Hey everyone!
Long time no see huh? Well, I have tons of great updates for you all!
New World Order!
First you probably noticed the change of my world! I wanted to change it for a while. I loved my k-pop but it was simply too dark and simple for my over the top tastes haha! So when I had a chance today (about 2-3 days ago now lol) I did some photoshop magic on one of my favorite pictures. I absolutely loved how it came out! I also got the background at this awesome place. It made the change so much easier, the world background is always the hardest part! But yeah, a new world theme, something a bit more heavenly and calm. :D
Zenkaicon wrap up (Long post!)
As you all know I went to my home con, Zenkaicon, a few weeks back as a gopher op. Well the trip was pretty rad! I went with my friend Brandon, Jeremy and Jeremy's brother (forgot his name lol). The only thing was that I was feeling really low key (anti-social) so when it came to all the people and stuff, I was slightly annoyed. This was more on the second day. The first day was great, it just sucked sitting in a chair all day, I wanted to get up and take pictures and everything.
The best part of the con was of course the dealers room and the raves! I met up with SiSero again and talked to her. She is simply amazing and a great inspiration to all artists everywhere! It was great catching up with her again. It was really grounding because no sooner I walked inside the dealers room my head wanted to explode. It was simply too much going on for me. However, in the mass confusion I snagged a sweet Super Junior poster that I have yet to hang up, hell my bags are still in the living room as we speak LOL!
The first night's concert was so rad! I danced with the con goers and had such a great time. Then the rave started and OMG I can't tell you how much fun I had! We had our little dancing group and everything! I was showing off my belly dancing moves and even got up in the middle of the dancing circle! I can say that I probably feel the most free at the raves. It's like nothing in the world matters but the music and the good vibes that's spreading all around! After the first night of dancing omg I was so tired. From the waist down felt like the soggiest noodle ever. I could barely move, you could of mistake me for a drunk big time!
The second day was great but again, I was a lot more annoyed not with anyone but just the sensory overload thing. Which is funny because the nicest women came around the gofer's table and started to give everyone massages! She said that she tend to get hyper and energetic during anime conventions so she gives massages to get rid of the extra energy. She gave me one and it felt good, not to mention that I was quite sore from the Saturday night rave. She was super sweet and we had the same exact tripp pants on too!
Hmm, nothing else really happened but I was dying to buy something worth while and I couldn't' find anything that I liked enough to buy. I actually started to get depressed about it. It's like my tastes changed, I just didn't want to buy any useless items, which was probably a good thing anyway because after wards, on the forums, a con goer mentioned that almost all the anime goods providers had fake merchandise. So yeah.
WHAT REALLY PISSED ME OFF THOUGH was I brought some mochi and this awesome FF13 poster and that day the staff hauled it off while they started to clean up the con. I was so pissed, like genuinely pissed that lasted for days, something I haven't had in a while.
The con was only 2 days so it went rather fast. The day where we were suppose to help clean up (Sunday: breaking down the con) we woke up and were super slow on getting out of the hotel so we pretty much missed it. It was quite fun and I was glad that we missed it exactly haha! We went to watch The Avengers in 3D at the Imax movie theater. The movie was so awesome and omg I never found American actors so attractive before, I was quite surprised! Loki, Thor and Captain America was by far the cutest, I was stunned at their beauty hahaha!
The only thing was the theater was really cold so right in the middle of the movie I was falling asleep. That and the movie popcorn had a lot to be desired. Brandon tried to get hot popcorn but it was always luke warm which is disappointing. The prices were pretty ridiculous too, two medium drinks, large popcorn and the popcorn seasoning came up to $20 freaking dollars even! Like WTF, simple crap like that shouldn't be that expensive! But other then those things it was really fun, the 3D was so amazing. I always forget how much I love the movies! I should probably start going by myself as a treat!
Overall, the con weekend was such a blast! I actually recorded the whole trip with my camera in small intervals. Most of which is still at Brandon's, that and my pictures that I took. There were amazing cosplays there too!
A Booming Business!
My angel reading business have strangely blossomed this month! This month was the best month I ever did so far! It's so strange too because one Saturday after I stopped advertising my site for weeks, people just started pouring in. I have gotten 4 orders that day! It's been getting better since, people are actually starting to buy and I'm getting repeat customers that really love my readings! I also been getting lots of positive feedback too on my blog so that other people can see how well I do. It's just so amazing, this is something that I wanted for so long now, some real success! :D
That and my life changes have been going well! I've been breaking down some tough emotional walls and I've been doing a lot better as a result, I'm sure that contributed in my business success!
