Yes another update with your favorite fox, yours truly!
Man, I just found out that my earphones just died and I’m pissed. I had those cool DJ one that rapes your ear with comfort and what have you. And just like that they died. They were acting weird at school friday but I didn’t think much of it since the school computers act stupid them selves. So now I’m using the earphones that have the microphone with it that I borrowed from my boyfriend. It’s really loud but has barely any bass which is really important to me XD… Now I got to keep my eyes and ears out for a good pair for a cheap price. The ones I have didn’t even last 2 years. :... and it’s the coby brand. I swear I had numerous products from them and at first its good stuff but then out the blue before 2-3 years it turns into crap.
But moving on…
My final project for school is at near completion! It’s called capstone and it’s just a major project that you have to work on all quarter and present to the dean and teachers. After that I’m done with ITT. My graduation is next month on the 24th or 27th? It’s crazy because it’s the time where people are having the “I’m heading into school” posts but I’m done with mine and maybe for a while. I’ve thought long and hard on what I wanted to do with my life. I was thinking of going to art school but I thought I can just learn on my own on my own pace. Then thinking of the career that I want to have its not really required either. I want to make cute things and just do what I love for a living. It’s the same dream I had for a few years now if any own have been reading my post since that long ago.
I don’t know it almost feels like a stupid move. To just go and try to start a business when I have no real job. This reminds me, I’m working with my dad for 20 bucks an day, finally a break through. But anyway, I can’t get a real job for whatever reason besides the a-hole economy. Not going back to school for a higher degree not even in an art school. But I don’t know, I’ve listen to my heart even when it says seemly stupid things when it ends up being the best choice after all. And its saying to start the business or just leading me where starting the business is my only option to make some cash for doing something that I love to do.
So yeah, I’m taking the biggest risk of my life really. But I have confidence in what I’m doing even though it sways sometimes. It’s just the fear of it failing which is normal, hell I have a fear at failing at a lot of things in life. Trying to belly dance freely, trying animation and etc etc… but it’s not a “dead end” kind of feeling. Like I’m going in the wrong direction kind of thing. Like when I was with my toxic friend and the whole comic thing… It wasn’t a dead end; it was like I was going completely backwards but you get the point.
But I just have to work. Work hard and I’ll have want I want sooner then later… So I’m just getting more active on here and DA and planning to open more accounts for my art and charms and things. I want things to work and I want to have fun and make a living out of this. I know I can, I won’t believe that I should be forced into something I don’t want to do just because it logically seems like the right choice… There’s room for everybody in this world to do what they want to do. So I’m going to do what I want to do.
With that said yeah, the candy sanctuary is still around and will be up and running soon. I made some new charms and I had borrowed my boyfriend’s camera so I should have some pictures of it soon. Among other things that I have plan on doing as far as products. But I want to resign the candy sanctuary and start fresh and new. New characters and new design. I want it to have a café theme with characters based of foods or something. I’m not sure what will come out of the new redesign but I’m excited to work on it when school is over. As well as designs for charms and the like.
There are so many things I want to do when school is done. Drawing is a definite one, I’ve been lacking so much and I want to get better and just draw everyday like I use to do. Man how many times did I say that haha. I really want to try new things and just be the best artist I want to be.
I want to get active in my clubs and in the TMM section. It needs mad love. I want to learn Japanese. Start animating in flash. Just everything. Even though I’m in a uncertain time of my life this is the first time of my life where I felt like I have freedom. Freedom to do whatever I want, and to be put through the roughest year of my life the pass 2-3 years I’m going to seize this time and do what it take to get me where I want to be in life.
So yeah… That’s where I stand today… <:3
I know things will work out in my favor…
So what are your dreams? What do you plan to do in the future? What is it that you TRULY want to do even if your not planning to pursue it?
