That Facebook TheOtaku thing is to the right of my screen and I feel like it's shouting at me to click 'Like' on it, but I don't have a Facebook and never want one, but now I sorta do, but then I don't.
And now there's all of this magical TheOtaku stuff happening on another site, and I'm not there. But I want to be, but I can't because I don't want to be, but I do.
Did that make sense?
Didn't think so.
also, that gif hurts me because during my absence from TheOtaku, Psych ended & I wasn't prepared for it to end. And I literally put off watching the last episode for over a month, and the second I started it I burst into tears and paused it. I need my Shawn and Gus, guys. I need my detective vanilla and chocolate thunder back. If you haven't seen the series, I can't even begin to tell you what you've missed.
Holy-
CRAP.
Life can sweep you off of your feet.
I've been away for a godawful long time, and for this and to all of my wonderful friends - I'm sorry. I can't even begin to apologize for vanishing for such an extended period of time.
But my apology can only mean so much, if I don't offer an explanation. So I'll be completely honest and open about it.
Right around the the time I vanished I was dealing with one of the biggest issues that I still struggle with now - depression and anxiety. I was living in a residence that I didn't like, big RL issues were weighing down on me, and for a long time, I felt as though there was so much in life that I was not accomplishing. I didn't want to wake up and do anything, I didn't even want to put effort into designing art and webpages. And honestly, I can't drawn anything since I vanished. My favorite hobby is almost abandoned, I can hardly believe it.
Since then however, I've moved to a fantastic house (honestly, when I first arrived in my new home, I started crying because it was such a stark difference from where I used to live, which was absolutely trashy and not up to my basic standards at all!). Several doctors visits have finally addressed by depression and anxiety and I have recently been taking medication & have been trying to be more outgoing with friends.
Life still has its difficulties, and I would be lying if I said that everything is kosher. But I sat down in front of my computer after taking my medication for the day, and I started thinking about everything I've been leaving behind and neglecting and I realized something-
some of the happiest times in my life were spent on TheOtaku and other websites where I've made so many amazing friends, and I would have to be foolish to continue life without coming back.
I'm so sorry for taking off like I did, but many times, when depression hits, even doing the things you used to love can make you feel worse. Because of it, I stopped visiting here, Minitokyo (I tried coming back, but the anxiety and RL issues choked me every time I logged in), and other sites (even YouTube, until recently. I refused to log in even!)
I'll be spending a lot of more time here, re-learning everything about this site (because I'm a stickler like that) and sharing some of the new things that have happened in my life. As for Minitokyo, I'll be working on reintergrating myself there as well. One step at a time though.
Once again, I'm sorry that I've been away for such a long time, and I hope that my friends can uderstand and forgive me.
I'm glad to see all of you again, & I hope you've all been okay these years!
Many issues with computers, and switching PCs has left this without any updates (I'm working on it though), but I felt as though I needed to mention this. Looking through the gallery today and many other times, and I've noticed something and thought I should mention it, to make sure people avoid it when making eCard & wallpapers.
Be careful with renders and where you pull them from. DeviantART, renders-graphiques, Anime Render, Planet Render (and plenty other websites) might have 'excellent' wallpaper/graphics resources, but many people take Pixiv or other unofficial artworks, create renders with them, and then post them for people to use. With the original background gone/the image altered, reverse searching with any website becomes much more difficult (;_; oh god, you have no idea), and can lead people to thinking that it's not fan art since the artwork doesn't turn up any results when reverse searching for it.
Blame can be directed towards the people posting the renders, but in the end, you are responsible for what you post, and you need to always know the exact source of what you're using in wallpapers & eCards, & find more trustworthy websites and/or learn how to render scans yourself.
To help, here's a couple of websites that have renders/transparent PNGs made from scans: x, x, x, x, x (sweetdevil's site)
Please be careful. ;__;
Premium Benefit List:
- Browse theOtaku.com with a streamlined, 100% ad-free design
And before you ask, yes, I Adblocked it.
And guess what?
IT CAME BACK THE NEXT DAY.
And my exact words were:
So, it slipped past my Premium status and Adblock Plus.
Conclusion? Most BAMF advertisement ever. Obviously, this thing really, really, really wants me to relax and shop from the comfort of my home. And seeing how persistent they are, I'm beginning to understand the meaningful complexity of their words and see a brighter future for myself- filled with relaxing and shopping, while still being able to stay home and watch copious amounts of Cold Case Files & Doctor Who.
Let me translate that last bit for you,
Conclusion? Most virus-filled advertisement ever. Obviously, this thing really, really, really wants my foot up its digital hindquarters from the comfort of hell. And seeing how persistent they are, I'm beginning to loathe the moronic mediocrity of their words and see a darker future for them- riddled with ash and fire- the very air they will breathe will be a poisonous fume. And they will try to stop me, but not with 10,000 men can they do this. It will be folly.
Also, bowties are cool.
There once was an Otaku,
Who believed TheOtaku was pieced together with super-glue
but then one day she glanced,
in a horrible instant, perchance,
TheOtaku hiking a trip to Middle Earth,
While waving its hand in childish mirth,
Shouting out, "Fuck you, I'm leaving for a few hours,"
"And the site will be broken down until you're brought to a cower,"
"But don't worry, the sky is still blue,"
-everywhere else except TheOtaku."
The real lesson here: every time the site goes down, Seto Kaiba smiles and a puppy dies.
"Sweet Mel Gibson, no!"
Please think of the puppies.
