THIS IS WHERE I TALK ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE AVERAGE IN MY LIFE. OR RANDOM THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I THINK SHOULD BE HERE. ENJOY YOUR STAY.

new poems

okay, so next time Tsumi gets on at a friend's house, she will submit more poems at her poetry world. She doesn't really have the time for it now, since she is at home and has LOTS of poems that she wrote and only recenly found again. Tsumi has been doing a lot of bike riding, since her mountain bike came through fedex....she loves riding her bike now!!! it has been so long since she rode a bike that it almost feels like I just learned again, but I've still got it, and i can ride with no hands for a little at a time. ^-^ She has had chores, such as working around the house, you know, clean dishes clean room, vacuum, wipe counters, take care of dogs...so she has been keeping busy, and she also went swimming recently with her friend Asha. It was fun! We are trying to plan a night for a sleepover soon, but right now she is sick. Poor thing! Tsumi calls her daughter, since she accidentally called me mom at school once. Hehe! Yes yes, Tsumi and Asha are very close. ^^ I don't know what I would do without her for a friend. She's so great! She helps me through a lot. Sadly, Tsumi's other friend who was always there, never failed...has moved to Vegas. I might not ever see her again...I miss her already, and regret very much that I hadn't called her not even once after summer started. I didn't get to say goodbye. *sigh* I've been drawing again, also. I need a scanner though... i want to post my art, honest!! I just...can't right now. Asha offered to let me use her scanner, so maybe soon...I just have lots of art. So a lot of it will go to Deviantart, and my deviant art username is: TsUmIwOlFpRiEsTeSs24
so look me up! ^-^ I put more art on there than on here. I've been writing songs again, also. They're pretty hateful, however...and I'm not sure I should post them...I've been feeling spiteful lately. I don't know what is bothering me just yet, but whatever it is, it is affecting how I feel and act. I shouldn't be spiteful at any time, but it is happening now most of all.
I've been checking my stuff whenever I can, so be patient if any of you have things to PM to me...if I don't get back to you right away, I'm busy with life. Yes, i actually have a life now. Hehe. But really, I need everyone to stay patient with me, and bear with me for now. I've been feeling, as I said, spiteful, and a bit down. It has nothing to do with guys, so don't ask about that, please...it gets a little frustrating after a while since it seems like that is always what people assume is wrong with me. I'm not accusing anyone on here that I'm friends with, but I'm rather referring to people in my life outside of theO who assume it a lot.
Not only am I spiteful, but I'm pissed off. Friends that I've told time and time again that I'm grounded from the phone keep on calling. What part of it don't they get? I'm GROUNDED FROM THE DAMN PHONE. I can only call certain ppl, and only when I ask first. I even got the privelage from my mom to use her razr to text my friend Asha. She lets me do that as long as I ask first. But some of my friends I am still grounded from, and I've told them that I can't talk on the phone right now cause I'm grounded, but NO, they don't listen, they continue to call. "Is Tsu there?" "Can Tsu talk?" NO, I can't, take the hint and stop calling. Jeez. It's very aggrivating.
...Tsumi wants some goth lolita outfits. O.o That's another thing. I saw some at Hot Topic...I want them. But I need to wait till I'm at least 18 or something like that. That makes me sad...so i've been looking at some outfits that are appropriate for public wear. Ones that my parents would approve of. I sent some suggestions to my mum, so I'm hoping she likes them too.
Tsumi has been getting on Gaia often, she recently set up her playlist, so...um...that account name is:
anreiXbalthier22_23
so look me up on gaia too, if you get the chance. Anyway, I should end this post, it's probably the longest one I've done by far, and I have to send a message to Kyonkichi cause he keeps sending me Flickr things. (what the friggin hell is Flickr!?!!?! AAARGH!!! WHAT THE F$%~!?!?!?)
bye then.
~TsUmI~

anger problems?!

okay so last night, my stepfather got all pissed off at me because of PTC (parent teacher conference). I don't know what I did to make him mad, but he got mad at me nonetheless. So now I'm pissed off. I sat in my bathroom...no, not sat. Half layed down on the floor, holding a razor up to my wrist, crying, wondering if I could really do it. And I dropped the razor and started crying harder when I realized that I couldn't. So today, all day, I've been really pissed off at everyone for no reason. Honestly, I don't know what I'm going to do anymore. And my Kuro is mad at me for what I tried to do. And i'm typing all this really fast while I'm on edge. and I skipped lunch today. And I have an F in my technology class. And I'm trying to get my work done in class. and I am listening to "Toxic" by ...lol...Britney Spears. Well...do I have anger problems???

JERKFACE!!!

my ex is a jerkface dickhead! he wont be nice to me at all. He CLAIMS he was lacking in courage and that's why he didn't say no to my face. But I decided to be straightforward with him and tell him that excuse wasn't enough and he needed to work on it. So he got all pissy and was all...telling ME how HE is under stress lately and would appreciate it if I would STOP. He makes the mistake of thinking that I'M not under ANY stress. Well, I'm under plenty of stress. So he needs to back off. Yeah. Anyway...
~TsUmI~

So I Lied.

Okay, so in the last post, I said everything was overall okay. Well, I lied. Today, that boy, Kuro, confessed to me that he had feelings for me before. But the other boy who likes me, well. I'm giving him a chance, and Kuro says he's okay with it. But, today, my "friend" Nessie found out that Kavin (the other boy) likes me. After school, when I had missed my bus and went to tell her how stupid I felt for missing it, she just stared at me angrily. So I got serious and asked if something was wrong. She said no at first, but I pryed. I asked her if she was angry with me. So she said, "Yeah, I am." and I asked her why. then she said, while looking very pissed off, "Do I have to remind you of who I liked last year!?" and I replied, "Yeah, probably, cause I don't remember. It's too far back for me." and I was serious. But then she saw her bus and said bye to everyone else but me. And walked off. I can't believe this! She's getting mad at me over a BOY! HONESTLY! When did this woman become so immature to the point of petty jealousy? I didn't have a say in who he liked anyway, so I don't know WHY she's mad at ME! And besides, that was LAST YEAR. So WHAT!? So he likes me, big deal! Does she seriously have to be pissed off at me for it?! I THINK NOT! People tell me that sometimes I'm immature, but in a good way. Because it makes people laugh. She's being immature in the BAD way. She's being childishly selfish, and becoming spiteful towards me all because Kavin likes me. That's a pretty stupid reason to be mad, if you ask me. I don't know what to do anymore! All my friends are turning against me for stupid reasons! And now, I do believe that I may have actually hurt Kuro a little by saying okay to Kavin! For the love of everything good and Holy, why is everything going wrong right now? This is the worst possible time for something bad to happen, but it's happening. The thought of running away has come to my mind, but where will I run? I've nowhere TO run. And running away never solved anything, right? You have to face your fears and your problems, right? And that's what I'm doing! But look at where it's getting me! NOWHERE! Nowhere but stuck in between ridiculousness! I can't stand high school drama anymore, and if I have to deal with even one more thing, I'm going to either die or go insane. TOTALLY INSANE. Not just a little insane to where I can get help. I mean beyond help insane. And I REALLY don't want that to happen. But anyway...just...Tsumi needs to relieve her stress. So...bai bai nao...
~Tsumi