I have no clue what to say.. I really don't...
The guys came over and replaced the heater and water heater for the house. I can feel warmth coming from the radiators and I could cry ;-;.
It’s been over a year since the heater was broken. SO many days of a running nose just for sitting here because its simply as cold as the outside, so many times where I couldn’t sleep at night because it was just so cold and it took all night for my toes to warm up because I need to/want to work on something on the computer, SO MANY TIMES I cried because I was so depressed, so many times where I just wanted to leave and never come back. I just wanted something to go right for a change WITHOUT a price. FINALLY, FINALLY.
TWO winters of no heat but bull shit space heaters that only heated the air around it. Oh god, it’s just so many emotions that I’m feeling right now. I can finally be warm; I can finally WORK on my shop and my pictures with out my fingers getting frost bite. I can know that I have a creative outlet besides my tiny room and desk. I can finally breathe a little easier. Yeah, food is scarce, yeah money is low as a roach’s ass but I can know I’m coming to a warm house. I can final do want I love and make money off it and make my dream career out of it. I can reach for my goal faster and stronger and not cold and depressed because I want to feel like this is an escape or a way to fix it or if I don’t I’ll lose my mind.
Oh god, I can cry but I don’t want to because I’m sick of it even it those tears are from joy. I just want to enjoy this. Such, a foreign feeling of actually feeling the house being warm and not worrying about bringing down the heater and knowing that my feet are going to be cold any way. Just, a wonderful feeling…
Just fucking wonderful. :)
Oh yeah, I just made my commissions world and posted a new picture so check it out :)
Me again with updates and the like.
So yeah, I'm starting school on Wednesday so its time for me to make that statement, not like that I'm going to slow down here har har. As far as the winter vacation it was little sweet and too much sour (in all ways possible).
I got the most important stuff in motion with my shop. I tried to get a savings account but I needed two ids or whatever (drivers permit, bills, state id etc) and all I had that they would accept was my school ID. I even had my birth certificate and social security card, so that was a big bust :.
I did however got the paypal anyway so that was good. Now I have to finish the little ad I started for my lollypop charms which I scanned. I tried getting a little BS keychain camera which doesn't work. When I tried to download the pictures I took with the camera it had this error shit go look in the troubleshooting section in the book, which the "book" (or big ass piece of paper) had NONE. So yeah, I brought a piece of shit just to get shit. That money could of stayed in my pocket >:{.
Then it gets really cold so I can't work on anything on the computer so I'm stuck in my room for days only to come out when I need to eat or go to the bathroom. Which is REALLY fucking depressing thinking about ALL the stuff I want to get done. Not to mention my inspiration for anything was gone so I didn't do anything creative in the last week except how I would cuss god/universe/whatever out, the only thing that really made me happy lately >:D.
So yeah this winter break was a bitch in a half which left me VERY resentful toward anything and everything. A very bitch'n start to my new year :D! Lets hope SOMETHING fucking GOOD happen before a sell my soul to the devil for the perfect life (cause I'm pretty much doomed to go to hell anyway XD) and/or jump off my two story house onto a bed of spikes and candies.
Anyway… Since I got the paypal I’ll open commissions and finish my shop world so I can get some kind of cash coming my way while I hit the streets again to try to find a job… Fucking YAY :DDDD
Happy Fucking New shit Year
Hands cold...
New picture...
Have a grand new year :D...
going upstairs to my BS office heater >_<...
Love you all...
Okay, I know like half my friends already commented on it but I just posted one of the first graphic for my online store! XDDD
I worked on it for 8 hours straight (or just about) to gathering inspiration to saving it to a JPEG. What I orignaly had in mind is different from the outcome. It has a more classy vicortain look that I fell in love with! I'll might do another version ;).
Anyway before I started on it I was going to design a mascot but Zero Guardian was nice enought to think one up for me so I got to business!
I can't wait to see it thanks again! :D
Next, on the list is the a graphic for the introduction section!
Hello and mmmmmeeerrryyy christmas! I hope everyone got what they wanted this year! I got what I wanted, some egg nog and a warm meal :D.
Anyway, the last few days I was busy working on things! I'm finally getting some of the things done that I wanted to do, but I still have a lot more to do!
First off, I got done the line art of my newly designed mews ready to color to use for ref. Now I'm just debating about how I should color it, with my beloved colored pencils, or my hip funky fresh PS and tablet? Since its been warmer I can actully sit down on the computer without my hands getting frost bite D: and I'm not even kidding... I still have to draw my other mews which I'll probably do tonight.
Next off if anyone read my post from a few months ago called "spork in the road" ( I think thats the one) I said that my I wanted my own online shop and make cute clay stuff to sell and such. Well, for my X-mas present my big sis gave me some money to put in the bank and to start up a paypal account! My mom is going to take me to the bank next week to finish the job! I'm so close to my goal, I didn't think it would come so soon really. :)
I started making some clay charms and stuff a few days ago and I got a few sets in the works! Like a red and black charm bracelet with a mint, cup cake, bow, and chocolate! I'm really excited and can't wait to show you guys! I'm going to make a world for them too. I wonder what I should call it?
I also plan to make a world for my TMM stuffs. Like a real one, and not call it TMM and post my problems, hopes, and dreams in it XD. I'm also going to make a world (or edit this one not sure) to post my life stuff and etc. So yeah I'm really making the most of my vacation despite my rainbow of emotions I've been feeling in the last few days like, OMG I'm so determined! HAPPY DESU! :D!! To OMFG someone stab a spork in my head life is sh*t >:{. So yeah its been rough sweet and sour few days.
Also I've been thinking about submitting my OC's and oringal stories and stuff. I'm not sure though I have to ready think about since art theft is a problem these days around the net and I don't feel like taking that chance. I don't know... D:
Thats it as far as updates, I still have a lot to do! I hope everyone had a merry chirstmas or any of the other holiday that you celebrate!
Chow till next time!
