"Put the razor down, I love you more than anything."
What more could you say?
The truth?
But I love these innocent lies, I love the things that break me inside
I love the pain
I love the hate
But the fake has always been my heartbreak
The venom's drove me sick
It's drove me insane
But who really notices me?
All I've ever done is run from myself
The enemy's taking over
The evil's I think are coming true
I'm that evil I've been trying so hard to banish.
But can you demolish you?
I can't destroy myself
Just let the razor kiss the innocent skin
Let it leave it's mark
Let me drown
Because I know how to save myself
I choose not to
Let the venom sink in
Lose control
Let the evil voices command your soul
I think it's best to let this nerotic psycho gain it's control
I'll never be able to find the girl that was pulled apart and broken
She died when the monster took over her soul
She gave up
And gave in
She let the venom break her down
No heart is left there now.
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Well there you go :] I promised a poem
and here it is~
Comment, review, and please ignore how messy it is xD
I still have some parts I'm not satisfied with
BUT
if you have suggestions, I would love to hear themmmm
~Riska
mkay so its like 2:36am right now....
and i actually fell asleep at like 11pm!!
which is really early for me XD
anyway i had this really weird dream...and i cant really explain it...
and right now im still kinda half asleep lol
uh in my dream there was this weird dude- i think is was a dude- and he has blue hair with two peices of red...and he looked a little like Undertaker from Kuroshitsuji...and he had envy-hair green eyes- as in his eyes were the color of Envy's(FMA) bright green hair....
uhhh he was like a stalker...and he actually has been in my dreams/nightmares ALOT recently
like for the past month or so...
but he is really creepy...and had a square head....
all of my dreams usually have me in anime form...and everyone/thing else in anime form too...and as im writing this im actually also drawing a picture of the little stalker thing...
its definatly not gonna look as creepy as it should...but hey ive never actually drawn a creepy person before
and the twists in his hair are also gonna look weird cause i've never done anything like that either XD
ill put the picture up later cause frankly right now im really tired...and i wanna go back to sleep
i only really wrote this cause i needed to say it somewhere...and i dont really wanna start texting Risa at this hour XD
you know what? too bad for her ill text anyway XD
and if your reading this...=D love you <3
^^"
heh-heh
awkward...
kay well buh-bye
and if anyone is actually reading this, i would love ot know if you have ever had a really weird dream!!
or if you, yourself have ever had a dream stalker like i do!!!
=D
~Riska
yesh!!!
i dont fail at life completely anymore =]
i found my camera...dont ask where it was lol
actually i had a dream that it was there....weird lol
probably my sub-concious
lol anyway the pictures will be up laterzzzz
but for now here is an extremely short story(as if you could even call it that) between Matt and Mello from Death Note
yes to answer your question i was extremely bored, and hyped up on sugar....plus it was like 2 in the morning
dont flame
cause i didnt edit, and there is like no detail at all, just dialog
maybe i'll fix it another time
lol but for now its fine
warning- contains extremely BAD humour XD
ps- humour is spelled like that
not like this humor
"If i shot you would you get mad?"
"depends, where were you gonna shoot?"
"idk...my aim isnt all that great, but somewhere in the arm region..."
"uhh why? i need my arm...i actually LIKE shooting, where as your just doing it cause your bored. plus, that would be like me shooting you in the hand, would you like that?"
"NOOOO i need my hands!! im very good with my hands!!! my hands bring me all sorts of joy!!! What would i do if i couldnt use my hands!!!!???? i would die!!!! just keel over dead!!!"
"uhh...Matt what are you talking about...your not telling me about your personal life are you? cause i really dont want to hear about what you do in your spare time..."
"huh? Mel i do it all the time...you see me do it everywhere. Like at the store, the beach, in my room, when we are alone, when we have company. i dont care who is watching, they can just look away if they dont like it, or even leave the room- im not making them watch me do it, or forcing them to join! people do it all the time, its like a natural occurance."
