyes (lolzers). It was easier said than done to find torrents, though. I downloaded a big zipped file of it, which took some time, but then it turned out to be subtitled in Spanish xD;;;

Another torrent only had the first 8 episodes, albeit the DVD versions (downloading those for comparison). Found the first two episodes on Veoh (spelling?) and all of them on iMeem. After one last search for a complete torrent I've possibly struck gold. We'll see once it's done >.>

*steals cuddles from everyone*

Do you come with a manual?

Watching "The Dog Whisperer" makes me want a doggy even more. IT doesn't help that my brain goes "doggy, doggy, doggy, doggy!" whenever a dog breed I love passes me ;__;

But anyway. I didn't go to work yesterday because I figured it was better to feel well and truly rested so there wouldn't be any more breaks in getting my routine on. Totally worth it. The woman I've been meeting with in connection to the Project said something very sensible about my cold: "You've been living fairly sheltered [from other people and their germs] and now you're thrown into an environment where people are continuously streaming through, so it's not surprising you got sick."

She's dead pleased with my progress, as am I ^^

One thing I've forgotten to mention is a thought regarding the 'future'. Sometime this week I'll meet up with the boss and my internship coordinator to see how they think I'm getting along. If there are no complaints from the boss I'll stay on for an additional 2 or 3 weeks. That's as far as the initial internship period stretches. It can be prolonged but , and here's where my mind has drastically changed since the last time I interned somewhere, this is what I'm thinking:

If they're pleased with how I work after the month is up, then I either want some kind of employment or move on to some other place to intern at, where there's a possibility for a paid position.~

For me to think like this kinda shocked me at first. Like, is this way too cocky an attitude for me to be allowed to possess? xD It's nice to feel so ... focused, though. And motivated. I don't want to be part of this whole confusing/dysfunctional rat wheel of not being "well" enough but also not being "sick" enough, constantly being bounced back and forth between places that end up making it harder to get out of the wheel. I wanna be a free roaming rodent :p

Aside from that, I've decided to take a break from attempting to tackle the mistakes I made earlier on in the organizing process because it makes my brain shut down. Eeeeep >.>;;; Sorry Toots! *grovels* Kisses :3

It was fun fun fun to do, though ^^

Also, about the "progress" on my computer. Dad handed it in Thursday last week and today it's on the way to the repair guys. Hm, I wonder just how "fast" this Priority 1 tag is.

*****

Dagger: It looked like the update list was more encompassing today *rubs chin* Hmmmm....

And yikes about that girl! O.o (Am I horrible for thinking it's kinda cool on some level? >.>)

T-C: Not sure where the bruise originates from ^^; It could've happened on the bus or maybe it was during work. I should carry a note book with me to keep track of which part of my body I injure, so as to keep track of my bruises origins xD;

Are you proud of me for taking an extra day off to recuperate? ;3

Shaow: Your comment made me LOLOLOL!!! Now I gotta look for that face you're seeing *giggles and hugs* Love ya loads, hun ^^

Schultzereen: Actually, School Bus Driver is a completely different subject matter entirely *braids imaginary beard* That species of bus driver is notoriously OK. I, to mentioned just one of many examples, have no bad memories of the ones I met in my childhood :)