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Birthday wrap up/ contest entry progess

Hey guys!

Thank you Angel Zakuro and noirassasin for the birthday wishes, cards and gifts! I really appreciate all the love. (huge huggles for you both)

My birthday was pretty good for the most part. Me and my dad went up to King of Prussia mall and shopped around. I went to hot topic and got me some shirts and some really cool pants with lacing on the sides. Everything I got was on sale (cheapskate) so I was really happy! I also got Kuroshitsuji manga, I wanted to get some yaoi but since my dad was buying it I sorta not got any (weeps). I wanted too but it would have been weird ya know? XD I FINALLY got a router so I can get online with my ps3! Oh and I got Grand theft auto 4, the game is hilarious. Its so much cussing and crude humor it ridiculous! I have to invest more time doing missions rather then running people over and robbing them for cash. XD

When I got home my sister got me balloons and my final package had finally come! My resin book and molds were in there as well as a special surprise of a free pair of earrings! They are yellow/orange dangle earrings which is perfect for my new hello kitty yellow shirt. When I give the feed back for my items I have to tell the seller how happy she made me. I will admit I was feeling kinda bummed the first half of the day since I wanted to do something with my friend for my birthday. I was kinda dreading this since last month since I don’t have friends that live around me. (not to mention my hermit/loner nature) >__>… uuuuggghhhh *needs to make more friends irl*… BUT besides all that I had a very good birthday (should of have gotten more stuff since my dad was buying everything XD) the best one I had in a few years since money was REALLY scarce (yay >:| ).

As for my contest entry, its coming along pretty good. I’M FINALLY DONE CAT BOY COLORING AND ALL. I haven’t colored anything in Photoshop for months so I was really rusty with my coloring. I would of token some time to color something else to get me back up to speed but time is starting to run out. So he was my “guinea pig” of coloring fast yet effective looking cell shade stlye. AT THE END I found (or remembered) the gradient style of coloring I like to do. It looks good for the most part but not what I originally wanted. Now I’m on my Manga witch-ling doing the first shadows on her in sai. Thank GOD I made her pose and design simpler. She should be a breeze to do. I’ll finish up her coloring in the morning and add the finish touches to both of them. Then I’ll be 90% DONE. I’ll add a border to the picture it self and finally submit it for all to see. I’m going to submit the characters by themselves too (more of a selection for them and a better change at me winning). SOOOOOO you should finally see them in two days tops.

So yeah, my inactiveness is because of my entry. Things should pick up shortly after.

Oh yeah, I haven’t forgot about my friendly feature! I’m still going to do it once I’m done with the contest. XD

Have a good night guys!

NYAF entry, Yumeiro Patissiere, and birthdays

NNNUUUGGHHHHH….

My contest entry is taking so much time. I’ve been on the computer just about non-stop working on it or browsing the nets/taking breaks … I haven’t worked on a picture so hard before. Don’t get me wrong I’m still enjoying/content with working on it but “I want to get this done” mindset is sipping deep inside now. Both of the character’s line art is done and complete this morning. Now I’m working on the background. I’m 90% done that color and all. Now I need to color in the characters/ make platform that are sitting on. It shouldn’t take too long since its going to be soft cell shaded but still, I want this done soo bad so I can go on with my life. D: It feels like I’m working on a super huge project in school and I’ll be free once I’m done. Besides all that the entry is going REALLY well. I love how it’s coming along and how it’s looking.

I’ve been looking at the NYAF challenge entries and there are some that are actually pretty good. Other entries I honesty thought “why the hell did you even enter?” if your going to submit blurry Photoshop doodles at least put SOME effort into it or not enter at all. I mean this is not a regular challenge that someone made where anything goes. This is a real contest where real people that are in the business will be judging your entry. If your not going to bring your all GTFO please. Then again it only makes the good entries look better. I don’t know, just throwing my thoughts out there. I just can’t wait to get mines out there though. When I see another new entry I go... “They don’t see the storm coming… Oh yeah … The storm is coming full force”. My entry is going to blow socks off. I mean it better since I’ve been working on it for almost 2 weeks? I JUST had been working on it day to day since the weekend or so.

Other then working on my entry more of my packages have been coming in this week! My beads and crystals came in the last two days. Both are so cute and tiny, perfect for my little cakes and sweets. Once I’m done with the contest I’ll go back into my business finally. I got a lot left to do and I need to market much more. One thing I’m glad about joining the contest is that I’m getting much faster in SAI and making line arts are a breeze. So when I make characters I don’t have to fret about how long the line art is going take.

