In a nut shell the last week in a half have been me healing myself from a screwed up back.
It started when I was trying to fix the pain I was feeling in my back for the last few weeks. Then somehow my whole back is achy and is in pain. Not HUGE pain but enough to make me very concerned. So I went to the free clinic since I have no insurance to see if can see a doctor and NO DICE. They told me go see my normal doctor (lol wut doctor) plus if I was able to see someone I would had to pay 20 dollars just to get that ( I didn't even have the money for it), which wasn't a rule before.
So I was pretty freaking upset, ragey, and straight up PISSED OFF. Walking out of there I could of cried manly tears of rage but Brandon was sweet enough to come with me to the clinic so I sucked all that up haha.
So then I just swept what happened under my emotional rug (to be vented out violently later) and decided to med myself, solution? TIGER BALM.
That shit kicks so much ass its not even funny. When I went to the store and saw it something in me was like "get it even thought you have no clue what it is" and upon Brandon's story about his friend using it for his karate injuries, I decided to give it a go. MAN THIS SHIT IS AWESOME. Each day I use it my back gets better and better! I couldn't even sleep, or sit down because my back would ache. Now a lot of that have been cleared up but I still have some way to go. I'm feeling some pain now but I'm DYING to do something besides be laid up in my room and watch anime (I need more yaoi titles) .
I started a really awesome picture and I can't even finish it because of my back and it SUCKS. My mood have been a damn roller coaster too but I'm more positive now, I have to practice what I preach right haha. I just want to draw and to not be able to but seeing everyone else's (great) work is a good slap in the face. I don't want to feel like I'm not doing anything in my life right now when I've been on the very track to put together my ideal life together. But I can't expect to rush this either because my back is eff'd up. The greatest irony of it all is the fact I'm waiting for my newest card deck the Archangel Raphael cards to come in the mail... Archangel Raphael, the angel of HEALING. >:T ( I'm not laughing universe ) So yeah the "total ass" award goes to the universe, you just lost a sponsor you jerk.
Other then that another great thing that happen is my older brother just moved in for a year. I never mentioned I have a brother because I haven't seen him in like a zillion years but last week he just popped up. I'm really happy about that because he's pretty awesome. He's a chef and used to rave, I thought I was the only one that did that in the family. Its funny because we have a lot in common, things I thought was just a random thing for me, but I guess its in the DNA. XD
So yeah, a lot of what I was doing is being held up by my back, but I'm getting better day by day. Hopefully I will be back on the computer full time sooner then later! :) Think happy thoughts about me guys.
Thanks for reading guys see you later!