More Creativity
I've been drawing a lot more lately, some line arts and sketches. I have yet to post any of them. I am completely out of whack in my uploading habits honesty. Posting art hasn't been on the top of my list for a long time now even though I post here and there. I guess between me just not being creative and my perfectionist attitude, it's hard to really post anything and be "okay" with it.
My more finished stuff I'm fine with but since I've gotten more impatient then ever with my art, a lot of my works have been unfinished! I just have so many ideas that I can't stand to just sit and work on one picture at a time anymore. That and I have my other hobbies and such that do take up time.
BUT, I've been in this phrase before, and I recognize the pit falls of my creativity habits. I have to re-learn to have fun with my pictures, stop trying to be perfect, have patience and be more daring in my artistic pursuits! I had that state of mind before my life went to shit city where my art flourished! Once last summer came around it was all over. Now it's like I'm trying to find my artistic self again. It's not all bad though, that huge break gave me a lot of time to think about my art in relation to my life. Things can only get better from here! :D
Well, I'm going to end it here because this post is mega long! I actually had another important topic to talk about but I'll save it for later. I want to try to get into the habit of posting weekly again, but time escapes me all the time haha! We'll see like everything else haha!
Thank you everyone that read my long world post, wished me a happy birthday (May 14th) and supported me all throughout everything! :D Love you all! Take care!
Hey all!
Its been 3 days since Zenkaikon and I feel amazing! The con was amazing too and I met many wonderful people!
The first day (Thursday) me and Brandon went to the con since we were apart of staff. We basically started working that day rather then Friday when the con started because people were coming in a day early to get their badges. When we went down stairs to go to the Gofer Op's station we were greeted by the cutest boy cosplaying as the asian spider man. His name was Danny and he ended up volunteering the whole weekend so we saw him a lot. Basically what I did was direct regular gofers (go•fer (gō'fƏr) n. Slang – one who performs minor or menial tasks such as running errands. [Alteration of "go for">) to places where people needed them. Other departments would call in through walkie talkie and demandask for them and I would report back if I had some or not. If I did I would tell the gofer/volunteer to go the place they needed to go. I also signed off on their hours, give them food vouchers, check on them and etc. It was pretty fun and I didn't have to do much as far as labor. Saturday was INSANE though, we were expecting more volunteers to come in but NONE SHOWED UP so all the departments were scrambling to get things done. They kept asking for gofers where there wasn't any and if there was they would be sent out immediately.
That same morning I came in earlier and got on break later since it was so crazy. It was all really fun though and the area I was in had a lot of actively so I was entertained for the most part. There were a lot of cosplays, my favorites was the Lightning from FF13, Sue from shugo chara, renamon from digimon, and the pokemon gijinka's. The most memorial part of the day was meeting the lovely Sisero, Giname, and Einlee in the dealers room! I actually talked to Sisero on all three days of the con, Saturday was probably the longest since I was on break. She's the sweetest thing in the world as well as her fiancé Marc! I was really surprised to see them since I only know them on DA and didn't even know who was going to be in the dealers room. So I was really excited to met them since I've been fans of theirs for years. Me and Sisero talked a lot on Saturday and it was really fun and encouraging hearing her personal story. I brought also both volumes of her manga "Sacred" and one of Marcs awesome sailor moon bookmarks. Oh and Brandon was smart enough to have the idea to have her autograph both of her mangas that I got. He even did it for me when they were waiting for the Rose Noir concert. She was totally sweet and excited through the whole thing. I hope I get to met hear at another con soon.
After I talked to her I went and bought stuff and pretty much was DEAD TIRED (being around 6 PM). The funniest thing was the hardest part of the day haven't come yet. When I got back on duty things have calmed down a lot so I was able to relax some. However on the last hour of my shift (my shift ended at 11PM) the person at the info desk ( the info desk was right next to the gofer ops where I was stationed) was gone or was done his/her shift so I was doing that as well. I was pretty much handling two stations, giving people directions, giving out the 18+ wrist bands, and other miscellaneous things. Then within 30 minutes 2 cases of missing items turned up and a seller had to get something really important from the dealer's room which was locked. It was INSANE because Kiwi the head of security was on break for hours. Luckily she just came out of it when all three cases came out of the blue. Oh I almost forgot that Brandon helped me in the insaneness since he was done with his shift (at 10PM). I have no clue what I would do without him haha. At the end two of the three cases ended well.
