I cannot beat it,

Nor do I want to.

Life sucks, and there is no point in living it.

I cry myself to sleep.

Because of you I hurt.

There is no point in being here,

Since life is just a memory.

It is no longer a moment,

Since moments are precious.

Life is just there, with no point to it.

Without you, there is no me.

You completed me...

That is until you used me,

And ripped out my heart.

I dont belong here,

Or anywhere else for that matter.

I want to go away, far far away,

And never come back.

I want to die,

To escape this horrid world.

But...I cant, being tied down by regret.

Regret? For myself? Why?

People want me to live,

But how? How can I live without you?

I cant, or its more like i wont...

Because I no longer exist.

To you. To anyone.

I am NO ONE.

So whats the use in living,

If Death is better?

I dont know anymore.

I want to be taken away.

I want my soul to be free.

Maybe this is the way.

Is that where I am?

Or is it my world,

Distorted by my demons?

I cut. I bleed. I pray.

But to who do I pray?

I believe in God, yes...

But I hate him!!!

I refuse to pray to him!

So I pray to the stars,

Filled with angels and demons.

All of which I love...

I cut for them...

I bleed for them...

I cry for them...

I fear no death.

I fear I'm not human...

Just a lost soul...

Destined to wander for an eternity!!

I see a light,

Right behind me...

Fading into my deepest abyss.

All I see is a blood red sea,

A blood red sky,

Filled with stars,

And a harvest moon.

I want Death...

I tempt Death...

As Death as my savior,

I shall be free forever!

I want to feel my pain...

Torment me...

Let me see what life is like...

Kill me...

Before I kill myself...

Hate me...

So I can be alone...

Curse me...

So I can see myself...

Fear me...

So I can wither away...

Love me...

To make me suffer more...

Want me...

sSo I can be used again...

Need me...

So I can kill myself again...

Hurt me...

To put me in my place...

Confuse me...

So I will wander in the dark...

See me...

So I can find out who I am...

Condem me...

So I can live in your Hell...

Forsaken me...

So I will disappear...

Sacrifice me...

So I can feel again.........