Hello everyone XD and welcome! This is my first world created and its all about... well, me! Now don't take that the wrong way. I'm not copnceated This is just kinda like a blog. A way to keep things up to date about things that are going on in the life of Aury. Though I may not post all the time when I probably should, I still try and make updates! So kick back, relax, and read away!

2 Months Are Passing SOOOOO Slow... And Yet I Am Afraid...

Alright so, everyone has a reason for them to want it to be a certain month or time already. And as the time ticks down, it seems to go from flying by to going so slow it's unbearable! This is something that is plaguing me and driving me crazy to no return! Especially the last few days! I'm so anxious for June to come and yet I am so nervous about it that it's rediculous! In June, I'll finally be 18; In June, I'll finally be on summer; and in June, I'll finally get to be with him and no one will be able to say a word about it, plus it will be my first time actually meeting him in person. I'll be able to finally hold him in my own two arms, stare into those beautiful golden green eyes, and hear that voice with my own two ears. I know I sound mushy but these are the things that I've been thinking about for the last few days! I'm nervous though BECAUSE this will be my first time being with him. I'm freaked that I wont be what he expected me to be and change his mind, leaving me to be nothing and heartbroken. He thinks I'm perfect, no matter how much I've insisted and tried to convince him that I am far from it. I am, after all, only human. Is this a usual feeling? A feeling of dread that you wont be what they want and think you to be, and that it will be this huge let down to the point that they wont be there anymore? *Sigh* I'm just rambling and over thinking things and over reacting I am sure, but it is something in my head that will not go away. Does anyone have any comment on these feelings?

Happy Birthday My Love! <3

I wasn't abele to be online yesterday, but it was my fiance's birthday! He's another year older and I only got 2 and a half more months till I finally get to go and be with him no matter what anyone says. Time is flying so fast and yet its not quite fast enough. I love you honey! happy birthday, I'm so glad it was an amazing one!

Surprise of my life!! :D

Oh my god X3 I had the surprise of my entire life at about 5 am yesterday morning! I still hadn't been to bed, and I was still talking to Talon (:3). I was tired as all hell but I didn't want to stop talking to him. Then, out of no where, he starts talking about the day that I get there. Said we'd go out to eat, go play mini golf, go to a movie, drop his mom and brother off and go grab something to eat again (his mom and brother love me and they'll be wanting to get to see me as well the first day I'm there :D), and then go to the ocean until it gets dark and the stars are as clear as day. He cut off there for a few and I thought that he meant we would take a walk on the beach under the stars. Which is SOOOO totally romantic, but then he kinda hinted that there was an alterior motvie to him talking about that. Started sayin that there was somthing he wanted to wait to do until I got here. Said it would be so much more magical. But, if any of you know how i am, curiosity killed the cat. I wanted to know what it was. So I teased and bugged him about it playfully until he finally told me he would give me a hint. he left for a moment (we were on webcam) and then came back. then he showed me a ring............
thats right! a flippin ring! I'm sure you can guess just as well as I did what he was saying. So, I'm officially engaged now :D

What a great day -_-

So this morning I had a great wake up message on my phone. My step mother sent me a message over facebook (I have my phone set up so that I would get notified with a text message on my phone when I got a message, comment, etc.) that my dad was in the hospital with a high fever and viral menagitis (don't worry I'm not completely sure what that is either ^^;). He's been so delusional from his fever that he has been asking about me and singing love songs to the nurses. Amazing stuff right there.
I do have school, and they aren't sure if he is contagious so I can't drive the 45 minutes to see him, so I have to go to school anyway. But that's not what irritates me even more so far. Before noon I'm already fighting with my mom and older brother (which is getting more often and even worse than it has ever been before). They wanted me to go home right after school for no reason what so ever. They said because they wanted a family night and to have dinner with me since I'm apparently never home anymore. The issue I had with it was that I already had plans to walk to a friend's house after school and stay for a while, and whenever I do try to stay home and have a family night (last night was one of those nights) they are all either asleep or gone. So I end up wasting my time doing absolutly nothing. Not to mention I'm starting to hate being around both of them more and more, and the only time I'm happy while I'm around them is when Talon is texting me; which, since his phone was turned off, I never know when that will be. Ugh -_- everyone is stressing me out. I just want it to be June already and get the hell out of here and on my own. I know I know, don't be in a hurry to grow up, but geez, there's only so much one person can take before they snap!

