Hey everyone!
Wow I actually manage to put out another world post within a week! Congratulations to me haha! I actually wanted to talk about something that happened to me recently. I'm sure talking about it will help me process it more.
A Change In Dreams?
As everyone probably know by now, I LOVE making fake sweets and I always wanted a business in it, thus The Candy Sanctuary was born a few years ago. In fact it was my dream to make TCS into a big business, something that I could live off of while doing what I truly loved. I've spend years on trying to perfect my skills to make that happen and it's been a hard and tired road. But unfortunately that dream has been put to rest.
My dream, of having that big business, putting all that effort and time into it, just doesn't resonate with me anymore. It's not just that, but I wanted to travel around to conventions to sell my work, make miscellaneous items like cell phone charms, stationary, jewelry and the like to sell. I just don't feel that is my passion anymore, I can't see myself putting in so much of my life energy into it. Not to say that I don't enjoy those things or would never pursue in doing those things, but I can't find myself focusing my "core energies" in it.
This realization came to me about 2 weeks ago. I was on the computer like now when I thought about TCS and somehow, it didn't feel right. I just couldn't see myself doing it anymore. It shocked me but when I let those emotions flow, I knew that it didn't resonate with me anymore. I wanted to do something more, to help people. What that is however, I don't know yet, though I do have a bread crumb trail to follow. As of now, nonetheless, I don't have a "dream". Pretty ironic being that I'm such a huge supporter and emotional cheerleader for finding and following your dreams haha!
Since I decided to follow my own dream, I was lead to many things and even to overhaul my life a few months back, so maybe my dream fulfilled itself somehow in a way I didn't expect. I'm sure I wasn't meant to be what I thought I wanted to be, but to be something bigger and more appropriate for myself that is slowly unraveling in front of me at this moment.
As far as what I feel I want to do, all I can really say is I want to do something more humanitarian like. I want to help the world be a better place somehow, and I can't say that was my reasons for making TCS. I just wanted to support myself with something I loved and that was it, I could care or less about the world around me. Looking back, that was probably a more selfish dream then I wanted to admit to myself, but I grew a lot since then.
I think that through finding out more about myself while changing my life granted me more personal power and control over my life. Most of all, I learned that doing something out of pure love grants more wishes then doing something for purely material reasons.
I've been doing a lot of free readings lately for the sake of loving what I do and providing people something they find comfort in, and my business sky rocketed, I felt good about myself, and started to love doing things for the benefit of just doing them, than trying to sag a potential costumer. I also learned that the world has a strange way of providing all of your wants and needs when you start doing it yourself, from a place apart of competition, lack and selfishly wanting.
It feels nice to be in the "flow" of life than trying to fight for the smallest of things. Feeling like you have to trample the competition just to get what you want. When you start giving yourself to people, in a loving and pure way, you'll be shown the same. It will only brighten your life and increase the love you have for whatever you're doing, which in turn goes right back to the people/cause/world that you're serving, isn't that such a beautiful thing? :D
But yeah, I'm going to keep following my heart to wherever I'm needed and wanted so I can be the person I need and want to be, so I can share that with the world. :)
Take care, I'm sure to update this world again soon!
