it said:
"Reblog if you're no longer friends with someone who you once called your best friend."
Thought of Amber first.
I know she's always mean and constantly hurts me, and is a terrible friend... but I can't help but miss her...
Like... I hate that we don't talk, and I hate that I can't do anything about it..
My friend Ali (Who is I tell all of my drama to xD) said that I'll end up taking her back, and acting like nothing happened... At first I said I wouldn't.. But as time goes on, I realize I just might
But I don't want to!!
Every time she does something like this it hurts more and more
I don't want to take it anymore...
But I always forgive her...
I say I won't, but I always do..
And she knows it
I don't know what to do anymore...
Gonna go cry now.
When all else fails, crying really does help.
Then maybe I can think this through clearly...
Later
~Riska
ps- When I get emotional like this, don't expect proper grammar and crap. I just don't care enough at this point.
Plus it's almost 4am....
HEYYYY :D
This is part 2. Part one is about coffee and stupid people
Part two is about my uncle. Who I think may be one of the most ignorant people I've ever met.
I take that back. He /is/ the most ignorant person I've ever met.
Things Kenny says to me:
(Most of this stuff happens daily)
Loud bitch: I am loud. But I'm also never home and when I am, I ignore him.
Whore: Oh man. I don't believe in sex before marriage, so how does this work out?
Greedy: ....I bought you a coffee, and I lent you $50 yesterday so you would have enough to pay off those child support bills that seem to pile up on you. Way to be a loser.
Stupid dropout: Yeah. I did drop out. But I went back and got my GED. Also scored in the top percentile. So stupid? I don't think so.
Says I suck at art: Well thank you. I put a lot of time and effort when I paint, draw, sculpt, or do anything else artistic. I'm a perfectionist as it is. There's no reason for you to point out what's wrong with my art. I already know.
Says my hobbies are stupid and immature: Well at least I'm not out doing drugs and shooting people, right? Cosplaying isn't immature. It's one of the most important things to me... I love doing it, and I'm not going to give it up just because of some idiot who wouldn't understand anyway.
Calls me ugly: Thanks. I'm a teenage girl with low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety issues. I never asked for your opinion. I know what I look like. I know what's wrong with me. But you have no right to put anyone down.
Says I'll never amount to anything: OKAYYY~ Because /you're/ one to talk? You're 45 and still live with your mommy :P No job. No wife. No friends. No money. Nothing.
Free-loader: .......I'm still a minor. I pay rent to my guardian because I have the money. If I didn't give her money every month, we'd lose the house. I pay rent. You don't. I'm only 17. You're 45.
I don't understand his logic.
I'm still young.
My future can be whatever I make it to.
He'll never change and never have a life of his own.
I pity the pathetic loser.
Putting people down, bullying, all of that high school drama that I couldn't wait to get away from.
Grow up dude.
You'll still be living with your mommy while I have a family of my own, my own house, and a successful career.
Then who'll be the loser?
Thought so.
~Riska
Wanted to drive new car (Am I legal? HELL NAH xD)
Went to Dunkin Donuts.
Asked family if they would like me to pick them up something. I offered to pay and everything.
Everyone declined.
I leave.
Get 4 coffees.
Come home.
Get yelled at for not getting anything for the other people in the house.
wat.
There are only 4 people in the house. Wewa, Kenny, Liz, and myself.
I /did/ get enough for everyone.
WHY YOU YELL AT ME ;o;
But that's cool son.
Now you get nothing.
I'll drink all 4 coffees myself~
>D
Am I going to get sick? PROBABLY~
~Riska
(ps- I had another thing to say, but I think it deserves it's own post xD)
I have good news? HORRRYYYYY SHIIIIITTTT Panty and Stocking Reference? MAYBEEEE xD
SO YEAHHHH
I'm actually writing about good things for once xD
LETTSEEE WHY I'M SO HAPPY, SHALL WE?