He returns... and better than before!

Ok, so it's been a while since I've posted anything, and I know you're probably tired of me gushing about these guys that end up not even really giving me a chance; but someone very special and close to me has recently come back into my life and I want to get all of these thoughts that have been whirling around in my head the last few months out so that they aren't cooped up anymore.
Yes, it is a guy. And yes I do have feelings for him. I have for a very long time in fact. I've actually known this guy since I was about 10 years old, so he's watched me grow up and change and become the person I am today. If you've read my story in my in between world, he's actually the person that the Character Tyler is based off of. Yes he does live in Florida.
His name is Talon (cool but unusual name i know, i asked him if that was really his real name when we first met and it was :)), and he is, like in my story, a little bit older than me. so for the longest time I considered him my older brother. He had a nack for disappearing and reappearing over time through out the entire time that I've known him. The amount of time he's gone varies. Well about 2 years ago, just after he came back from one of his little disappearing acts, we began talking again. The more and more we started talking, the more my feelings began to grow for him. It had been so long since I had heard from him that I remembered him, I knew some things about him but didn't have all the details clear in my head anymore. It took a bit but i started to realize it myself that I was actually falling for the guy. And the first time I finally got his number and got him to call me, that's when it was clear to me that this guy was so much more to me than an adopted brother. I confessed to him after a while that i really really liked him, and his answer wasn't what i wanted to hear but it wasn't crushing either. He simply said he really cared for me too, but he couldn't think of me as anything more than a little sister at the moment.
Months passed and eventually i captured him and we were.... an item i suppose you could say :P and as time passed even more, you guys are gunna wana smack me for this, he asked me to marry him and i said yes.
He started to act a little weird a few months after that and i couldn't figure out what was going on except for the fact that his father was working him into the ground and fighting with him a lot. A few days after Christmas his phone was shut off so I couldn't really talk to him. He msged me through yahoo and told me, and the last thing he said to me was that he wasn't feeling well and that he was going to go lay down. that was the last thing I heard from him for about 9 months. I didn't know what to think. Was he just tired of me? did he find someone closer and better? Could he be DEAD? so many things went through my head. about 6 months after he vanished (just before my birthday)I decided I was going to get over him. or try to atleast. Thus all the guys that you heard me gushing about that I liked a lot. I suppose I was just rushing into things or something, but the whole thing with Joey was real, I was really starting to fall for him.
Talon finally came back around september, but I didn't really talking to him. It was just a hi here and there. I didn't want to fall for him again and I was still majorly hurting every time i would talk to him. But eventually I gave in and had a huge long conversation with him and found out what had happened. and tried to understand why he hadn't or as he put it couldn't contact me.
So long story short (I know this is already long, sorry bout that) After that night we were pretty much back together and he swore he would never disappear on me again. Since then he knows I'm still very afraid of that happening and he makes sure that whenever that thought crosses my mind to tell me he will be there in the morning or that he's not going to disappear again. He's even told me a few days ago that he's so afraid that one day he is going to wake up and I'll be gone. I didn't know what to say to that.
Every time we have been together its just kind of happening without either of us making it verbally known. It's like a silent agreement I suppose. No, we are not engaged this time. But We are having plans in june (just after my 18th birthday) for him to either come and live with me, or he is going to bring me there to live with him. It all depends on his mother's health.

If you want to comment on this whole thing, please don't be too mean, but it'd be cool to get opinions on this though. I'm his as long as he wants me, but I want to know what some others think and what they would do in this kind of situation.