O.e "MATT I SWEAR TO GOD!!!! im lost now!!! what are you talking about!!??"
"sheesh Mel you look extremely frightened" XD "wait...what are YOU talking about??"
O.O "i asked you first"
o.o pause "i was talking about smoking, now what did you think i was talking about?"
O.O quickly "nothing, nothing at all."
"mel?"
"I SAID NOTHING!!!"
O.o "OMG!!! i get it now!!! sheesh Mello your such a perv!!!!"
=] "hahahahaha!!! i mean...no im not!!"
XP "idiot..."
"okay im gonna ignore that for now!! but what did you mean by 'natural ocurance'? cigarettes arent found in the wild, smart one!"
"well for me they are."
"what?"
"you heard me, i find them in the wild all the time" =]
O.e?????
"you know!! i just pull them from the Ciggy bush" =]
"omg he's lost it, he has finally lost it"
"lost what?" o.o?
"everything."
"like?"
"Matt, just go away"
=[
"dont pout like that at me!!"
=[[[
"awww Matt you know i cant deal with that face!!!"
=[
"LEAVE NOW!!" softer now "...before i cave"
"what was that at the end?"
"OUT!!!"
TT^TT "FINE! if you dont love me anymore!!!"
=] "good, tootles."
XD "you said tootles"
" stupid ADD friggin retarded dumbass ginger "
"WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" DX
"what now?" *roll eyes*
"YOU CALLED ME A GINGER!!!!"
"omg" *face palm*
=]
*shoots self*
"Mello?? Melly?? Melly-belly?"
*dead-ness*
"oh, well have fun with your little nap" ^^ *skips away going la-la-la-la in some random tune-less fashion*
~dont worry Mello isnt dead...Risa would kill me if he died
uh the end is kinda anti-climatic i know XD
p.s.s.- if you understood some of my extremely bad jokes/references than i would love to know XD
i like that picture, its sweet
i dont like titles lol
okay so the picture of Shino is wayyy done!!!
and i put alot of detail- like way more then normal, but Risa already took it the last time she came over...so im gonna steal it back for a little while so i can put it up =]
the L picture....hmmm i couldnt do his body for some reason
so i made a chibi-looking thing
im not really sure
but then i screwed up the body again!!!
like its really small...and the normal L just looks rejected
i've tried fixing them...and well it just made them worse
so im gonna put the rejected pictures up, hen re-make them after a few weeks, and hopefully that will just make everything better
=]
or...worse, but we wont be thinking about that now will we lol
the picture of OC Amy is done...but i fail on her hair for some reason
so i skipped it until the end....which was a bad idea
because for me i always start with the hair and end with the hands and feet
but in this case i started with the waist, went to the legs, then worked my way back up....weird i kno...sorry =/
OoOoOh yeah...and the picture of Zero eehhh. i could sit here and complain about it but i wont -_-U cause i dont feel like typing today, and i wanna go to the beach lol. but anyway the face is done, the eyes look rejected (im gonna try to fix lol), but i think im gonna need a refrence picture for the uniform...cause i keep making it look weird lol, and the hair probably needs to be a little shorter in the front....anyway lol im rambling.
my friend drew a neko for me, and he wanted me to re-draw it in my own style....yeah i like his better =], but what ever i guess that can go up too
omg i cant wait till i can put these all up!!
cause there is gonna be at least 4 at once
=]
plus what ever else i come up with between now and when i get either a new scanner, or find my camera....which is still missing =[
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mkay thats it for now
have a random funny picture that i DIDNT do =]
lol yes i can be a dork
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i dont really know why i find that funny XD
the pictures are all finished
i think
i'll check later
but there is still no scanner!!!
plus i lost my camera...again
with my phone XD
dont ask me how i manage to do idiotic things like this all the time, but i do XD
so here is a little thing-y for you to read =]
If your flying across the ocean when your wheels pop off, how many pancakes does it take to get to the moon?~~~~ answer: purple, because fish dont like ice cream. =]
it was amazing, no?
