Apparently, life and the cosmic forces have more rules and boundaries than i was previously aware. Atoms are small, gravity works, and having your life completely shattered has no grace period- before striking again. I'm..tired. Exhausted, and therefore numb; yet I can not help but notice that this newfound quietness of the mind is rather... enjoyable. Its funny how much one's emotions flurry through the mind..
A friend confessed to me, not long ago, that they found themselves extremely unhappy. Could not focus on who they were, and felt as though their love life was failing. As though they were settling for a relationship, for a life, that wasn't fulfilling. Or Happy. A story I know all too well.
I have never been one for fate. Karma: certainly; but the events of life are unforeseen, or the consequences of our own actions. As i see it, anyway. My friend asked for an opinion: was this a waste of time? A mistake? Or were they just to picky? Refusing to be satisfied?
I concluded:
Life is an oven.
An oven of varying temperatures. At times warm, comfortable. Others, sweltering, painful, unbearable. Regardless, as the little loaves of bread we are, we stay. Because life is baking us. Slowly. Carefully. Seasoned with experiences and braised with time. One day, the perfect 'dish' will come along, and we will come out. The perfect dish. Just for you. Why would anyone want to waste it, risk losing the opportunity for their perfect match, by jumping out early onto a plate not their size? Is the heat really that bad? Its a decision each loaf much make for itself.
Nobody likes raw dough.
Goodness, its been forever. Lifes so hectic. So much, of everything. Love. Life. Heartbreak. Change. Revelations. I dont how I manage to take it all in... but, I always must return here. :3 Oh! The wing tatoo is finaly in construction; right wing has been outlined. Super psyched for the final project.
It's been a really long time since I"ve posted. >.< Updates? Well... I've moved. Live with my bf and our roommate now. Been ultra busy, trying to move myself and my parrents. T.T Dont have interwebs at the new place right now, got bills to pay. :3 So, I dont know when I will be on next. Gambarimasu!
Goodness, it has been SOOOO long since I last posted anything! >< Well, as for updates: I've been rebuilding and organizing my fathers garage (with the aid of my bf, who, ironically, less than I do about this sort of thing), working towards college, managing senior graduation requirements, and I'm now part for the school play. The play is written by our own drama department (aka; the drama teacher- along with the aid of our digital media teacher's assistance and our constant input/choreography X3) and is a sort of menagerie of different aspects of high school life with a mix of scenes that lead into songs. It very funny. I'm a band manager. Heavy metal rock band. Our community is so supportive of our school plays, its fabulous. :3 Oh, and my bf and I just celebrated our 4 month anniversary (which I must say, has gone by so quickly- I know 6 months is right around the corner X3), so that is awesome. Fills me with glee. *laughs* my mom also just (as in this night) figured out that my little sister has pierced her belly button. XP My mom is VEHEMENTLY AGAINST body piercings. The funny thing is, not only that my sis has had it for almost 5 days, but; she's only 14 years old. X3 Therefore, my sis cant just leave or anything. *chuckles* Sh*t is going to hit the fan, I tell you that!! >X3
Wow, it's been a really long time. X3 Grounded. >:3 Off now, obviously. I'd love to say that nothing much is going on- but I'm actually very busy. Senior year requirements, Japanese club, regular school work (Shakespeare is always quite cumbersome- fortunately I'm quite apt at symbolism and understanding the language of that time :3), family issues, etc.. I must say, this last week has been remarkably wonderful, despite all the sheer business. Especially since my family is starting to get a long, I'm not longer teetering on moving out, and I've been spending tons of time with my sweetheart. :3 I know it sounds sappy, but the last one alone is enough to make my days wonderful. X3 Anyhoo, did everyone enjoy their Valentines Day or Presidents day? Whats Crakalakin'?
Here's a little 'church funny' for anyone who enjoys a good irony as I do. Hope it doesn't offend anyone. ;3
