Last night I was informed my Mom has passed away. She was strong person, but multiple sclerosis finally got her. Her lungs gave out and stopped breathing. I had a chance to talk with her about summer job and Chris before she died. I knew this was coming eventually but it couldn't stop my tears, I couldn't sleep well. She will always remain in my heart and mind. It's still hard to believe she is gone. She fought this disease and did all she could but ended up, there was nothing that could be done. Now, she is at a place where she won't suffer. She will be greatly missed by me, and my family.
Now, I am unsure what I want to do at the moment. I don't feel like doing anything at all. I have had a hard year as far as deaths. Our family Cat died, Aunt died, Our Dad's friend lost a Dog and Cat and now My Mom is gone. It's all so much at once. Even now tears won't stop, its still so fresh.
I know there must be something beyond this world. Its just I miss her in this world. I knew she was going to do this way but had no power to change her fate. Sad fact is we are all on borrowed time, and nothing is 100% for sure. So I am thankful for all time given with her.
I will hope and mediate on it. That I will have peace but this week, I am unsure how to carry on. Thanks for listening.