After that fiasco me and Brandon went to the rave! Brandon stayed about an hour while I was there for 3 hours (2A.M when it was suppose to end). I've once again gotten an ass load of glow sticks and threw them on all over my pants and body. When I was at the rave there was another person who had a chain of glow sticks around her body attached to her arms wrists/hands. While another person had the same shirt as me. The rave was so freaking awesome because there was a SUPER AWESOME CUTE BOY there that me and my friends had hung out with before. He had is chest out (again) which was perfect beyond words. He was dancing a lot and I gave him one of my glow sticks, GOD I FELT SO AWESOME. Then through out most of his time there we would be within each other spaces. It was just.... EPIC. One of the best parts was when I started randomly square dancing with people. It was so much fun even though I had no clue what I was doing at first. We just spun around then went on to the next person haha. I love raves so much, I live to rave. The rave was overall just awesome because everyone was really friendly and open. If my room was big enough I would rave every night and learn liquid dancing. XD
Okay I don't want this post to go any longer since its super long. I must of explained only 30-40% of what happened. I didn't even mentioned the crap bathroom we had after we FINALLY got our own room. The hotel screwed up me and Brandon's room so we had to sleep at in a volunteer's room. She and her son was super sweet though, I couldn't ask for better room mates! EVERYONE had a uber big ass bathtub while we had a pitiful walk in shower for OLD PEOPLE. We also had a toilet with railings on both sides, so it was hard to whip yourself. Its as bad as it sounds, really.
Okay thanks for reading and I'll post all the stuff I got next time! Take care!
Hey all
Its been 6 days since my last journal and I'm feeling better but it has been a bumpy road.
None the less I still have to staff at the Zenkaicon convention (leaving today) for the next four days or so. At first I was debating even going but as I felt better that feeling went away and my nervousness about being a "gofer OP" went away. I know that I'll have fun, I got a butt load of glow sticks for the rave. This will help me feel better overall too since I won't be looking at the news about Japan.
Speaking of, Anna kindly brought one of my adoptables so I can donate! I was so happy that I was ready to cry again haha. I'm going to add that to my 25$ that I'm able to donate and I'll donate more when I'm at the con. Thank you so much Anna, your so kind and sweet!
And I wanted to throw in some words of the wise manly because I hate hearing the internet in general pick apart at "the best way to help Japan" or people get this high and mighty aura because they donated. I mean someone I respected on twitter said "Instead of wishing, hoping, and throwing fairy dust at Japan, I'm actually donating".
(I'm going to get some frustrations out first) First off, take the incredibly huge **** out your ass. I mean I wouldn't be so anal if this person wasn't STILL ADVERTISING HER LIVE STREAMS, CONTESTS, ART, AND PRODUCTS ON TWITTER among her "donations" which were way less in comparison. Shit, I hear way more about her personal stuff then some hardcore "let donate to Japan" rallying. I'm not trying to down her since I really like her as an artist and such but "mind sets" like this irritate me to no end, which will lead me to my original saying.
"You can't buy miracles" or more a less "Miracles doesn't come from money"
Pick or choose whichever quote you like best but the message is the same. In no way shape or form can money do what love, appreciation, and compassion can. Yes, money can "buy" all the things that Japan needs to help rebuild and such but look a little deeper then that and you will see that "positive" emotions was the drive of it. It was the wanting to help another that made that person or entity give the money in the first place. And even if you can't give money, that energy will materialize in some way which miracles can happen down the road in whatever form it comes in.
That's way I can't stress enough that if you CAN'T donate or give money by all means and "pray", and/or "positive energy" to Japan. It will reach there and it will create those miracles in small and big ways. In a huge way already the world is coming together to help a county. To me that's pretty awesome knowing how shitty this world can be. Unlike a lot of things in this world love and positive energy can help heal anything in this planet. I mean that's what the best stuff in this earth is made of, love and positive emotions.
So yeah, don't feel bad if you can't help money wise. Everything happens for a reason and somewhere down the road your energy will get picked up in some form. So just send your love and positivity to Japan because that helps just as much if not more then money.
This is my take on life and how the world works, if this doesn't resonate with you then by all means ignore it.
Thanks for reading you guys, take care.
