“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”
Friedrich Nietzsche

For my old friends... or anybody who happens to still be around.

Well. It's been quite a while since I seriously even looked at the Otaku. I've been mostly on Facebook because I have trouble dealing with all the changes to this place. And the fact that most of the people I used to talk to the most left in disgust. Facebook is great and all, but I'll never make new friends there the way I did here. Generally I'm too afraid to accept friend requests from people I now see as potential creepers. Somehow it seemed safer on the Otaku.

Well, just to very briefly and generally update for anybody who might be interested . . . Gabe (Fury) and I are still together and seeing each other every few months (the Quebec-Virginia trip is pretty arduous and expensive to make any more frequently than that) and we're very very happy. We've now been together for just over four and a half years. So, there you go. Never let anybody tell you internet relationships can't work.

I've been applying to college; I'm in my senior year now. I've been accepted to VCUArts, but I haven't heard from any of the others yet. I don't expect to hear from them till April. I've applied to Brown University, Rhode Island School of Design, University of Virginia and Swarthmore College. I'm pretty apprehensive about college. I've gone to the same lower-middle-high school all my life and I'm not used to drastic changes. Everyone tells me I'll enjoy college. We'll see. :

Well, I'm still doing lots of art; I'm planning to go into Illustration and maybe book jacket design. I'm pleased to say my work has improved considerably in the time between when I used to post it regularly and now. I'm also still heavily into world religions and mythology, and I may end up making a career of that also.

I'm not sure what else to write about. So much has happened since this place was my life. I'm sad that it can't be that to me anymore. But I think Gabe and I are going to try and frequent this place again, at least a little. So we don't forget the place we met and used to spend so much time. In all truth, this site was directly and indirectly responsible for my making it out of that horrible hell most people refer to as the middle-school years.

So to all my old friends, I hope your lives are going well and I miss you all and the fun we used to have on the Otaku. Happy Valentine's Day. <3

Yay for Stuff

so i made an amv which has been formulating in my head for the better part of a year. i always wanted to make one of cher and hubb from wolf's rain with the coldplay song "the scientist." it reminded me of them from the first time i heard it. but i went through absolute HELL to get all the stuff i needed, downloading the episodes and converting them and all that unspeakable shit. torrenting is always either wonderful and effective or frustrating, misleading, and ultimately a big fat waste of time. but i finally found them for direct download, which made my day. of course they were in a weirdass format, so i had to then download like six different trials of converters (wasn't about to BUY one!) to find one that DIDN'T leave a big ugly watermark in the middle of the video. finally found one. AND THEN I LIVED MY DREAM!
yeah, i know. it's sad.
so humor me.
look at it.
LOOK AT IT!
....oh yeah and on a totally unrelated topic, comments are fun. :D
just sayin'.
you know. :D

...so yeah. here. it's got a few glitches in it cause my movie-maker was skippy and i couldn't watch it without it freezing till i'd already saved it as a movie and it was too late. but i like it overall. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40PSZIW_95Y

So then you were like Whoa! And I was like Whoa!! And you were like Whoa.....

i still hate worlds. trying to get sort of used to them though. i wouldn't mind so much if people actually read them, but y'know...
so here i am, sitting in computer class, pondering the mysteries of the universe, such as whether i really did well on that math quiz last period or if i'm just fooling myself into oblivion again. i need some coffee. OH MY GOD, i want raw cookie dough right now. i HATE having no access to a refrigerator.
in my opinion, this is the only worthwhile smiley in our spanking new cache of pixellated overcuteness ----->
i need to watch some new anime. i haven't in such a long time. i actually HAVE anime that i haven't watched, but for some reason i haven't watched it yet. i've had mushi-shi 3 since my BIRTHDAY, goddamnit, and i haven't even seen it yet! this is like a disease for me. it's mushi-shi. come ON. also i've had deathnote two. but since i don't have the first one, i have a reason for not watching that one yet.
...i have too many papers to work on......
i don't know anything about the korean war and my damned army helmet is from vietnam. so there goes my chance to take up a few minutes of my presentation putting an incredibly heavy thing on my head and falling over. also, i have an english paper on Peter S. Beagle, author of The Last Unicorn, best writer ever. i found him on myspace and begged him to be my friend. no answer yet. my heart will break into miniscule fragments if he won't be my friend.
i kinda wish school was closer to being over, but if it was, exams would be here. and... i'm not ready for exams. not in the slightest.
i'm so bad. i don't study for anything except math and sometimes history, and then only the night before. including exams.
somehow though i still get A's. this is a huge mystery to me. i just wish it applied to math as well as my other subjects. math is an everyday struggle for my life.
i'm taking in-the-car driving classes with a neurotic teacher and a girl in my class who doesn't like me.

i'm shutting up now, because i think i've spewed out everything my mind can wrap itself around right now.
------->the parting glance