This reminds me, I did the cutest chibi of my Macaroon Lolita last night. It was a face on pose so I had the chance to go “WTF was I thinking when I design her outfit before”. XD Even though the outfit was really random it like it a lot. I was thinking that maybe she could be my shop’s mascot but she doesn’t fit exactly. I need a character that’s a little more edgy. In any case she’s so damn cute she’ll probably be a regular in my character drawings. X3

Last subject for the day… I have a new favorite show that I actually make an effort to watch. I didn’t have a show since shugo chara and it sucks ass now so I needed a new one. And now I found it.. Yumerio Patissiere FTW baby. I loved this show since the beginning. It’s about a girl that finds her dream about being pastry chef and gets transferred to a high-class sweets making school. There’s like 80% missing form my “explanation” of what the show is about so I would suggest clicking on the link. XD But the point is that I’m so in love with the show and I get so many ideas for my fake sweets now! It’s like endless inspiration since you see really good looking cakes and stuff every episode. Not to mention the sweets spirits that hangs around her. I want to steal them and hide them in my dusty room then serve them tea. @W@

Don’t be surprised if you see fan art of it in the future… Or sweets/café inspired things… >3<

NUGHHH, my birthday is tomorrow and I have no clue what to do with myself… I want to go to the mall spoil myself at hot topic and ice cream shops. FFFF I need more real life friend/s so I can get out more since I’m such a loner/hermit. >_> Then again people are so crazy that I don’t want to be bothered…. WHERE’S THAT INVENTION WHERE YOU CAN MAKE PERFECT FRIENDS/PARTNERS. I WANT A CAT EAR BOY BFF DAMNIT. >BC

*ends whining*

Christ, sorry I plagued you guys with a long and non-informational post. I’ll be good next time guys, I promise… So what’s up with you guys? CB

Oh and congrats for Angel Zakuro for being featured for her FF wall! (hugs)

I'm going to enter the NWAF contest! >:D

Hiya folks!

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GAH, why in the world is it so hot. It’s been hot all weekend and I hate it. Today was really sucky because of the humidity. I and humidity had massive beef since I knew what it was. It can be as hot as it wants but when humidity is in the mix I’m pretty much down. I hate doing anything in this kind of weather but lying down and drinking something cold. Which is weird because right now I want some coffee… :| So how is everyone’s weather?

I haven’t been commenting a lot the pass weekend too. It’s been so hot that I simply don’t feel like it much. I haven’t been commenting on the front page pictures either. Most of them I really didn’t care for but even the few I did like I didn’t comment on. I’ve probably make up for lost time tomorrow morning.

I’ve been concerned about my drawing lately. Basically trying to do new things and pushing myself further in my art. Like better coloring, composition, poses, angles, and etc. I just feel like I’m not trying as hard as I should. I know that pushing myself all the time really kills my creativity in the long run since I can get stressed out. At the same time I need to take at least an hour or so out of my day for pure practice. Not trying to create the perfect picture but simply playing around and experimenting. I know that really brings out the best in me and makes me feel good about my skills. When I’m not drawing I usually pay attention to what’s around me. Like how lighting, shadowing, perspective, and how human anatomy works. Whenever I have the chance I would challenge myself and examine my target and see WHY the shadowing is the way it is, or why does it look like it does in a certain perspective. It helps too when I reinforce it with some practice doodles.

On another artist note I’m going to enter the anime fest mascot contest. I wanted to enter last year but I was in school and I wasn’t up for it at all. But this year it’s going to be completely different. I want to enter the contest with something dynamitic, cool, and just plain awesome. I want to pull out all the stops and pour every creative juice out of my body for it. Even though I’m really pumped for it, I honesty don’t know what my chances are with winning this contest is. I only know two previous entries that won. One was a cute chibi hold one of New York’s famous buildings. The picture itself wasn’t great at all to me, it was really plain but cute. The other entry was saiyukiluver’s and it was WAY better then the last entry that won. Hell, I looked at the other entries and it was one of the best in last years contest. At the same time it has me a bit (or a lot).

I don’t know what they are looking for. Do they want something different, crazy, or sorta generic, I don’t know. I wish I had some idea of what it is. I do have a few ideas of pictures that I like but that alone is not that reassuring. Something else that’s really eating at me is my style compared to other artists. I love my style but let’s face it, it doesn’t sell itself. It doesn’t have that generic mass appeal affect. I can work on a picture for days and get an average of 10 hugs (or a bit more depending on other factors) compared to another artist that can make a 10 minute sketch and it hits the top in no time. I won’t lie and say I don’t care at all but the point I want to get out there is this…

I WANT TO WIN THAT FREAK’N CONEST…. A LOT.

And I don’t want no younger, hipper, more crowd pleasing artist’s style to snatch that under me (fire eyes). If half the site likes the artist’s work I’m sure it will be nice eye candy to some random people judging a mascot contest. And yes I’m a competitive person despite my laid back attitude. I have no clue why that is either, it’s just weird. If I feel like I need to achieve something and get ahead, my brain instantly starts turning to think of way I can get there. Fast and effective but nothing to tear no one down either, if I’m going to get to the top I’m going to do it on my terms. But getting back to the point I don’t want someone typical to win. Then I will just feel like I entered for nothing because another entry was an instant win. If I’m going to enter anything I want it to be worth it even if I don’t win. But god if I did that would just awesome *__*… My work plastered on everything, tickets to an anime convention, and 50 mangas that I have no clue to put at.

EEEEE I don’t care about my insecurities or my fears, I’m going to enter that damn contest and do my very best. And at the event a typical art piece does win I’ll just sulk and bitch about it here. >:D

YAY FOR PREP TALK!. SO IS ANYONE ELSE GOING TO ENTER THE CONTEST?

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