Today: Slept all day. Woke up at about 7pm, and I'm about to go back to sleep xD (it's 11:40pm)
Tomorrow(Monday): Mom is canceling my therapy appointment because Sara is in town, and I haven't seen her in forever~ Plus I get to see my godson [: Zach <3 He's such a cutie xD I'm gonna get him to cosplay with me, just you wait and see xD
Tuesday: Mom canceled the appointment for that day too because she knows how much stress I have right now, so instead of being surrounded with stuffy suits, I get to go visit Nessa :D So that means dance practice, and I'll probably be styling her Trap!Alois wig and her Ritsu wig [:
Wednesday: Going to the gym with Nessa and Allie :D then we're going to go go the community center and play pool/other silly games~ Umm probably more dancing after that xD OH! AND VIDEO GAMES! Can't forget those~
Thursday: Going to the car dealership to fill out paperwork for my car/make another payment, picking up a check for monies from the school, then spending the rest of the day cleaning the house and either painting my room, or giving the pets baths~
Friday: I get to pick my car up :D Mind you it won't have insurance yet... but at least I'll have it :D Probably will be spending most of the day at the dealership working out last minute things, then going over my friends house so her dad can fix the breaks (which are actually like the only thing wrong with it xD) Then cleaning the car and giving it lots on luvins~ Still need a name for it xD
Saturday: NESSA'S HOUSE :D Always fun~ Games, dancing, cosplay things, and us being our normal dorky selves xD We also might decide to make a cosplay Rock Band video xD depends how we feel that day
Sunday: Nothin ._. xD day of rest?
Monday: I get to start on my skin regimen~ I have weird discolorations on my back, arms, and legs and this should help make them go away^^ Most people can't see them because you have to really examine my skin to notice, but I know it's there and I hate it. The only side effect to the medication is it will make my skin all around lighter T.T dude... I dont need more lightness xD But I'll deal, because the scar near my eye should also go away :D
Other random things that have happened today/yesterday ect:
I can put almost all of my hair in a ponytail :D all of it except my bangs xD which are past my nose now [:
Ummmm I finally finished learning Saikyou Pare Parade dance~
Oh, and I found out last night that my friend who lives in the Sendai area (In Japan) is alright! That was the first any of us have heard from her since the quake ect... Weird thing is I was talking to her at 2:30ish pm her time (Which was past midnight my time) She's older, so when she found out I was supposed to be asleep, she lectured me and told me to go to bed xD We both said our goodnights at exactly 2:36pm (again her time, I got the exact time from the messages)
Then I wake up the next day and no one has heard from her... It was really scary, But she's alright, and coming back to America in April for Anime Boston.
I kind of feel bad for being happy, especially when there are so many people who weren't as fortunate...
But being sad isn't going to help anyone.
Remember, if you can spare it there are a bunch of ways to donate for Japan relief. Lady Gaga is selling bracelets, Tinierme is having an event, even Farmville on Facebook is helping.
Anyway. Help if you can, and if you can't... Just keep them in your thoughts. Pray, hope, wish, what ever you can do.
Oh sheesh. Always switching subjects, I am.
KWELL
LAST THING: I have a job now. Kind of xD One of my moms old friends recently moved in down the street and she has two kids and no baby sitter :D
That's where I come in. While I offered to do it for free, she refused and told me I should take the money and save it for either a con, college, insurance, whatever [:
Decided to not thing about people who keep bringing me down. They're not worth it. Things can be so easy and unstressful if you stop trying to control everything to be perfect. I'm just going to let the pieces fall as they may.
So far things are starting to turn out pretty nice...
Kayyyyy Goodnight/Good day/Happy travels
(lolwut)
~Riska
I don't know whether to cry or break something
Fucking hate being a girl sometimes
Drama llama bullshit
Amber.
I've been best friends with her since we were kids.
For 11 years. We were 6 when we met.
We hung ou...
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