“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”
Friedrich Nietzsche

For my old friends... or anybody who happens to still be around.

Well. It's been quite a while since I seriously even looked at the Otaku. I've been mostly on Facebook because I have trouble dealing with all the changes to this place. And the fact that most of the people I used to talk to the most left in disgust. Facebook is great and all, but I'll never make new friends there the way I did here. Generally I'm too afraid to accept friend requests from people I now see as potential creepers. Somehow it seemed safer on the Otaku.

Well, just to very briefly and generally update for anybody who might be interested . . . Gabe (Fury) and I are still together and seeing each other every few months (the Quebec-Virginia trip is pretty arduous and expensive to make any more frequently than that) and we're very very happy. We've now been together for just over four and a half years. So, there you go. Never let anybody tell you internet relationships can't work.

I've been applying to college; I'm in my senior year now. I've been accepted to VCUArts, but I haven't heard from any of the others yet. I don't expect to hear from them till April. I've applied to Brown University, Rhode Island School of Design, University of Virginia and Swarthmore College. I'm pretty apprehensive about college. I've gone to the same lower-middle-high school all my life and I'm not used to drastic changes. Everyone tells me I'll enjoy college. We'll see. :

Well, I'm still doing lots of art; I'm planning to go into Illustration and maybe book jacket design. I'm pleased to say my work has improved considerably in the time between when I used to post it regularly and now. I'm also still heavily into world religions and mythology, and I may end up making a career of that also.

I'm not sure what else to write about. So much has happened since this place was my life. I'm sad that it can't be that to me anymore. But I think Gabe and I are going to try and frequent this place again, at least a little. So we don't forget the place we met and used to spend so much time. In all truth, this site was directly and indirectly responsible for my making it out of that horrible hell most people refer to as the middle-school years.

So to all my old friends, I hope your lives are going well and I miss you all and the fun we used to have on the Otaku. Happy Valentine's Day. <3

has anyone noticed

how the new otaku has managed to drive away countless older users who are completely fed up with the whole new layout? i know i'm fed up. i barely ever even come here anymore, and i've noticed most of my old friends have left in disgust. it makes me really sad. the new otaku managed to alienate and disgust a vast majority of (in my opinion) the most interesting people on here who always had the most to say. i'm really going to miss the good times here. it's really never been the same since the change and i know it won't be again. if there's anybody left on here who was really attached to me or something, you can ask for my facebook if you like. but i'm not going to be here anymore except to put up new art occasionally. i just can't stand the deadness of the old otaku that affected my life so much.

Alright

i know i haven't written about the two weeks that gabe was here yet, and i've been meaning to for a while. i couldn't do it immediately after, it just hurt too much to talk about that soon after he left. so here goes.
it was without a doubt the best two weeks of my life and exceeded my expectations in every way. we were both worried about disappointing the other in some way, since we'd never met in person before. we laugh just remembering that worry now. XD
when we first met at the airport we hugged for 20 minutes before doing or saying anything else. i know it was 20 minutes because i wasn't keeping count at all, but mom says when she was in starbucks waiting for us she looked up 20 minutes later and we were still hugging.
anyway after that it was almost like we'd been together like that forever. we got comfortable with each other really fast and it didn't take us long to start acting like retards in stores together and all that good stuff. we had especial fun when we got lost on the way to chincoteague island on some neverending back road i didn't even know existed. it was epic.
we went to the beach a few times, the movies, the mall... i think i enjoyed it most though when it was just the two of us watching movies together at home. although i loved all of it. including when we made up a whole method of communication using the word "chips."
i really miss having him around now that he's back in quebec, but i've got a train ticket that says i'm going up there in november, bitches. >:D
so yeah.
i just wrote this to let those of my friends on here who haven't heard about it yet know how it went, since they've been hearing how excited i've been about it for a long time. also to laugh in the faces of anybody who says or thinks that internet relationships can't work. so there. :D

wonderful world of having a thousand children

woot. i just did my yearly round of THE WORLD'S BIGGEST MIXED BAG EVER.
i am referring of course to summer camp. every year my friend sarah and i are counselors at a kids' art (with one little science class for some reason) day camp. it is INCREDIBLY tiring and draining alternately screaming at, hugging, helping, prodding, scolding, encouraging, and getting to know thirty little kids all at once, but it is so rewarding. the pay is total crap, but i don't care. i love those kids. for some of them this was the third year they were in my group. in addition, sarah and i have come to be "mommy and daddy" to them... yeah, i gotta be daddy because her boobs are bigger. tchah.
so the camp is two weeks long, but i only did the first week this year, because gabe is coming next week. HE'S GOING TO BE HERE IN THREE DAYS! *gets a paper bag to breathe into*
i'm so freaking anxious but i can't waitttt.
i'm going to take him to meet the kids one day next week.
anyway, all week i've been getting horribly tired and irritated by the end of the day cause.. that's just how it goes. you're with the kids every second from 8:30 am to 5:30 pm so it gets pretty intense =D
and yesterday sarah and i had a huuuuge falling-out with the temporary director (who by the way is a bitch, but whom i'm not really mad at anymore)which left me feeling headachey all day after crying in her office and telling her she sucked and didn't care about the kids. =D
i really don't want to talk about what the whole issue was since i've had to explain it at length like five times since it happened.
so anyway, today (of course on my LAST day!) i had a wonderful day, never really got tired, and i became increasingly more fun to be with and entertaining and hyperactive as the day progressed. not sure what kind of drugs were in my tea today, but it's all good. i do feel sad i'm not doing the second week, i miss the kids already (we're obsessed with each other =D) but if given the choice i'd much rather spend time with gabe XD
ohh and next year at camp i think i'm going to be a teacher instead of a counselor. it pays more, you don't have to stay the whole day, and you get to see all the kids, not just a group. which is good since all the kids that are my "children" aren't all in the same group anymore. only downside is, you dont' get to spend as much time with the kids and you don't have as much of a special relationship with them. but since i already have that with a ton of them, i'll settle for just being able to see them everyday for two weeks.
aaah, that's all i got for now.
except that i just got both seasons of the honey and clover anime. it ROCKS.

Yay for Stuff

so i made an amv which has been formulating in my head for the better part of a year. i always wanted to make one of cher and hubb from wolf's rain with the coldplay song "the scientist." it reminded me of them from the first time i heard it. but i went through absolute HELL to get all the stuff i needed, downloading the episodes and converting them and all that unspeakable shit. torrenting is always either wonderful and effective or frustrating, misleading, and ultimately a big fat waste of time. but i finally found them for direct download, which made my day. of course they were in a weirdass format, so i had to then download like six different trials of converters (wasn't about to BUY one!) to find one that DIDN'T leave a big ugly watermark in the middle of the video. finally found one. AND THEN I LIVED MY DREAM!
yeah, i know. it's sad.
so humor me.
look at it.
LOOK AT IT!
....oh yeah and on a totally unrelated topic, comments are fun. :D
just sayin'.
you know. :D

...so yeah. here. it's got a few glitches in it cause my movie-maker was skippy and i couldn't watch it without it freezing till i'd already saved it as a movie and it was too late. but i like it overall. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40PSZIW_95Y